I've been having a lot of trouble with things lately. Namely the two things mentioned in the title, inspiration and drive. When it comes to YouTube, these can tend to appear and disappear at different times.
Some days I'll be super ready to run and make a video while other days I just can't bring myself to do so.
I believe my main problem is I have yet to find a specific genre or style of videos that I really love to make. Though that doesn't mean I don't like making videos normally. While it takes some time to work up the energy to make a video some days, I do end up having some fun when I eventually do. And I know I love to entertain people, I just don't have the motivation most of the time, because I never know what my next video will be. I have no specific ideas in mind that seem to appeal to me, I need to find the right type of video for me.
Until then, I'll just need to work through it. Hopefully I'll find it soon.
I'd like to get a few opinions on how I'm doing with a little fan fiction I've been writing. It's sort of a Doctor Whooves crossover, mainly focusing on my character, Tech Reel, as well as his friends, Lyra and Octavia.
Here's the synopsis --- One day, Tech Reel stumbles upon a journal that details the life of a man named the Doctor, an alien from another universe. He shares it with his friends, Lyra and Octavia, and the three take immediate interest in the stories within. Though things change when they find that the Doctor may be in their world.
The search is on, with many questions to be asked. Is the Doctor actually real or just a story? How did this book get lost in the first place? Is the Doctor in danger? And who can save him? ---
You can read the story(Well, what I have so far) over here on FimFiction http://www.fimfiction.net/story/273873/search-for-the-doctor I'd be really grateful if you could read some(or all) of it and tell me what you think. How's the story, grammar, wording, and such?
Thanks in advance for your time
Hey there! YOU! GET OVER HERE!
Why over here? Cause over here is where my channel is!
I'm Tech Reel, and I have a channel named "MethODDical". A random little channel comprised of some analysis, some commentary, and some things that just make you say, "Wh-what's this guy's deal?".
New video each Monday! Come on over and check it out: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ6EsAEckiRg3MJrXi2_srw
"Ghost of Gallifrey" By Daniel Jones
Two people that coexist A man who is fiction and a boy who is real But peel away the boy's introverted exterior And a similar story is revealed
A story of losing those who are close Coincidentally identical ways Though the Time Lord can travel to distant worlds The Human is trapped on the earth each day
Regeneration, with a different meaning A change of body versus a change of channel Each one ends with a loss of confidence and hope Often too much for either to handle
What can be done to change their fate? Can any solution be stumbled upon? There's no way to tell if or when it will come For now both the Human and the Time Lord must try to move on
A little poem I decided to randomly write. I don't often use this form of writing to vent, but I like how it turned out. Don't know if it's good, the rhymes are kind of "near rhymes", but there it is. Either way I'm pretty happy with it
Recently I've been sketching all my feelings down onto paper. Here's the result.
While the images aren't exactly happy, they were fun to draw. It felt nice to channel my thoughts and feelings into these, making my slight sadness into some fairly nice sketches
I just need a quick little opinion on something.
I'm starting a Patreon, and I've struggled a bit with coming up with rewards.
I have a few here, and I just would like to know if they seem alright.
$1 gets you access to my "Patron Only" stream. Over there I'll be posting some exclusive content that you can only see if you donate!
$5 will get your name put in an end screen at the end of my next video, showing the world that you're helping out and I'm super grateful! This includes the previous reward.
$10 gives you the opportunity to make me say whatever you want. Give me a message, a shout out, a movie quote, or anything that you want to hear come from my mouth. I'll say it in a video for your entertainment! Of course, this excludes any profanity or "R rated" content. And the previous rewards are also included with this one.
Let me know what you think
I'm here because I just spent a butt load of time making a family for my ponysona, and I'd like to show off..er..I mean show YOU..them....yep
So here is Tech Reel's family
Dad: Cam Climax
His cutie mark is a unicycle with a film reel for a wheel. This symbolizes Cam's talent for filmmaking, as well as the precision and uniqueness he applies to his creations.
http://i1021.photobucket.com/albums/af334/ReelyRandom/Cam%20Cutie%20Mark_zpsvbq4ziu8.png (Yes I know it's drawn horribly XD)
Her cutie mark is a torn book page with punctuation going over the edge(Made to resemble a cliff). This symbolizes Cliffnote's talent for script and story writing, also showcasing her love of suspense and cliffhangers.
No cutie mark yet..but he has an Irish accent....so there's that(I still need to work on Beta's interests).
Her cutie mark is a pencil in the shape of a musical note, symbolizing her love of writing songs and other things(stories, poems, etc.)
And that's it! All the brand new members of Tech's family
I'd like a little feedback, so let me know what you think of them
So I had a little idea for a series I may make
The premise of the series is, "What adventures would I have had with my past companions if I were The Doctor?"
I'm always comparing my personality and my past to The Doctor's. At this point I'm not completely wrong, because I have had quite a few companions that I would make videos with, though they have all left. Their time was always fairly short. So what would've happened if I were a time lord, had a TARDIS, and could travel through space and time? What would we see? What would we do?
I'd like to make an audio play. A four part series, each featuring the companion/companions I had at different points in time, joining me in an adventure. Each adventure will have some relevance to the videos we used to make.
We can go to some alien planet, visit an alternate dimension, or save the human race! The adventures being shown will not be the first that we've had. Each one will be set up as if we'd already been traveling around for a while, and the current adventure is just one of the many we have on a weekly basis.
Unfortunately I can't just have the actual companions play themselves because, well, they left. Although I'm sure I can find some voice actors that can sound like them.
So that's my idea! I think it'll be a fun little homage to my past companions, and maybe even give me a little closure on the subject
What do you think?
That's all I really am, a distraction.
It's all I've ever been, and it's probably all I'll ever be.
All I do is get in people's way, ocassionally help them out. Then they get to a point where they have to go or they just don't need me anymore. Whether it's something I do or a choice of their own, it's just how it always goes.
One day, I wish I could be something more, but the evidence doesn't look good. I'm just eternally doomed to be The Doctor. My favorite TV character, with a life that is my living nightmare. I'm just the silly madman, going around distracting people from their life until things begin working in their favor. Once things start going well for them, the distraction is no longer needed, meaning another lost "friend".
How do I fix this? I'm not sure I can...it might just be the hell that I'm destined to live. My hope is fading and I don't know what to think anymore.
Why is everything hitting me so hard all of a sudden?
Why is it that, since Valentines Day, I've been feeling depressed again? There's just no rhyme or reason for it. I'm suddenly remembering my depressing past and feeling sad about my present. Nothing specifically sad is going on for me right now. No sad events, no memory-triggering people, no anything. I'm just feeling like crap out of nowhere and I don't understand why.
Then again, while nothing sad has happened recently, not much good has happened either. The extent of my day is waking up, going online, watching tv, and going to sleep, with the addition of work on some days. Maybe I'm just lonely, I don't really have many friends. And, I have just lost the last of my friends(that I talk to daily) about a month or so ago, leaving me with only one true friend...online. And I haven't spoken to a friend with my actual voice in months...
You know, the whole depression thing is starting to make more and more sense...
What is the difference between being lonely and being left? The way I see it, one is massively depressing...the other is a living hell.
Being lonely is not having friends and having difficulty gaining them. It's having next to no one to talk to. Being left is an entirely different field. When people leave you, you're left with the thoughts of why they would want to leave you, as well as what you could've done to change their mind or even if you could have at all.
Before I continue, when I say "being left" I'm not referring to people who have lost one or two friends in their life. I'm talking about people who are repeatedly left by so many loved ones. People who have had most or all of their friends leave them...like me.
When you're left by people, it hurts much more than just feeling lonely. You know the saying "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"? I strongly disagree. I downright despise that saying. I've loved and lost, I've lost so many people throughout my life, and it only keeps getting worse. The more I lose the less I trust. Sure, I've met some great people, but I've continuously had to watch them leave my life. Every single day I can't help but remember my past friends, my past companions, everyone I've lost. Honestly, if I had the option I think I'd choose to forget everyone of them. Maybe then I wouldn't face everyday with depression about my past.
Loneliness is merciful, being left is a curse...