Why is everything hitting me so hard all of a sudden?
Why is it that, since Valentines Day, I've been feeling depressed again? There's just no rhyme or reason for it. I'm suddenly remembering my depressing past and feeling sad about my present. Nothing specifically sad is going on for me right now. No sad events, no memory-triggering people, no anything. I'm just feeling like crap out of nowhere and I don't understand why.
Then again, while nothing sad has happened recently, not much goo
I'm here because I just spent a butt load of time making a family for my ponysona, and I'd like to show off..er..I mean show YOU..them....yep
So here is Tech Reel's family
Dad: Cam Climax
His cutie mark is a unicycle with a film reel for a wheel. This symbolizes Cam's talent for filmmaking, as well as the precision and uniqueness he applies
Recently I've been sketching all my feelings down onto paper. Here's the result.
While the images aren't exactly happy, they were fun to draw. It felt nice to channel my thoughts and feelings into these, making my slight sadness into some fairly nice sketches
Just posted my newest video, a cover of "Evermore" from the live action adaptation of Beauty and the Beast. I hope you enjoy it! I put a lot of work into this one and I'm quite proud of how it turned out
Some days I'm not quite sure who I am.
In my past I've felt like a different person for each friend I'm around, due to the fact that I try to blend in with groups to avoid standing out and possibly being abandoned. It must be because I haven't talked to as many humans in the past two years as I have in these past two days. Among these friends I feel like I'm acting different ways when certain ones are around. The differences are much more subtle than they used to be, but I can still definite
I've been feeling like I need someone again. Someone to make videos with, a new friend. Alone I've just felt fairly unmotivated. Which is why this Doctor Who quote came to mind.
I've altered it a bit to fit my own situation. The original is here in this spoiler.
And here's the modified version. --- Companion: "Then why am I here?"
Me: "Because....because I can't see it anymore."
Companion. "See what?"
Me: "I've been at this on and off for 10 years. After a while you
Ya know what, Brain? One of these days you'll work. One of these days, maybe just for one day, one hour..a minute. Heck, I'd be lucky if it worked for a second.
I will gain the ability to think. The question is, what would I think about? The answer? YouTube. Sounds like a strange thing to think about, I know, but I have my reasons.
It's been about 10 years since I first discovered my interest in making videos. I'd make home movies and other little comedy bits and such. Over time I found
What is the difference between being lonely and being left? The way I see it, one is massively depressing...the other is a living hell.
Being lonely is not having friends and having difficulty gaining them. It's having next to no one to talk to. Being left is an entirely different field. When people leave you, you're left with the thoughts of why they would want to leave you, as well as what you could've done to change their mind or even if you could have at all.
Before I continue, when
Two videos today! Both relating to the popular YouTube series, "Don't Hug Me I'm Scared".
The first being a medley of the songs in Episodes 1-5 https://youtu.be/pQ93VgJNUik
And the second being my reaction to Episode 6, the final episode https://youtu.be/vf85KWeI6Fc