Why is everything hitting me so hard all of a sudden?
Why is it that, since Valentines Day, I've been feeling depressed again? There's just no rhyme or reason for it. I'm suddenly remembering my depressing past and feeling sad about my present. Nothing specifically sad is going on for me right now. No sad events, no memory-triggering people, no anything. I'm just feeling like crap out of nowhere and I don't understand why.
Then again, while nothing sad has happened recently, not much good has happened either. The extent of my day is waking up, going online, watching tv, and going to sleep, with the addition of work on some days. Maybe I'm just lonely, I don't really have many friends. And, I have just lost the last of my friends(that I talk to daily) about a month or so ago, leaving me with only one true friend...online. And I haven't spoken to a friend with my actual voice in months...
You know, the whole depression thing is starting to make more and more sense...
Recently I've been sketching all my feelings down onto paper. Here's the result.
While the images aren't exactly happy, they were fun to draw. It felt nice to channel my thoughts and feelings into these, making my slight sadness into some fairly nice sketches
I really hate what keeps happening to me. I'll be in the mood to talk, and I'll go to a profile of a forum friend, and I'll consider messaging them to start up a conversation. But every time I chicken out and just don't do it. There are three people I feel comfortable messaging. One is on the forums and the other two are on Skype. I try to make friends and it very rarely happens. Then someone seems nice and we friend each other, but I just can't work up the nerve to message. I always stop myself when I realize I have nothing interesting to say, and I'm not entirely sure the appropriate reasons or protocols. It sounds like I'm really overcomplicating the whole "talking thing", and that's because I am. Overthinking is a thing I do. I just hate this. Coupled with the fact that I'm only able to talk to the three friends I mentioned about once a week as of recently :/
I'm here because I just spent a butt load of time making a family for my ponysona, and I'd like to show off..er..I mean show YOU..them....yep
So here is Tech Reel's family
Dad: Cam Climax
His cutie mark is a unicycle with a film reel for a wheel. This symbolizes Cam's talent for filmmaking, as well as the precision and uniqueness he applies to his creations.
http://i1021.photobucket.com/albums/af334/ReelyRandom/Cam%20Cutie%20Mark_zpsvbq4ziu8.png (Yes I know it's drawn horribly XD)
Her cutie mark is a torn book page with punctuation going over the edge(Made to resemble a cliff). This symbolizes Cliffnote's talent for script and story writing, also showcasing her love of suspense and cliffhangers.
No cutie mark yet..but he has an Irish accent....so there's that(I still need to work on Beta's interests).
Her cutie mark is a pencil in the shape of a musical note, symbolizing her love of writing songs and other things(stories, poems, etc.)
And that's it! All the brand new members of Tech's family
I'd like a little feedback, so let me know what you think of them
Hey guys! I'm doing a cover of the Steven Universe song "Peace and Love(On The Planet Earth)"
What I'd like for the ending verses of the song is a few random people to sing the last lines "Life and death and love and birth and..." "Life and death and love and birth and peace and love on the planet earth" "Is there anything that's worth more?"
So if you like the song and would like to be part of the video, just PM me a video of you singing one or all of the parts in the song(live action video would be preferred, but if you'd rather put a pic of your oc that's okay too).
Hope to see some replies, and hopefully I don't run out of parts before you enter yours(I only need one of each of the lines I mentioned).
That's all I really am, a distraction.
It's all I've ever been, and it's probably all I'll ever be.
All I do is get in people's way, ocassionally help them out. Then they get to a point where they have to go or they just don't need me anymore. Whether it's something I do or a choice of their own, it's just how it always goes.
One day, I wish I could be something more, but the evidence doesn't look good. I'm just eternally doomed to be The Doctor. My favorite TV character, with a life that is my living nightmare. I'm just the silly madman, going around distracting people from their life until things begin working in their favor. Once things start going well for them, the distraction is no longer needed, meaning another lost "friend".
How do I fix this? I'm not sure I can...it might just be the hell that I'm destined to live. My hope is fading and I don't know what to think anymore.
Hey there! YOU! GET OVER HERE!
Why over here? Cause over here is where my channel is!
I'm Tech Reel, and I have a channel named "MethODDical". A random little channel comprised of some analysis, some commentary, and some things that just make you say, "Wh-what's this guy's deal?".
New video each Monday! Come on over and check it out: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ6EsAEckiRg3MJrXi2_srw
I just need a quick little opinion on something.
I'm starting a Patreon, and I've struggled a bit with coming up with rewards.
I have a few here, and I just would like to know if they seem alright.
$1 gets you access to my "Patron Only" stream. Over there I'll be posting some exclusive content that you can only see if you donate!
$5 will get your name put in an end screen at the end of my next video, showing the world that you're helping out and I'm super grateful! This includes the previous reward.
$10 gives you the opportunity to make me say whatever you want. Give me a message, a shout out, a movie quote, or anything that you want to hear come from my mouth. I'll say it in a video for your entertainment! Of course, this excludes any profanity or "R rated" content. And the previous rewards are also included with this one.
Let me know what you think
Hey everyone. My name is Tech Reel, and this is my goodbye.
Now I don't know how long I'll be gone. It could be months, it could be a year, or maybe even just a week or so. I really have no idea. I just need to get away for a while.
Why? I've been down lately, really down. There's been so much on my mind and being here hasn't helped. In fact, certain circumstances on here are only reminding me of events I'd rather forget. Not only that, I've come to realize that I have no significant role here anymore. I post once in a while, and I talk to a few members, but not enough to satisfy me right now. I'm barely responded to, and I have many friends on my list that I either don't know or don't hear from. On top of that, I feel like I've developed bad habits caused by the features of this forum. Namely, refreshing a page thousands of times on end just waiting for either a response to see if a member's status changes to online. I continuously do it, and it just doesn't feel right. I need to distance myself, then hopefully when I return I won't do it nearly as much.
As I said, I do plan to return. This is not me leaving forever. This is just me stepping back for a while, so I can take some time to work out my personal problems. And let me just say that these aren't super serious problems. I'm not in any kind of trouble and I don't have any people forcing me to leave. It's just bad memories and a little paranoia, nothing big or important, so there's no need to worry about me.
For now, thank you all for being here for me at different moments in my time here up until now. This is the only forums I've ever been on where I feel like I'm part of one big community. Thank you Forums, thank you members, and a big thanks to the friends I've made here(You have my Skype, and we'll continue talking over there).
Until I return, goodbye everyone.
Hello everyone! I'm here again looking for some voices for a series of audio shorts called "Bubbly Friendship"
The basic premise is this: When Derpy loses both her house and her job she finds herself with nowhere to go and nopony to turn to. That is until she's found by Equestria's most arrogant showpony, Trixie. She agrees to take her in to prove that, despite Starlight's beliefs, she can in fact be responsible. And as Derpy is now living with Trixie antics obviously ensue.
The series only has one episode written so far and doesn't have any real ending in mind, just a bunch of shorts showing the life of Derpy and Trixie trying to get along in this strange situation.
Here are the rules for joining this project:
1. You're mic doesn't have to be professional or perfect, just as clear and as little background noise as possible.
2. This is a long term series, so only join if you know you'll have the time and motivation to keep going.
3. You MUST have a Skype so we can communicate.
4. Have fun with it! This is a silly little series of random short stories so just have fun
If you'd like to audition then you can either go here if you have an account
OR you can submit your audition as a comment
So far the voices we need are of course for Trixie, Derpy, and Starlight(though more may be added in the future).
Here are the audition lines for each character
The audition period, as of right now, is until July 31st. I'm excited to hear your auditions! Good luck!