Well i been off the line for while now. And i haven't been able put my finger on why, on-till now. First of all i want late all my friend's i love you all. But some time i go into solitude and just want to be left alone. Been dos time always have reason to time. Even if can't see them at first. I think is it is pressure, to live up to everyone's expectations, that got to me. I try to be best of bud as i can be to people. But more then often i get overwhelmed. And on other side my many protract i
All this people around me, braking. Is even i could make me sad, First was my Friend Blue Blur now my friend Rescal. I my self try stay strong for my friends, but feel they slipping trough my finger and am unable do anything stop there spire into sadness and grief. Well all i really can do i gauss is tall them is going be okay and that you will get trough this. And hope for the best.
So for all my friends out there, never stop, and never give up.
Focus, i never felt i head any kind of focus in my life what so ever. And do wonder how have affected me as a person, has it been for better our the worse? To be honest, i have no clue. But wonder what would become of me if head one mine thing i spent all my energy at as young school student. And wonder where would be if i head a one track mind?
Some time could probably use bit of focus. But i do believe wouldn't be same person i am now, if weren't for my chaotic past.
Resonantly been thinking allot abut my friends and what they think of me, not only friends i have hear but dos i have at other place's asswell. Gauss am just worrying abut it to much, but some time just want try figure out if they all begin honest with me. This thought wouldn't be so much of trouble i gauss if weren't for fact that i get so warn down by thinking abut it all the time, and just worrying. But gauss that the prize have pay if care abut people. You can't help gating involved i suppos