Ok so about a week ago now (maybe more, maybe less) as you all would of seen I was in an extremely bad mood, well ... Remember the weather system in my blogs? Well they tell you how I'm feeling, for example, this one, Clear Skies w/ Slight Breeze .... Well, I feel pretty neutral today with a spot of sorrow, nothing too bad thou ..... Pay attention to my forecasting system as it will tell you everything you need to know ....
Now I promised I would explain y I was so pissed off .... Ok, it goes like this, for those who don't know I am a depression suffer, a mild one at that, and I had failed my licence exam again, and while yes I was pissed off at me and them (me for failing, them for failing me xD) it triggered a very volatile burst of rage I haven't seen since year 7 back in high school and that was in 2008 mind you ..... And because I'm a depression suffer, ofc depression would have an argument to say, how I'm always a failure, and doomed to be a failure. A failure at making friends, at passing exams, at finding love, at finding work etc etc ..... And so I had to have the biggest fight of my life to stay alive, because back then .... If I let the depression win, well, I wouldn't exactly be here now to post this .... So I stayed pissed off, problem was I so pissed off for so long it was only silly, and I looked like the biggest derpy once I cooled down
About my depression, I am finally doing something about it, I spoke to my gp who sent me for a blood test, and I'll get the results on Monday as well as a referral to see a shrink and talk to them about my problems ... I'm doing ok as of right now because of my massive out burst of raw emotion and rage, so yea ..... Well I wanna go, need to look into clan shit .... Catch y'all in the next update .... Stay pony everyone
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