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first blog type thing i have done so its basically going to be about random life occurrences and shameless promotion of my rps

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Im back, finally.

TWO YEARS! Mind you i was always signed in on my phone BUT STILL.

It took me two whole years but i am back on a proper set up. I have a gaming desktop minus an actual GPU but still! I have a desktop that was sort of built by myself all for under 700 dollars -thanks to mail in rebates.-.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

The internet is for easily offended people

AHA! Got you in my click bait, now I get to rant to you.   So I havent been active on here at all. Mostly using the private messenger and what not. The reason for that is simple...im busy. Though now that I think about it, its more about avoiding drama.   Pony websites are filled with people who take things too harshly. For example, I can say to someone who is looking for critique, 'Hey, this needs to be improved on'. They will in turn say, 'That was uncalled for, im reporting you.' On some pony sites its treated as the person getting butthurt over nothing.   SOME other pony websites warn you saying it provided 'nothing to the topic'. Sure, i understand; you have 12 year olds as mods who know bugger all about conversations or dealing with problems. That isnt my fault for when they warn, ban or kick me from things. In fact, its the websites problem for allowing such horrible mods to be in power.   "Oh, but so and so is friends with this mod which is why they're a mod." 'Ok', i say, 'but that just strengthens my point that the websites responsible for crappy mods'   I like how many mods of different pony websites forget that they are not free from the law no matter what country they are in. I know of a pony website where all the mods are real buddy buddy and when they dont like a person the ban them from the site with no grounds. Little do these mods realise that they themselves can get sued for misconduct and negligence.   Im venting here cause at least the mods are chill....Also, quick shout out to Artemis for not kicking me out of his hotel room last bronycon lol.   This is good chance to segway over to my next rant...   I was on this one pony site that had forum games. This new guy shows up and proclaims himself to be the toughest most bad*** person on the forums. Quite sad really...anyways, he got maybe two or three people to play along by saying he killed them. He then came after me on the thread which was cute in the beginning.   Then he PM'ed me saying "Ok, so i kill you and i'll say you put up a fight."   I cringed and laughed at the same time. Dude had a gas mask on and some roman quote trying to make himself out to be really hardcore.   I told him to bugger off and that i wasnt gonna stroke his ego then he blew up at me like a cry baby.   Yes, im being harsh but the dude was harassing me and where i come from we dont go looking for someone to help deal with minor nuisances.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

I Hate Love

So people have been saying love is good for you. I say blah! I've had love in my heart. Then I've had it selfishly thrown back into my face. Some people say I just have a bad luck. Other, like Dr. Drew Pinsky say I have a bad picker. I have no idea how to change these things. All I know is how to be myself and accept people. hmmmm.....maybe I let my heart effect my judgment.....naaaaaah.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Hunting is for cowards.

Camo rifles, deer pee in a bottle..high powered optics...these are some of the tools that hunter's use against sometimes endangered animals. I am no Peta nut...i do enjoy a nice slab of meat. I do feel that hunting for sport, is the most cowardice thing someone could do...right along with rape and child abuse.   On my Facebook, I follow Ted Nugent cause I was in that whole AMERICA, f**k yeah! phase. I followed him just to let my friends know that I am the ultimate patriot. Then that phase passed when the country REALLY took a dive into the sewers.   Now, all I see from Ted Nugent is him and his family posing with dead animals. Like....really? Is he trying to be manly? Is he trying to say, "I am better than you, Mother Nature!" Cause all that says to me is, "I'm really an ego driven coward who gets his kicks treating smaller or defenseless creatures and beings like crap."   So you have a camouflaged rifle, with 12x zoom and laser pointer? Cool, go fight a war on terrorism. Last time I checked a deer, lion, or elephant only have what they were born with and a few tall bushes if their habit wasn't wiped away by deforestation. Oh and your yards away from their ability to detect you? WOW, YOU ARE SOME KIND OF LEGEND!   You want to hunt? Use a bow and arrow/knife. Give the animal a chance to fight back. Hunters wont cause they are too cowardly.   Yes, I know in some countries like Africa hunting is a means to survive. But in Africa they dont have guns that cost $1,200!!! Well....maybe the pirates do, but thats another topic in itself.   Ted Nugent was crying that anti-hunting groups are 'picking' on an archer that hunted animals..the bow she was using in the picture from the article was a composite bow with all these mods. In one of the comments this lady said, "Jokes on them when they cant hear this girl kill them."   Shut the buck up, lady...stealth is good for real combat. Competition hunting? PHOOEY! Might as well put the hunters in a treehouse in a zoo where they can easily kill but never get harmed by the animals.   If you are a hunter who hunts animals for fun, then I feel bad for your sociopathic brain.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Working out is too hard

It is human nature to be vain. So vain, that humans will harm themselves to get the perfect aesthetics as they possibly could. They will rip their muscles to make them bigger, they will inject chemicals that promise tone abs or bigger glutes. They will risk hernias, blown out discs in their spines all for that perfect shape. I am one of those people. I enjoy the strain on my body. It makes me feel good afterwards. The aching muscles, the inability to get up after you lay in your bed for one minute. In fact, a lot of people enjoy it....too many people. When I go to the gym, I have a list of what I need to do in order to build muscle and stay fit. My list requires me to go into the weight room where all the pompous, arrogant, and self righteous weight lifters are. I hate it, because these muppets think the whole gym revolves around them. There are rules placed ALL over the weight room. Rules such as: Rack your weights when finished(which means put the weights back on the racks instead of leaving them on a bar), use towels when working out(cause no one wants to touch someone else's butt sweat), and dont drop weights(because they bounce and make noise as well as cause damage to the floors). Almost no one follows these rules, which is annoying if you are the only one who does. It's expected of you to follow the rules in this gym since membership costs $400. Despite the high price, riff raff still are able to join. Getting back to my rant, I was looking to use a bar for my deadlifts. It had the exact amount of weight i needed. The only thing was, there was one of these arrogant bodybuilders using it. I decided to use another set of weights until he was done. 10 minutes later the guy leaves and goes to a machine next to the bar that I needed. I decided to take a sip from my sports drink before heading over. As soon as I begin to head over the pillock rushes over to the bar and begins using it again. Miffed, I went back to my previous weights and waited another 10 minutes. The guy repeated himself again. He went to another machine and as soon as it looked like I was going for the bar he would jump over to it and act as if he was using it(which he wasn't. He would to one rep and then look at himself AND me in the mirror). I decided I will skip the bar for today and head home.   I get that you need to workout too, but come on you infantile pillock! This isnt your gym, its the member's gym. It's not just this one guy, its all the bodybuilders out there. They have no consideration for the people around them. They are selfish and rude, thinking the world revolves around them. I know these bodybuilders obviously can't handle their testosterone, but can they at least try to act like humans instead of degenerates? I get that burst of testosterone too, but I don't strut around like I own everything.   If you're going to workout and be a selfish child, stay home. You are ruining everyone elses time at the gym.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Over Analyzing a Music Video

I promised myself i wouldnt become one of these people who have nothing better to do than to analyze the media arts. For the time it took to write my analyzation/critique of the video I could have wrote more on my novella, or beat my video game.   The video I am referring to:   My analyzation:   I dont get this video. There are so many illogical events in this, its like it was directed by the same director of The Room. Cops begin firing at Adam, even though he put down his gun. In a real situation, the cops wouldnt fire at all unless given the direct order from the highest ranking officer on the scene. Not only that, but they wouldnt fire at a suspect who put their gun down, or who had a hostage(not that she was).   Also, Adam ran away from the cops? Unless he had an outstanding warrant out on him, there would be no reason for him to run away from the cops. Also, stealing a conveniently placed, badass car? How much cornier and cliched can you get? The song itself doesn't even match the damn video. Its a song about a girl leaving Adam out to hang/dry. Lets make a video about an innocent bank teller running from the cops and random explosions, followed by Wiz Khalifa rapping under a bridge. Let's not forget that Wiz dropped his car off at the valet, in front of a hotel-miles away from the bridge-, and Adam stole Wiz's car to escape. Did Wiz Khalifa turn into Spritle or Chim-Chim?

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

The internet: as brought to you by the US Government

I know I am a bit late on this, but i figure I might as well test myself.   Also, if Im wrong i want you to know I dont care. Mostly because this kind of stuff doesnt concern me so much that it gets me fired up.   Back in March or April, it was announced the United States government was going to take over the internet. It was said that the FCC was the only thing keeping the government from doing so.   I won't get too into it, since you all probably know this by now; so im going to rant about it.   I see this being a good thing for one thing only. This thing would be our rights would actually be enforced. Many a time have I been censored online or had my rights infringed upon because it hurt someones feelings.   Sorry, but when i speak the truth you may not like it.   However, this would also be a bad thing since this site would most likely be taken down.   On top of that, 4chan would be taken down(although, thats not a bad thing.) which would cause a lot of backlash. Not from Americans, but from other countries.   The internet is free to everyone, an follows the laws of the region its in. If the US took over the internet they would be taking over the world.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Philistines: The inability to RP

I took a break from roleplaying on the forums to focus on Skype rps and my art. So far, my efforts in the two endeavours are proving to be all for naught.   Whenever I role-play with someone on skype, I expect a certain amount of creativity or thought put into responses. Instead I get:   "*Flare grunts*" or "*Flare trots over there*"   As a novelist, screen-play writer, and educated dragon, I detest these responses. I feel like you should put more effort into an rp. Especially if its with someone you said you liked a lot. I understand most people can not pull together enough brain power to conjure up a proper response, but at least try to.   An RP is better if you can actually imagine it happening, or if its so well written that you can feel what the oc's feel. This might sound like investing a lot of time into something that you feel shouldnt matter, but you have to ask yourself: Do I want to be good, or be known as the member/user who does not comprehend grammar?   If you're gonna role-play, the least you can do is fine tune your responses. Add more words, describe how your oc is feeling or what they are doing in depth.   If we role-play on skype, and your response is: /me follows OR /me yelps   Im gonna assume you are stupid, and lazy.   K THANKS

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Ethnocentrism

What it is and what it do? I am back to deliver some knowledge onto your domes...except this is all opinion.   I recently had a surprise conversation with someone i forgot was on my contacts list. This person was a candidate for a podcast i am running. He messaged me complaining about Canada's winter and how he was cold. He then started to say how Americans could never deal with Canada's snowfall.   Pretty soon the conversation shifted over to America. Now, I love America as much as the next guy but I also love to give it grief because, this nation is flawed. I mean, what nation isn't? I could go on a rant about politics and how we can improve, but I really don't have the interest to....right now.   As the conversation went along I decided to act out the stereotypical American while the skype user continued to put in his two cents worth of opinions. I told him that i wanted to move, but didnt want to go to Canada thinking it was too cold. Heres what he had to say:   that, i did not know. My friend in Canada has been saying its always cold [4:08:48 PM] Jalokim [(Mikołaj Dudek) VA for Tartarus Productions]: he has been feeding you mis-information [4:09:10 PM] Jalokim [(Mikołaj Dudek) VA for Tartarus Productions]: most of the world doesnt know jack shit about Canada. All they know about it comes from you fucks [4:09:22 PM | Edited 4:09:30 PM] Jalokim [(Mikołaj Dudek) VA for Tartarus Productions]: which is actually REALLY inaccurate [4:10:21 PM] Jalokim [(Mikołaj Dudek) VA for Tartarus Productions]: actually for me, the summers here are too hot [4:10:30 PM] Jalokim [(Mikołaj Dudek) VA for Tartarus Productions]: which is why I love late spring [4:11:06 PM] Дакота Helheim(пожар): i can sense you dont like americans that much [4:11:11 PM] Jalokim [(Mikołaj Dudek) VA for Tartarus Productions]: not at all   Afterwards, I called him out for being Ethnocentric, which is another way of saying he thinks his country is superior. He back tracked and tried playing it off as hating our government.   When I tried pointing out to him that insulting people and their countries isnt a way to make friends he simply went emo on me and said he doesnt care, and that he would rather die alone.   I would quote the rest of what he said , but I quickly blocked him and un-added him as a contact.   The point I am trying to make here is, dont be Ethnocentric. Just because you dont like a country or culture, it doesnt give you the right to insult a person who comes from said country or culture

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Season 4....the end of MLP: FiM

Bold title, but in my eyes its the truth. Why? Well let me ask you something: What is Hasbro's main focus? Did you guess focusing on the show and its characters? Well you're wrong. The correct answer is, selling toys.   I am sure there are those who say this coming as soon when Twilight's brother and foal sitter was introduced into the show. I went to Toys 'r' Us to search for some pony merch that wasn't at Hot Topic or Target. When I walked into the aisle I noticed a baby Pinkie Pie and Baby Spike. Thought to myself, "that's cute, but i will not buy it."   My friend walked in the aisle behind me and noticed something odd. "Hey, who is Skyla?" He asked me. I went over to check it out and to my horror i saw it: A BABY ALICORN. Now at first i thought was, "Oh its just a lame toy by Hasbro." So i kinda put the thought in the back of my head. A few seconds later, my other friend started talking about this prediction video on Youtube talking about the baby alicorn. He said that it would be Cadence's and Shining Armor's baby.   I always thought that the Lore of FiM was that being an alicorn was something the ponies worked for, not given out willy nilly. Twilight worked to become an alicorn but, having a foal be an alicorn right from the start of their lifespan? This does not make sense to me.   Some of you might be saying, "I'll get used to it like i did with Twilicorn." Others might be up in arms about this new Princess. So how will just this be the end of FiM? There was talk of making the Mane 6 alicorns as well. This means Twilight will not be the special one anymore. Moreover, it would not make sense within the show.   If that didnt make you lose all hope in the upcoming season then let me tell you that they might be producing an Equestria Girls T.V. show. I can only predict what horror that will bring. With them focusing on the other T.V. show, FiM might be canned...as in cancelled and forgotten about.     Please, anyone, tell me that im wrong....tell me that the show will not turn out like this.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

The system is flawed!

This week was the week where I, as well as many of you, went back to school for the semester or year. Now unlike the rest of the semesters where i dreaded the first day where the instructor would read over the syllabus for the entire two hour class, I looked forward to it. I had a good summer, had a positive meet-up with fellow bronies and made some memories that will stay with me forever.   Getting back to my complaint, I sat through the lectures (falling asleep through one) and soaked up the knowledge the instructors spat out. Everything was going great until they told the class of required textbooks. Now, i know i had to get these textbooks beforehand. Its an inevitability in college. What ticks me off is the price tag.   When we were all in elementary school and when the teacher gave out the texts she sent us home with papers saying, If we damaged the books or defaced them we would have to pay a $50 dollar fee( although, for some of you it may be more or less.).   Now that I am a college guy, i have spend an average of $60 per book. The most expensive book i bought was a communications book which was about $98. Now that doesn't sound so bad, right? Well let me ask you: how much did you spend on that last Harry Potter Book? Yeah thats what i thought.   The book is about 200 pages compared to Harry Potter's 1000 pages. Whats more is I'm only going to use this textbook for 3 months. I could just sell the book back at half the price but theres still that other half that the school gets.   Thus bringing me to my issue. The colleges(community) charge you an obscene amount of money for things you could easily research on your own. I know some people's brains don't work that way, but for a majority they do.   School systems dont cater to everyone. Only to a general population. They rarely have programs or teachers that cater to those creative thinkers. To those critical thinkers that like to break everything down.   Also, i have found that colleges only cater to those with money. If you have the money they will bend over backwards for you. If you are middle class or struggling they could care less about you. All of my friends agree, you got money but not the will to learn or achieve goals you'll do fine in College. You got the will and the goals but no money, you will struggle.   Just the other day my fellow Twilight Sparkles brony told me that he shares a dorm with spoiled rich kids who do nothing but binge drink and smoke marijuana. All illegally. He's middle class and even though its the second week for him, hes already suffering from their actions as well as financially.   In short, the system only caters to the rich and leaves the poor behind, even though the poor could be future doctors or physicists.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Xbox Themes

I was on Xbox live with nothing to do since all my friends went to bed. I looked at my online friends and saw a brony friend had a Rainbow Dash hoodie for his avatar. I thought to myself, "Hey, i should get that too." So i proceeded to get it as well as the pet Rainbow Dash.   By the way this angered me a little. Pet Rainbow Dash? I wouldn't want Rainbow Dash as a pet. I would want her as a friend or Marefriend or even wife. In my opinion, the only time her name and 'pet' should be in the same sentence would be if i said, "Hey, I got Rainbow Dash a pet turtle."   Anyways back to the thing that angered me the most.   After i got those avatar items I decided to change up my theme from Mafia II to My Little Pony. I spent a good ten minutes trying to figure out where to shop for more themes. Yes i know im special. Anyways, when i finally found the right tab or page or whatever you want to call it i spent another ten or fifteen minutes scrolling through 1000 themes.   I decided to be somewhat smart and sort them alphabetically. After i did that I scrolled to where the 'M' themes would be. NO MY LITTLE PONY THEMES. What i did find was themes for baseball teams and...MCDONALDS AND THEIR VARIOUS FOODS!   First of all, why? What kind of person has that much of a love(was going to say something else) for food made entirely of sugar water?! NO ONE THATS WHO!   I doubt theres a guy who buys this unless its for the lolz or because hes really high. Like one day a dude sees this and he's like, "Dude they have an egg mcmuffin theme! I love this sandwich so much, i will get this! Now i will be reminded of my weird obsession for a sandwich that isn't even good!"   My Little Pony is popular enough to have a premium theme so what's the holdup?!   If Mcdonalds can peddle their crappy food through premium themes then something like MLP FiM can have their own Premium Theme.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Alcohol, It are go good with pizza!

I like how non-drinkers are so inclined to tell you to stop drinking its bad for your health, or that its weird how you have to find comfort in a bottle. Unless you have been drunk then you have no place to tell drinkers what they should and should not do. As long as they aren't hurting anyone why should it matter to you? Dont even give me that I care about you nonsense. If you cared you wouldnt bug the person about drinking in the first place.   I care about your health~ Why? Why should you care? What are you getting by caring about the health of someone else?

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Unrealistic Commercials

Now we all know when watching television, commercials are an inevitability (unless you have a DVR or watch one of those no commercials network like TCM). Some commercials are there to serve a purpose, such as trying to get people interested in a product, or warning people about certain behaviors (like smoking, drinking, A.D.D or bullying.).   The commercials the make me irate are those idiotic commercials selling something we, as humans, don't need. Let's take the 'GoGo Pillow' for example. Its basically an unneeded tablet stand when using your lap is too hard. Now granted there are some instances where this would be helpful and the supposed neck pillow it transforms into is a nice feature if you travel alot.     I ask, does the marketing division of these companies think we are monkeys? Sure it 'molds to any surface' but i don't slam my fingers on the tablet going: "ner its so herd to use my tablet! I cant type on it normally. Instead i have to practically punch it to work on it." I mean come on! Consumers are not that dumb. I use my tablet with normal accessories and still get a good view of what's going on on the screen.   It's not Just that product either. There are many commercials that assume that the user is so stupid that they don't know how to use critical thinking or problem solving to fix a simple problem.   "Burnt your dinner? then you need the-" shut up! If you burnt your dinner its your own fault. This problem can be fixed by actually paying attention to what you're doing.   "forgot where you parked your car? The you need this all new voice recorder." No you don't. If you forgot where you parked then odds are you shouldn't drive cause you're either drunk or high.   All I'm asking is to stop making us look like idiots. We aren't idiots, we have brains, we can solve problems.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

This black cloud follows me

This day has been full of disappointment, and depressing undertones. It all started so well too. Practically destroyed in Battlefield 3 and later played it with some fellow Bronies. I got asked to run some errands which made me put my fun on hold.   That's when hell started. Bad drivers and some gang member following me put me in a bad mood. I went to Carl's Jr. to get a Jim Beam Bourbon burger. It sorta helped my mood since those things are divine.   Thats when my mood worsened. With talk of putting my dog down that i had since i was 5 I became depressed. What's more is that my Grandma keeps talking as if she is ready to die. Like thats something i wanted to deal with all day.   Then, all my friends canceled their plans to hang out with me. It was something I was looking forward to since last week. Cue the sad music that I have on my Pandora. Slept for a little while, and thats when i had a dream.   I dreamt that all my friends,family and even internet friends set up some elaborate event where they all insulted me and finished their speech with "i was only pretending to like you."   woke up with tears in my eyes and blood all over me. turns out i coughed throughout my sleep and coughed hard enough to the point where blood came out.   I took a vicodin thinking it would help my throat. Turns out the Vicodin was extra strength. I guess i cant handle that cause now im spiraling into a mix of depression and anger.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

I hate you technology Pt.3

I shouldn't be surprised this would happen to me seeing as how technology always screws me over.   Yesterday I was on my 6 year old computer which was on its last leg. Every plastic part on it was melted to the point where the only thing that was holding the whole thing together was a couple random stickers. Now i feel like I kinda had it coming seeing how the thing was on its last legs but i kept it in tip top condition with anti-virus software and a system mechanic application.   Anyways, I was going through some pony things when my windows explorer started to crash. I thought it was nothing. It has done it before..it crashes then it restarts and thats the end of it. Not this time! Windows Explorer kept crashing, restarting, and crashing all over again.   I did everything i could think of, restarting, doing system diagnostics, cleaning windows cache, de-fragmentation of the hard drive, running my antivirus scanner as well as the system mechanics. The only thing i didnt do, because i couldn't do it, was restore to and early point.   Theoretically i could take it to a computer repair shop, but there are things on there that would turn a sane man insane. My remedy for this? Sword to the right of me war-hammer to the left of me which one shall i use~   yes I am going to recreate the printer smashing scene from Office Space but with way more brutality!   TAKE THAT TECHNOLOGY!   Oh, and imma have a friend record this whole coupe de gras and post it on youtube. Why you ask? because i have to send a message to technology(as if it were a sentient thing).

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Give me some time and a buck load of boxes

I'm the type of person that holds onto things that have sentimental value. Ever since the passing of a loved one i keep all his things. Now they described him as a pack rat since he held onto his things from his military life and on-so 70 years of knick knacks-   Well, i am the same way as him. I hold onto things that has some sentimental value....stuff that i associate good memories with. Anyways my room is pretty massive and its cluttered with this supposed 'junk' as my family likes to call it.   Now i know what you're thinking and no, I am not a hoarder. I can throw things away with ease and my room is organized in a unique way. It's just that i have so much stuff and nowhere to put it since my family insists on storing their crap in my room. Due to that i have no where to put my stuff or any boxes that could remedy the supposed clutter.   Now i wouldn't care about all this, but the painter does. Claiming he can not paint around my clutter(which is perfectly reasonable), he tells me to put my stuff outside in boxes. Ok thats reasonable to me. What isnt reasonable is the fact that my family wants me to get my stuff out there within a day or two.   If you could see the size of my room, and the things i have, you would know that it would be an improbable effort. Just imagine, if you will, a small studio apartment filled with cherished objects. that is my room. Now imagine having to put these items in various boxes and putting them in a small backyard near neighbors you do not trust.   yeah, this whole things feels like a huge effort that can be solved easily. However, i can not think of anything that can make this easier on me.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Hate you At&t

So as of yesterday i have been without internet. I am at a friends house stealing his internet just to catch up on things. Mainly Homework and actual work. the only diamond in this big pile of bull**** is that i can post on the forums. At&t claims that they are working on the problem and its to be fixed before the end of the day but i have had so many problems with them before that i do not trust a single word they say.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Alcohol, never again

So i have a hangover which is unusual for me to have. I soon have come to find out i drank too much alcohol last night. My friend said it was interesting to see me go through different moods while drunk. He said first i was super happy and funny but soon declined to a depressive state that worried him as i continued. I'm jst glad i didnt do or say anything i might regret later.   Unless you count the fact that im somehow wearing underwear. Whelp, thats my little warning to y'all. know your limit or you might end up wearing girls underwear.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

There really must be something wrong with me

I was at work yesterday(Friday)and boy was I suffering. It wasn't that i hated being there, but something else was really getting to me. I was on the verge of actually crying, which i haven't done in a long time. If you ever played Sleeping Dogs, i was like Wei Shen when he woke up from sleep halfway through the game. I was doing that pacing heavy breathing and sighing/grumbling. So on top of fighting back tears, i was also shaking violently and very close to passing out. It got so bad a supervisor was called in to talk to me since i was scaring my co-workers. The supervisor wanted to send me home, but i refused stating i will be fine. She sent me on a break where i fought my inner demons. The worst part of the whole ordeal was the fact that people saw me in such a disgraceful state. I, also had no one talk to which really would have helped me. It seems whenever i need a shoulder to lean on no one is there for me. I guess this is what i get for being such a cynical and nihilist person/dragon.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Role-Playing eludes me

I have two good role-plays that i have in my mind. I don't want to give too much away but the one that i am TRYING to get posted is a revise of the very first role-play i ever tried to get started up. I have several theories why it failed, but dwelling on it serves no purpose right now.   Every time i get started on writing the post I get pulled away from my computer. I either have to do work at home, or i fall asleep. It really is frustrating since i have a good feeling about my revised Role-play. Listen, i know what you're thinking: Oh you must have time since you posted this blog entry and whatnot. I am thinking that too. I would be writing in my roleplay searching thread, but i always get pulled away no matter what.   Like I keep saying, "The universe hates me and doesn't want me to start this role-play." Though now that i think of it i could just neglect the inane things that pull me away from my computer.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

I Hate you, Technology Pt.2

Yeah its another rave about how much technology hinders me. I finally got enough motivation to make an ask tumblr and improve my art. Feeling proud, i decided to upload all my art to the tumblr and the forums respectively. It was going all well until my scanner decided to stop working for no reason. I checked the drivers and they were fine. rolled the drivers back and it still didnt work. re-installed the program and still didnt work. So i decided to re-draw all my hard work on the computer using MS Paint. I found out that there is little to no precision in MS Paint. Sometimes i wonder if technology is really here to help us or if its there to hinder us.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

I Hate you, Technology

Stupid computer! go ahead and erase my Vector i worked so hard on(i forgot to save it) Go ahead and freeze every time im in the middle of something important. Go ahead and spit out the devices i connect to you and give me the error message device unknown. I like it a whole bunch. *grabs Boomstick* Do svidaniya.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

Dark Place

So over the last week i was having the most frustrating week. I found out i wasn't working(trust me my workplace is awesome), and i found out that my instructors pushed their mid terms to this week. I also had a brutal math test, i was called racial slurs by random people; I also came to the realization that im just a speck of dust on the universes television. so to speak. So i was feeling pretty bad but i soldiered on cause i tried to put my depression behind me. Then i took a swig of forbidden nectar. Things got bad from there on out. I was constantly getting trolled on various websites and felt powerless as it was happening. On top of that my hands and feet were pretty jacked up After a while i just gave up. I did cross over to that realm of thinking. Im getting better now and should be feeling normal after a while.

Rainbow    Dash

Rainbow Dash

 

not sure if dead or avoiding me

It seems that ever since the season finale of FiM people haven't been on the forums as of late. All my role-plays are either dead or at a standstill(meaning the roleplay starters forgot about the roleplays) I am starting up several role plays of my own but to know avail. So i am pretty certain that people are avoiding me because i might come off as...something. Not sure of the word but i know i might come off as it. persistent maybe? or maybe i just lack patience. I don't know I just turn into a social butterfly when im online and want to talk and constantly post on the forums when im online...and drink.

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Rainbow Dash

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