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About me and how MLP Forums helped me.

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Ok this is me and how MLP Forums helped me!

 

I have been trying to fit into the society my entire life. I just wanted to be like everyone else. I didn't want any attention into myself. I didn't realize back then that only way I would fit in was to not to fit in. So I was pushed away from groups and I ended up standing in corners quietly and sitting alone in somewhere. I was always alone. No one noticed me.

 

When I tried to say something to someone they were like I didn't say anything. That hurt me and I started thinking myself that I am no one. I am not wanted. I went deeper into my shell. I started to get depressed because I was bullied being different. I still didn't realize that because I tried to not to be different that was my difference compared to others. I stopped eating at school. My health started getting worse. No one talked to me people just watched me and laughed. I was just trash that people kicked away. I wasn't accepted.

 

I started going deeper into myself and getting my shell stronger. I was just a machine. There were not any emotions on my face anymore. I didn't react to bullying anymore. I stopped reacting to anything. I didn't smile. I didn't cry, but I was crying still inside. I locked myself and my emotions so deep that no one would ever judge me because of them again! It got so bad that I thought jumping off from a bridge once

 

Then one sad day. It was just normal day. On my Swedish class when the break started I stayed at class with some other students. Then teacher put that one TV:Show rolling on the screen. It was talk show and the guest was a brony. He was asked why he liked the show. My teacher laughed at him. Then I started wondering why this guy goes to talk show willingly when he was only mocked there. I realized that there had to be something bigger behind this.

 

I started watching the show and I loved it. Fluttershy was the character I could relate. I watched all the episodes. Then I thought: "That's it?" I wanted more! I started searching something from the Google and I saw MLP Forums. I was checking this site out from June to August. I created account here 11 day of August! I started posting 18 day. It took me while to realize how great this place actually is. This place is heaven. Everyone is friendly and accepting and I realized that I don't need to hide in my shell anymore! It was 13 years since I was last time myself.

 

This time I didn't want to be like everyone else. This is the only place where I am something and not just no one. This is the only place where I can be. I don't want to be no one anymore.

 

I'm starting to loosen up a little IRL too and because of this I'm no longer so deep in myself.

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May I say that you are one of the most friendly users on MLP Forums? I remember reading your blog about brohoofing and seeing people like you brightens my day.

 

You should always stick to your ideals. They make you the person you are right now. ;)

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If there would be any place anywhere you would always be accepted at, its right here friend.

 

We're all here for you friend. Keep being awesome :) .

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I'm glad you found it here. This is a great and supportive community, and I can't find anything else like it anywhere on the Internet.

 

You're a great addition to MLP Forums, and a great friend to us. I'm glad this has helped you with your problems in life. In a way, it gives us a sort of purpose.

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This almost brought a tear to my eyes, I know how exactly you feel. 

I was an athlete I also hanged out with the popular kids but I was branded the weirdo and 'feminine' one. I was mocked for a lot of things geeky and nerdy. I too became depressed it's been a year officially since I've been depressed free although I still have remnants of depression here and there and anxiety but I keep composed. 

 

This place has also been a haven for me, I've met so many wonderful people <3 

 

If you're ever feeling down dear, you have all of us to talk too!

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Well written ooBrony. ^_^

 

It's good to see that these forums helps you, and that you have found a place to fit in here. Even if soceiety at large find bronies a joke we still have eachother to support, and we're not gonna leave anypony behind. :D

 

Eternal brohoof to you my friend. ^_^

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You know we're all hugging you here, dear friend.

 

But heaven? I don't think it is, because I'm also here. XD

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We got your back, dude. You be you, I'll be me, Darker will be... something... and we'll all get along just fine. We'll be merry, we'll irritate each other on occasion, and probably fight sometimes, but it'll never revoke the acceptance, and it should never tarnish everyponies friendship!

I may have joined after you, but I'm glad you're around, all the same.

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I'm glad you're starting to open up. It's really a good feeling when you can be yourself without any limitations. I struggled with that early in High School but I had friends that ... well didn't actively help me, they just accepted me because they thought I was cool. And I think you're cool OOBrony! You're very friendly and a great person and I'd be proud to call myself your friend.

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Your teacher is an arse.

 

Well, i'm glad you love it here. In school i'm one of those nerdy kids that is an active member of the debate club, art club, and gaming club. Surprisingly, I don't get picked on that much. It's probably because War & Peace is very heavy and i'm sure I could give someone a concussion by attempting to hit them with it. But i'm glad that you are able to express your craziness. Screw bullies! Hit them with a big-ass book!

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It's so great to hear that this place has helped you out. :) I can relate in that I wanted a place to come out and make new friends too, and this is definitely a great place to be accepted by anyone. Anyway, I just wanted to say that it's really great to have you here; your new topics are always so interesting and I appreciate that you taught me a bit about your language.

 

*hugs :)*

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We enjoy you're presence here, I know I have! Although I was never bullied I was a bit like you, for a while in middleschool I became a shut in from fear of being bullied. Here's some little tips on confidence that my dad told me that helped me and I hope can help you, walk with your chin up and looking forward (looking confident is confidence). Enter a room and assuming everyone already likes you. Expect to feel confident and you will. Know it.

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*hugs* I always smile when I see "ooBrony brohoofs this" :3

 

That's wonderful! It's so very wonderful to know that these My Little Pony forums have helped someone with their life. :) I'm glad you've found a home here, and I hope that it continues this way for a long time! :D

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Damn, i find that story very relatable, it's nice to see people overcoming that kind of situations, friendship is, in fact, magic. And you seem like a pretty nice guy :)

 

*hugs* I always smile when I see "ooBrony brohoofs this" :3

 

I'm used to it too, and i like it too :D

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This is why I love this forum, I can meet people that I can relate to, I can relate to you very well, I used to be very shy and I used to have depression and when i found this show I new I had found something that I loved and made me happy

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May I say that you are one of the most friendly users on MLP Forums? I remember reading your blog about brohoofing and seeing people like you brightens my day.

 

You should always stick to your ideals. They make you the person you are right now. ;)

Usually the ones with the most hurt are the ones who show the most kindness as to avoid that hurt reaching others.

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