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This is just a status too long to post on Twitter

I don’t really like my subscriber base on Youtube which is mainly occupied by Melee players. I’ve always had disloyalty throughout my channel’s history and ever since 1 month before I quit Melee (April 11, 2016), it has almost never gained a subscriber on any day. No 1 appreciated the (amount of) work I put towards Melee, relatively speaking. It’s not absolutely 0, but compared to the other channels that grow ultra fast in the community, I’ve always felt that I unfairly never got the same success others had, even despite my earlier start on as far back as January 3, 2009. But Youtube is a game almost purely about luck and I’m just 1 of the many (or few) lottery losers who bought too many tickets

But I’d still rather have my freedom playing PC FPSs than any amount of fame I’ve ever had playing Melee. It was never much. My record subs/day was 66 because I bought them for $50 during the Melee for EVO 2013 donation drive contest. My 2nd best record is only 29 in 1 day. http://socialblade.com/youtube/user/ghostrager at 1 point averaged 713 daily. The game, the community, and the work have caused me an unbelievable amount of stress and several online people who knew me outside of Melee could clearly see that I needed to quit. Sometimes I need a healthy vent

Youtube statistics, June 26, 2007 - April 10, 2016