So some of you, who know me well, might know that I have recurring nightmares. If you follow my artwork, you'll see it there, and also if you've read my previous blog entries, I have mentioned it.
My recurring nightmare is that of a shadow person, who follows me. The concept is much like the game Slender, if you are familiar with that character. It works in much the same way, except for me, it is very much real when I'm sleeping, and the one following me has no suit or features, its face is not white, it is just blackness. Its presence is like a physical manifestation of the worst things you can imagine, brought together in a roughly human shape, and composed of nothing but shadows. It inspires irrational fear simply at the sight of it, and the only instinct is to flee from it at all cost.

My last dream involving this character, I was in a burning building. I remember trying to save someone, and I was in the last room before the exit. The walls were nothing but wooden pillars, wreathed and glowing in flames and embers. The fire by any realistic standard would kill me if I were to really be in something like that. But I remember feeling nothing, and the exit was completely dark, in unnatural contrast to the blazing room. The flames shot up violently and I stopped, seeing the doorway's darkness shrink into that familiar, haunting form. I knew what it was, but could not move, even though the building around me was burning.

As horrific as this sounds, this dream, I consider a step of progress for me. This time, I didn't feel as much terror in seeing the thing at the doorway. This indicates to me, that I may be ready to face it, and now I actively search for it in my subconscious. I challenge it to come for me, so I can see it, and understand it. I feel now that I have chosen to confront it, it has less power over me than it had before.

For anyone who got this far, thanks for reading. I think you can guess why Luna is my favourite character. I share a lot of her inner conflicts. And I consider myself, as my member title says, a dream wanderer.

Anyone out there who suffers night terrors, sleep paralysis or recurring nightmares? I know how you feel, and I'd be happy to help anyone who has trouble understanding why these things happen.