I never thought I would be blogging something like this. I can usually make a blog and be very optimistic when looking at stuff or barely talk about my personal life. I just never really had much to talk about. That's because, looking around, I don't have a lot in my life.
Now, don't take this as me being depressed, cause I'm not, I'm just talking about personal inner thoughts I sometimes have.
I feel like everything I do I'm only about average at and not amazingly good. I'm only about an OK critic, an OK gamer, an OK writer, and OK everything. I can do the stuff but am not amazing at it.
Even on these forums, I always feel like there's people out there doing much more than I am. We've got great critics, great writers, and great roleplayers. And then there's me, Mr Average. Just the guy who people say "Oh nice job." When I feel like I didn't do that grand of a job. I try my best but my stuff mainly turns out OK. Most of my posts are nowhere near as long and detailed as a lot of people. I honestly have no idea how I'm pretty known on here. I just do stuff that other people on this forum can do better at.
This can sometimes also lead me to get a bit jealous. I don't outright say it, but I feel I get jealous. I look at the RP community and see how great they can do with it and how much roleplays they've done well I just feel I'm not very good at it. I get jealous of how much they've done it to the point where I can't even look at it.
I get jealous of how good people can show praise or criticize stuff better than me. Even in my top 10 least favorite episode lists, the blog I made seemed a bit unorganized. I only glaze over things I don't like without being able to think about how I could go into more detail. I think of it, and it doesn't look as good as I thought once I post it. Then I see these other people who can praise their favorite character or episode much better well my praise comes off as awkward.
This is just my personal struggles I think of when I'm alone.