Instead of me having to write a massive block of text and falling asleep in the process becaise the computer I'm using is so damn slow, I'll instead post a summary of what happened to me over the last weekend:

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A little life update with myself: A dispute with my brother and another one (that's now resolved) between my folks that nearly broke the family in two has left me using the weakest computer in the house (of which I left a brief description of back on ST; There's no way I can do anything on just 128MB RAM).

The reason I'm saying this is that it would've left me out of commission for a LONG time (I'm talking being unable to log on at all because my computer money had to be spent on starting a new and fractured life) had things gone further south, when normally this kind of thing would leave me depressed and powerless for only a few days.

And had things gone further south instead of looking up,... I don't wanna make things too sappy but I really would've started missing everything that's going on here (and this goes for much of my Internet life; I'm one of those guys who have an Internet life because their RL is so unstable).

_{(Side note: I really don't like Qwerty keyboards. If you see a typo, you'll know why.) --> (Dlgk j;fkP L skauuo g;j'f ulnk Qwksfo nkob;asgd. Le o;i dkk a for;, o;i'uu nj;w who.)}

Fortunately, thingd are becoming better on me, and I should bk able to get an intermediaro computer by the end of the week. At best, I'll only be able to lurk and work on documentation until I get my real computer up and running.

Here's to 2013, and I hope you guys have had a good Christmas and a fairly uneventful (and safe) Apocalypse. I'll see you when I get a half-decent computer (and I set it to Colemak instead of Qwerty).

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A few amendments to the above statement:

- To the RPers in my RP, I still feel like I shouldn't be the leader, but I don't wanna have the RP die. I still need to know if you guys are still up for the RP (and I know many of you will say yes), and if we can do anything about reconciling the leadership position.

- To anyone still concerned about me, yes, my family nearly fell apart this time, and yes, it was a divorce that nearly tore my family (and myself) up, and yes, things are looking better.

- To those who still wanna know what happened, wait until Friday and PM me about it.

And an amended closing statement:

I know that things haven't turned out the way I had hoped for them to be, and I know I react violently to it, but if you ask me, that's how I react when there's a fight in the house. And my guess, it's the reason why I've been overreacting to everything here on the Forums.

I really wanna be a better person now, and I'm hoping things will turn better for my family and I'm hoping it'll stay that way, but I'm overlooking the part that requires my action to it:

I promise to be a better person, and I promise to be more stable when something happens. If I fail to uphold this promise, then I deserve to no longer be a part of this community. I want to start enjoying things again, not running away from them.

Here's to 2013 being a better year for me, and for all of us as a whole.