I didn't go to church today cause I don't feel comfortable at church anymore but I don't know how to tell my parents and the church pastor and if I give up on religion my parents are going to hate me for doing it and blame all my friends again and I can't take it anymore. *is crying in a corner*
My sister gave my mom my new number when I don't want to talk to my mom after I had it changed so now my parents keep calling me even tho i blocked their numbers i just can't take it anymore.
Today I finally spoke to my church pastor and told him the problems i'm having with my family and came out to him and he is like my dad but he will accept me into the church but I don't feel comfortable at the church and i might not go to church for awhile until I feel comfortable.
I feeling sad today cause of finding out my grandpa has cancer and my parents didn't even bother to tell at all when my grandpa and I are very close and i found out when i called my grandpa to see how is going
I rang my realestate to see if i can have a guinea pig as a pet outside the place the realestate called my dad not me and my dad told me that the realestate said no.
I just got another message from my mum even tho i blocked her number and i can't stand it anymore and i just don't know what to do anymore I've tried nearly everything. *cries in a corner*
Well i was sitting in church this morning the church pastor brought up the LGBT community and i felt uneasy cause i didn't know what he was going to say about it and then he said that he will accept and welcome them into the church.
I feel like needs some space from religion cause of what's been going on in my life between my parents and siblings and it's too much for me to handle all at once and i know my family is going to hate me for it but the only thing i can do is stand up for myself.
Stress
Depression
Anxiety
Suicidal thoughts
Medication
It's been two weeks since I was on my medication and it's going great and I have my appointment with my psychologist tomorrow and a appointment with my counselor in three days but my parents are still being abit rude when I ask questions about things.
My dad took me to get my groceries and then took me home and brought up the gay stuff again
But I told him off for bringing it up again
Cause all what he was saying that god has got something better for me
The Christmas meet up is going to be at my older sisters place the one who started all this
And the whole family is going to be there that includes my brother who wanted to punch me in the face
I'm having fun on my holiday with friends and my grandpa but there was a few days where felt down but when I remember that I'll be catching up with bronies next week it makes me happy.
Very time I go on the forums and talk to you's it make my day even better and makes me forget what happened that day and the days before and I feel like the forums is like my second family to me who are there to support me and help me as best they can and I appreciate what you's have done to help me get through the tough time I'm going through and every time i get on here i forget what happened and i thank you all.
