Name: Rayven Starshield Age: Young Mare Gender: Mare Species: Batpony Status: Single Occupation: Princess Likes: Mischief, stuffies, teasing the royal & night guards, pranks Dislikes: Rude & Disrespectful ponies, harmful pranks, 'Prince' Blueblood Personality: Rayven is a mischievous young mare, who loves nothing more than a good prank. She loves to flirt with and tease both the royal and night guards. She is very protective and caring towards her twin brother Silver Moon, who is a bit of a frail colt. She is loyal to her family and the friends she has. History:
Rayven Starshield was born to Prince Crow Moon, the son of Princess Luna and Discord (In an AU), and to Scarlet Rose (A wolf from another world). Growing up, she was tutored by Equestria's finest and best tutors, but would often try to skip out on classes to either pull pranks on her friends and family or to flirt with a guard (leans towards the Night guard). Appearance:
I guess this is it..I was holding off on writing this for so long, but it has come to this point.. A lot of my role-plays have just died and I don't know what went wrong? I mean, it is possible that I am just trash at it, hell I'm trash as a person in general, so why wouldn't I be trash at trying to play as someone I am not as well? I know I am not mentally or emotionally well, that much is clear..this is not a cry for help...or is it? I certainly know I am not going to do something like cut myself or anything, worst I'll do is try to get drunk and forget things.. These songs kind of describe me at the moment.
Late night blog post thingy...
I am beginning to feel that i don't really matter to anyoneand that i do not belong anywhere. I am starting to feel unsafe, not just in my home, but in my country (Australia) as well..
I feel like that nothing i do is ever goodenough for anyone and that i have no purpose other than to exist and be an easy target.
So maybe i should just find a rock or bridge to live under or end my existence,
Alright, so I've been thinking about this for a while, but there really is only one reason I came back on here, and that was to roleplay. but the number of members on here has dwindled drastically since I was on here last (late 2013/early 2014) and a lot of my roleplay ads get ignored. Not just that, but the roleplays I am/have been in, usually end up not lasting very long or just going stale. I'm also starting to feel not very welcome here, so I am thinking it may be for the best that I kind of take a lurker status hiatus, where I am simply on here to respond to pms with people who can only contact me on here and possibly respond to a game or two, but other than that, I won't be doing much. Besides, it's not like anyone here would really miss my presence anyway...
Just as the title says, starting from tomorrow (Monday for me) for two weeks I will be busy with my work placement, which is Monday to Friday and 8am - 5pm with weekends off for the next two weeks, So those of you who I am roleplaying with, please be patient with me while I do this part of my course and hopefully find a paying job afterwards. I will be getting an hour break each day (most likely at midday my time) and the weekend off. and I can reply after 5pm (my time and unless I am too tired after work)
Well hello there folks of Equestria. My name is "Phoenix" Carmine Strider (I'll get to the meaning of my name in a moment). I am a 29 year old femboy-ish winged wolf from the darkest part of the forest. (will once again will get to that in a moment). I am essentially a tulpa that my host allows to front most of the time (He/they do not really like fronting using the body he/they have, so you'll be hearing from me a lot more than him/them).
Now that the basic stuff of the introductions are over, here's a few things about me: -|- I enjoy a wide range of music ranging from Dance/Pop, Metal (Fantasy, Power, Dark/Gothic, Speed), Rock, Ska, Punk and even fan music (Forest Rain, JT Machinima, TryhardNinja) and Vocaloid just to name a few. -|- I love and I mean LOVE to roleplay (but nothing too sexual, I like a good story to my rolepleays) -|- I am a bit of an anarchist -|- I am a mixture of eclectic pagan, wiccan and Levayan Satanist -|- I am in an open relationship (but that does not make me a slut, nor will I just date/sleep with anyone) -|- Technically I am panromantic and I am in between deciding whether I am asexual, bi or gay..
And now for the final parts...
I said earlier I would explain my name. Well first things first, you can plainly see that I am a winged wolf, which is part of where my nickname "Phoenix" comes from, but it mostly comes from that I arise with a new life from the ashes of tragedy (my host's past mostly). Carmine means song, so it makes sense to have Phoenix in the front which so it's something like this: Phoenix Song Strider. if you were to go by my nickname and the meaning of my birth name. As for Strider...well it is just my surname.
And as for where I come from...it's basically I don't like the way society is going these days, so I kind of just stick to the darkness and serenity of the forest, occasionally venturing out when needed or to hang out with the few friends that I have.