IDK how I am compared to average, but I think I'm a very industrious person. If I have an opportunity to work, I will. I work a full time job that usually gives me 35-40 hours/week, I workout every night for 1.5 hours, I'm frequently practicing against bots on the hardest difficulty in Quake Live to prepare for Quake Champions, record myself in case something worth putting on Youtube happens, I listen to commentary/news videos at 2x speed so I can hear more things faster, I like and comment on right political videos to help boost their chances of getting recommended, and I can't even eat properly anymore. Maybe the last 1's because my job only gives us 15 minutes of break for every 5 hours in a shift, which caused me to habituate eating fast, but even at home or eating out, I end up eating fast and uncomfortably. I just want to swallow food and return home as soon as possible so I can do more productive things at home. I'm constantly stressing myself yet I have to be constantly doing things or else I'll feel even more uncomfortable

 

I obviously need to spend like $1,000 for an hour of therapy, right? I shamefully work in the fast food industry as a regular worker. I have 1 week of requested time off and for 6 of those days, I'll be job hunting for a less stressful job that pays better. At the job I have now, I need to drink energy drinks to maintain my performance so my managers don't rant at me and so that they don't get ranted at by corporate level either. These things destroy hearts. Exercise helps, but it only solves the symptoms instead of the problem which is drinking energy drinks almost daily. I've even developed a tolerance for them, lessening my performance boosts

 

There are 2 nice malls almost next to each other only 3 miles from where I live. Ideally, at minimum, I hope some store at either location will hire me, anything that isn't in the food industry. Preferably, I'd like to get hired by the mall for top1%ers. The crowd is so much smaller, everyone is calmer, and the environment is so businessly fancy. They have so many stores that sell expensive as fuck stuff. The fashion industry sells stuff at huge markups, so I'm hoping that if I get the dream scenario, maybe I'll have enough money to buy some fancy attire. My job will require me to dress as rich as my customers anyways. I just hope that I have a good enough resume to get interviewed

 

Unfortunately, all I can put on it are 1.5 years of working at the 2nd most popular fast food store of the company in America in the 8th most popular mall in America, 128 credit hours, psychology major, sadly never graduated, my strength (Going to test my pull up and push up limit tomorrow), and that's about it. I don't have any valuable trades. But what does a sales associate need to know beyond persuasion? I guess I could practice saying random things to a microphone to learn how to talk well and stuff. IDK

 

I'm doubting that I'll end up in the top1%er mall. The demand is low but the markups are high. I'll more likely end up in the mall for everyone at/above middle class because that place is constantly flooded with customers. Stores will need workers to help keep up with customers. I haven't even started yet because I feel so sick from stress, work, health destructive food that I serve, and energy drinks. Why haven't I puked yet?