Yesterday was such a lovely day for me. Not only did I miss one of my final exams that I may or may not get to take, depending on how lenient my professor is, I also had an absolutely terrific experience.

I'd say it was about... 4:30 central time. I was talking to my best friend on the phone, before I had to go down to my college cafeteria for country fried porkchops with carrots and green beans, and we were having an absolutely awesome time. We were both happy as can be, enjoying each other's "company," and then it went to hell quickly; her dad got home from work. Now, her dad is kind of okay with her talking to me, but he likes to make fun of her for talking to people on the phone, especially when it's guys she talks to. He walked into her room once, and kind of did that, and things were pretty okay. She was a little annoyed, as I would be too.

However, he came in a second time. He was angry at something (I don't know what) and started yelling at her. I couldn't tell what he was saying, since it was muffled, but it didn't sound good. I sat there, trying to stay quiet while I heard my friend yelling back at him, telling him to stop doing something. After this was all over, she came back on the phone, crying. After about 5 minutes of me trying to console her, she went quiet, and hung up after about 10 minutes of that.

I got extremely worried; her dad has a history of physically abusing both her and her brother. I was scared for her, as I didn't know if he had hit her or not for whatever it was that he was angry about. While she was gone, I threw myself into a full on panic attack; not a small one, either. I could barely hold anything, my hands were shaking so bad. I couldn't breathe, and I felt about ready to faint.

No matter what I did, I couldn't stop going over the scenario in my head.

That's when I started to message my ex about it, since we've stayed friends since our break-up, and I knew that she would be ready to help me, and she made me realize something:

I worry too much.

From what I understand, he didn't do anything to hurt her, all he did was try and forcefully take the phone from her so he could harass both me and her, and it upset her pretty badly. And yet, there I was, worrying my head off thinking that he had hurt her somehow. I always worry about the worst possibilities, especially if they are beyond my control. And I realized that this is one of my biggest flaws.

Anyway, that was just a recap and realization I had about myself during the amazing day I had yesterday. I hope all of you here had better days than I did, and I hope that you have a wonderful day tomorrow/today.

Until next time.

-Brendan