I'm not sure if this little ramble of mine will be helpful to you at all, but it may do, so I'll leave it here.

I've been the person to end every relationship I've ever been in. Every. Single. One. And it was rarely if ever because the guy did anything wrong. He didn't fail. If anything, I failed because I couldn't form a lasting romantic attachment. I look at the relationships I've ended as being entirely my fault, and it cuts me up because I hate hurting other people.

I have managed to carry on friendships after ending relationships, but that's an exercise in managing a truckload of guilt and awkward vestigial feelings that are still dangling all over the place. It's possible, but it's certainly not easy. She could still be struggling with that.

You're the only one who can tell you how to feel, but I don't believe you've failed. Relationships are fickle things, they can fall apart for no reason whatsoever, and that's not always a reflection on the people who were in them.

There's one thing in all of this I do believe is 100% true, though: "If you can't be happy by yourself, you won't ever be happy with other people." That is sage advice. Other people can make you feel better through their presence, but I believe true happiness comes from within. While it feels great to share that happiness with other people around you, it's essential to be happy with yourself. It makes people gravitate toward you, and those people around you will reflect that happiness back like mirrors.

Sorry to hear that, man. But you shouldn't give up on finding someone who will go the distance with you. So many people find a lasting love, you will too, I hope.

If you were thinking of breaking up with her for a while, it wasn't a relationship worth continuing. Spend your time making yourself happy than blaming her for feeling like it may be difficult to talk to you now that you are no longer in a relationship. Have you also perhaps though that she may be busy and that is why she did not reply, or did you automatically assume she is ignoring you to HURT UR FEEELINGS? Perhaps you should look at your own shortcomings as well rather than piling the blame on her?

Let's do a little experiment here.

Right now, I'm holding a bag. In this bag are thousands of sheets of paper. Each strip of paper contains a random number between 0 and 100.

Eagerly, a kid sticks his hand in the bag and expects to find a number greater than 90. He has a good feeling about this, he thinks. Things are going well, and today is his lucky day. He's pretty confident that the number he'll draw will be something high. The excitement of it all makes him happier than he ever was before. This is it; if he gets a 90 or higher, he'll have a better life for sure.

As he unfolds the sheet of paper, the number on it is revealed to be a four.

What? Only four? But there are supposed to be 70's, 80's, and 90's in the bag! What happened there? Why couldn't he be the one to draw something at least average? Four out of a hundred is abysmal!

The kid rips the sheet of paper apart and kicks the bag away. "This is a waste of time! I don't even want to try anymore; all these numbers suck ass!" he claims.

Have I made my point yet?

What it appears you're trying to do is examine random data to create a pattern from that. For example, "oh, this cloud looks like a pony, so all clouds must look like ponies." Pretty silly, right? We know a pony-shaped cloud doesn't say much about other clouds.

We know how clouds work. They're pretty random. If you look at the sky for a long enough time, you'll see clouds of all shapes and sizes. Eventually, you probably will see one that looks like a pony. Keep looking at random data, and you'll eventually find what you want to see, based on chance alone. It's the infinite monkey theorem, if you're familiar with that.

So, with this in mind...

Everyone is different. Everyone has different needs, desires, and expectations when it comes to relationships. You can't blame yourself for this, and you can't blame her. Definitely, whatever you do, do not generalize and blame all people. That's even worse.

The success of a relationship is basically a random event. When you first start off, you don't know what's going to happen. You don't know how compatible you are with her. It's completely natural and normal to try to analyze the situation and draw conclusions about yourself and others based on the outcome, but those conclusions are all fallacious.

Your mistake here was having high expectations in the first place. It's easy to over-glorify relationships at first, especially when everything is new and exciting. What you have to keep in mind is that yes, there is a chance that it will all end in heartbreak. You're not wrong there, and it's okay to be a little cynical.

But don't use that newfound knowledge to avoid relationships entirely. Okay, so you had a bad experience. Perhaps you've had several bad experiences. Join the club. I don't know one person who's been dating and hasn't had a bad experience. It happens to everyone. Don't think that bad experience means you can't have good experiences, because those exist, too.

The thing is, you have to realize that relationships are neither as bad nor as good as everyone makes them seem. Don't get your hopes up for love to fix your life, because that's unlikely. But at the same time, don't expect every experience you have with love to be bad--that's unlikely, too.

Everyone is different. The world is filled with all kinds of people. Just because one person doesn't love you doesn't mean someone else won't.

You shouldn't use this experience as a reason not to let someone else into your heart in the future. In fact, I encourage you to do the opposite. Kick this girl out of your life--she's already hurting you enough as it is. Keep her in the past and move on. There are plenty of other girls to talk to, and the more experience you have, the better your odds will be of finding someone who is actually good for you.

Don't let this be a lesson not to try; let this be a lesson to try more. You will experience all these things, and that's completely normal. Maybe you had bad experiences in the past, and maybe next time it won't be better. It's the truth, I'm not gonna sugar-coat that. But if you keep at it, you will almost surely find a better, happier, and healthier relationship based on probability alone.

Tl;dr: Don't avoid another relationship fearing the same thing will happen again. However, don't go into another relationship with the same naivete you had in the past. Maintain a balance between the two, and try to be reasonable. Be aware of all possible outcomes, good and bad, and expect even the unexpected.

I agree with what Regulus said.

wow.

there will be other fish in the sea and if not that girl there will be others, so don't let this ruin your chances at finding love.

though I do agree with finding your own love because some times in life you will find your self alone. we all have dark and gloomy days where nothing good seems to happen, but we need to remember that we'll survive this.

tomorrow is another day to fulfill our dreams.

:3 you need to make it through the storm before you can get to the rainbow on the other end.

I hope you find happiness.

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