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State of my mind

Sir Q of Q

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Thought I'd write a quick blog just to explain things, just in case anyone wants to know.

 

I am depressed. I have been so for years, before I was ever here. I had taken the depression, and hidden it from myself, from the world at large.

 

The happy, silly me was basically a lie, so I could avoid the depression. Will I ever go back to that? I don't know.

 

Various things, including job seeking pressure caused my lifelong insomnia to get worse, which caused the wall holding back the depression to shatter.

 

I plan to see a doctor about it, whether or not I'll actually find the motivation to do so is another matter. What will happen then... I don't know. I don't know if I'll get better, or if I'll get worse.

 

One thing I do know is that I am not going to commit suicide. I've nearly done it before, not going down that route again. I will remain alive, however miserable I feel.

 

So until I get better, if I do, thank you for putting up with me.

 


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I can sympathize with you, I've been going through anxiety and panic attacks for the past 2 years, have been seeing a psychologist without success and now feel reluctant to look for someone else who can actually help me. I might have developed some kind of depression but self-diagnosis won't get me anywhere so I can only assume. I still think seeking help is the most important step in this problem and very essential to actually solve it.

 

You can message me/talk to me whenever you feel like talking or you just feel like venting :3

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