Welp. Memo 1 inside my oldest blog in the history of me.

Hello, you might know me as Kivil, or Echo, or even Scaredy Breeze. But today I'm not being an OC. I am being me, Kyla. All I wanted to say in regards to revealing my name is, as I was searching the internet I found that there was a happy forum filled with bronies and non bronies alike, I called this place "My home" I thought that it was because that is what I needed at the time. A home. A home filled of people like me and totally across the bridge from me. Now I see I was wrong for calling this my home. I was never supposed to be here, I was never supposed to make friends here or talk to anyone. That was because most of the threads here are full of people who want to just get their thoughts out and maybe just maybe someone will see it and like it or dislike it and would want to refute it. I rarely got a reply back from the hundreds upon hundreds of posts that I did. Now my question is. Did anyone really see me at all? Did anyone really notice that I was typing my heart out onto the big plane full of people who thought the exact same way I did? Of course no one noticed. I barely noticed me myself. I am going on a journey to find myself. This forum was just the beginning. This forum made me realize that I am just a nobody swimming in the river of life trying to find a bank to sit on and contemplate what really is a Kyla. Because the last time I checked I was a nobody trying to make their way into the big city and finally reach the top of the world. I should have started a different way. I should have played by the books. I should have sucked up to so many people just to reach where I wanted. But the people with bower are too corrupt for me. I want to climb up my own way. Then it comes full circle back to the Forums. I have been here for nearly a year and in that year I have found that I wanted to be a moderator. I wanted to have some sort of seat above everyone else. Did I have a good reason to want that? Sure I think I did but other might say different. I wanted to know that I could have my name somewhere that everyone can see, I wanted to have my name shown in a place where only a few names where so my name could shine in the big lights. But of course, the people in power, they have fell corrupt and don't want me on because I'm "too young" or too "crazy" I will never be fit for such people because these people aren't fit enough for me. I don't want my name to be shown in the lights of the other corrupt people. I want to shine on my own and even if that means I die on my own. I don't care anymore. I will start a new path with a new name with a new face and body. You won't even know it's me, you probably won't even care. That's why I tried. I tried twice to make it big here. But you won't know who I was first because the old me wasn't bombastic enough to share their feelings 24/7. The point of this is I think the people in power here on the forums are corrupt and use their power horribly. I would make my own forum but it would crash and fall and burn to the bottom of the internet where the deep web dogs can eat what is left of its bones.

I can never make it big in life. Who was I to think I could. This place really showed me that. Now I must go and find myself.

I don't expect to be back but if I do come back, you will never know it's even Kivil or Echo.