where do I begin? so I have been up and down lately, I have got my forklift license and I am 1 step closer to a job I want to do ... but now I have entered what has been known as the "Christmas Depression" over here ... it goes like this, every year I struggle to buy even the most simplest of gifts for the fam and it makes me want to provide for them, before I moved out it wasnt a big deal, but now that I have bills to pay its a shit-load harder to make a living on what I currently get, but I st
Ok so about a week ago now (maybe more, maybe less) as you all would of seen I was in an extremely bad mood, well ... Remember the weather system in my blogs? Well they tell you how I'm feeling, for example, this one, Clear Skies w/ Slight Breeze .... Well, I feel pretty neutral today with a spot of sorrow, nothing too bad thou ..... Pay attention to my forecasting system as it will tell you everything you need to know ....
Now I promised I would explain y I was so pissed off .... Ok, it goe
It's been a long time coming huh? The day I return to blog entry's .... I miss doing this ... Anyways on to business ....
So the only real plus is that I have finally moved out of mum and dads place ...
I have initiated code red, as y'all would of seen earlier ... Meaning I need booze ASAP to dull the pain .... I'm in pain because I want to snap out of my rut and get serious with my life ... Not "having a kid" serious, but in a relationship with one I care about ... Someone I can be ther
So I just got back from my party earlier yesterday, but I was hungover as shit .... While yes I did get some pretty empressive shit, the alcohol took its toll on me as I'm even now still sick in the stomach, but coz I'm not in a car I won't get motion sickness so there's a plus, that and in total I got $300 in cash and my own brother bought me the halo 5 limited edition Xbox 1 game, with spartin Locke and John-117 .... Aka Master Chief ..... Along with other goodies as well, however the worst pa
So the only reason y I'm ok today is I have been listening to house music while drifting in Forza horizon 2 .... If I wasn't doing that I would be crying to myself because I'm a mess and need booze and EDM to keep me calm .... Ik I'm a wreck, I'm also looking forward to tomorrow night, I'll post a new entry being either 6 or 7 before I go tomorrow .... Well I better go, my kagogos need me ... Baii
So I'm feeling alittle better then earlier this arvo, had a chance to rest, play and clean ... But I still have too much on my mind... While listening to E3 I heard LIMBO .. An R18+ rated game that was about $25AU was free for 1 week, now I have actually wanted to play a different game for awhile. And now that I have played limbo, it is a nice change of pace from the usual driving game or shooting game, I don't mind it, but there are moments when u get stuck easily and it's hard to get unstuck .
I woke up at 45 minutes ago and I feel hungry, but earlier I looked at the Xbox segment of e3 and can't wait for Forza Horizon 3, that's the sunny half of my weather ... The wet half is I notice I'm drink more, not because I'm 21 but it's because it's my depression, when I have a lot on my mind, I drink alcohol to ease my pain, Ik I shouldn't drink it, but it's better then some of the other choices I could of made ... I could of turned to ice, I could of attempted susicide ....again .... But I d
Entry number 2. Ik it has only been like 9 hours, but meh, I feel as if there is a huge pressure on me to preform to the best of my abilities, like I need to make a go of myself, but whenever I try, I always end up failing and feeling even more worse off. Know the saying Calm before the storm? Well the storm is coming ... And it will be real soon
Ok so I have been thinking about this one for a long time and finally decided to start making this, I'm going to introduce who I am before I get cracking into my first entry ...
My name is WubZ, on the 9th of June this year I turned 21 and I have a bad case of depression, over time you will understand why I choose to live by my sig of "we were born to die" but for right now it's to early to go in detail about that. I am one of 4 co-leaders in a clan called Clown Army. I will more then happy