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Thoughts and experiences from my day life and tie ins to my fanfics. If you wish to read them they can be found at cimarronboy.deviantart.com

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Unfortunately and reluctantly quitting the fandom

Turns out what one psychologist diagnosed as autism is now actually PTSD, Anxiety, and Depression. Good news I totally know where it came from and am taking some big steps to dealing with the diagnoses just by guessing and tiny amounts of research. Bad news one part of getting myself better means I have to drop a few of my interests and give my personality an overhaul. It's to help me not be so controlled by the defensive tendencies of the ptsd/anxiety. In my case things that I use to avoid/try

July 19, 2016

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.... Well that certainly was helpful

Been a while since I've done this but this is research restricted so it's not gonna be my usual... Attempted to find out a place to WATCH a video series involving random characters thrown together in the title with adventures. Asked here since I've known a few other forums that take questions as posts, and the only answer I got (somewhat my fault for not specifying my wish to VIEW ACTUAL EPISODES) was a link to the sight that had sparked my interest in the first place in a somewhat demeanin

June 9, 2016

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Frosted Shredded Ranger

It's getting to be a while with these things (does anypony eve read these?). Anywho things in Midgard (earth) are really starting to be the water to my rock. There's been death, failures abound (the fact I'm a scorpio auto makes the failures ten times worse being we're afraid of failure, hence the deep dips I've been taking in the proverbial depression well). I've lost 3 relatives in the span of two/three months. I've had to attend three funerals and a burial. Good news I got to see some family

November 4, 2015

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Attack of the Premonitions/Getting into the Grid

So things here in the physical plane haven't been too well lately. My willies have driven me to wondering whether or not they're as much of a warning as I thought. The first week they put three guys in the hospital, killed a dog, and brought a littler of kittens to the world while I was away with a broken down vehicle. The second week they killed a cat and caused several more er visits for just one guy. This week saw two deaths, a heart attack with emergency surgery and my mom having an allergic

August 27, 2015

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Catching up after an abscence

So it's been quite some time since I last blogged. I can explain why. The laptop I was using was usurped and hoarded by it's owners daughter. She claims it like Sombre claims the Crystal Empire, (or more exact, like Smaug claims Erebor and all the dwarven gold within). That left me without a properly working gateway to the web. That is now over due to some minor good luck in an existence of bad. All I'm gonna say is child runs the house, momma is too afraid to stand up yet too protective to let

April 12, 2015

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It's been a while.....

Alright so I've been a bit busier than usual and haven't been able to get online much, save for late at night where I do my fanfic, typing a shorter somewhat spinoff to my main Equestrian story. Anywho I've had two other ideas floating around in my head. The first a "My Little Rarity" story where a shrunken Rare shows up not far from my current location, and I have to take care of her until a way home is either found or made. It'd be kind of a short story, maybe just a one chapter pi

February 2, 2015

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Insert Pearl Jam song titled with living or dead status here

So here in tartarus on earth the holidays have thankfully come and gone. Interestingly this year I was able to get through the holidays without having to endure the usual drama of a warzone. The rest of the time though well S.C.D.D. I've begun a new project while waiting for s5. It's a bit of a tribute work to a gen 2 creator and her characters. The events are as happens just like the rest of my "stories". Hopefully this one will be a short kind of side story instead of the novel I'm trying

December 30, 2014

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Aftermath

So the dread day is over. Thank faust it was a bit less disturbed than ut used to be. I was still disturbed a bit but it usually is a lot worse. People still plan on celebrating but I'm just gonna take a shell and go zombie for it. Masks everywhere just so that others are happy. Pretty much all my party was was a cheap cake (a bit big for just three people, a cupcake would have sufficed and no cake would have been the proverbial icing), some ice cream that we already had in the freezer, and

November 14, 2014

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Is It Over Yet?

Been awhile since I last added an entry. Not much happened other than had the whole Hero Frozen Factor thing cleared. Been too busy typing and editing. Anywho been depressed recently. Started with the fact that my hourglass on age 24 is winding down. It is nigh less than 24 hrs until the unfortunate day I was born. I hate that day for many reasons. It reminds me that I'm one step closer to the reapers door, many people in my life have made that event feel like a mistake, my anger probl

November 12, 2014

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The Answer To The Riddle Is Ice Cold

So Sunday night here in Wisconsin I was listening to the song that currently is trickier than trying to convince Lyra not to disect the first human to ever appear in Equestria. I'd had kind of a rough day and was feeling slightly dark. As I sat wishing for a way to escape the darkness that continually envelopes my I felt a sudden change in the song's energy signifying that I'd figured out the song's riddle. "Let It Go" is a transitional/ rebellious/moving foreward song! Monday night I was dr

October 15, 2014

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Fanfics and Musicals

Oct 13 1 am; It's been quite quiet lately. Found out that a second relative has died, not even a week from the previous. Taking it in stride somehow. Finally had work on my fanfic begin. Two chapters have been proofread and edited but that's only the prologue and chapter one, still the rest to go. That doesn't include adding the comic book arcs into the story as well as season five. Still not sure whether or not to add the comics. Other than that I've been completely entranced by a song

October 13, 2014

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After The Break

It's been awhile since I blogged and a bit has happened. First I've acquired a few new equestria items such as the build a bear cmcs, and the journal of the two sisters. I've also finished the rough draft of my Equestrian fanfic, at least up to season five without the comics, as I've not decided whether to do some of the comic arcs or not. I've also discovered "Let It Go" from frozen. There have been arguments and fun times abound. Still feel like I should find a butler constume and turn it into

October 6, 2014

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The music of my internal darkness and the worthless fight against fate

There are two songs that pin exactly what my anger is like. "Animal I Have Become" by Three Days Grace and "Monster" by Skillet. When I listen to them I can feel the hope of being rid of it but I also feel the despair of it existing. Somewhere between there's the primal bloodthirst and anger itself wanting to be set free. Normally I don't listen to them for that reason but tonight I'm diving head first and hoping to drown. When my temper is in control those songs titles can't be more literal. T

July 28, 2014

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My head

So things on earth have been a bit relaxed since the weekend of the city's fair. Thanks to a friend I had this "my little belle" dream one night and since have been busy typing up the dream, with my online add being distracting as usual. Just finished that tonight. Other than that I tore my luna 'nights deck apart as well as my rainbow deck from the first set and rebuilt them. I now have a lunarity deck, double rainbow dash deck, and the pinkie two player set deck. One night rare entranced

July 23, 2014

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Snoozefest

Two days without blogging and it's all cuz of a slaggin cold. Pretty much nothing's changed in my schedule though. Gaming most of the day only stopping to eat, sleep and use the bathroom. Crossed over my v.s.s. (very special sompony) has been smothering me letting her maternal instincts take control. It's been soup (made by a certain peg good with beasts and healing. blasted peg should try her and at bein a nurse, might help her with her shyness) and sleep ever since she found out. Even the

July 11, 2014

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To The Future

Well today was okay a few minor annoyances and stuff. Then I finally got on the web. Hit up facebook and I find a nasty message from my best buds girlfriend. You'll love this lady. Think queen chrysalis but as a normal human. I feel bad enough insulting poor chryssy just by calling this wench that. Anywho she got to me. She's been totally abusive to her boyfriend, his family, and pretty much any person who is a threat to their relationship in even the near impossible slightest (numbers wise

July 9, 2014

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Tough times

7/7/14 My day started out awful. Nightmares about a traumatic event from my past spiraling into different scenarios woke me up around seven. Decided to grab some clothes and take a shower and some new cd's still in cases fell, breaking one case and scratching the cd. Started up the stairs and tripped. At this point I did the stupid thing and punched the stairs making my now slighty (more scratched and bruised than anything) injured right hand match the left. Was even grouchier when I over st

July 8, 2014

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