The only stormy cloud over my head right now is one that I should've addressed long ago, and writing is the best way for me to do that, so here we go.

I still have resentment in me, long after I left, even as I found someone who makes my mood great just by looking at her. I've seen that you hooked up with multiple guys after I left you. I saw that you lied about the things you claimed to have done the night I left. You claimed that you just wanted attention. You never let me have space. You were obsessively clingy. I had NO FREEDOM. Day in, day out, Skype during the day, Skype during night, always doing some sort of activity with you daily. My life was hectic as hell a year ago. I needed space, I needed some time to be by myself to recharge. You didn't care. I escaped through games, hanging out with friends who made me happy instead of draining all of my joy to fill their own empty souls up like you did. You told me I couldn't balance a relationship and gaming. This is my rebuttal to that: You treated me as an extension of yourself. You "loved" me because you didn't want to be ALONE. You needed a person to make you happy because you can't learn to love yourself and realize that it's okay to be single. YOU WERE SELFISH. I spent three days in August by myself to get away and be happy, and I still texted you through those days and we Skyped at night. You got mad at me for apparently "not talking to you" as if I didn't check in or make sure you were okay. Every day, every argument, every false accusation or claim, it dug my depression deeper that I developed because of you. I talked to you about the guild I was involved with one night, you made it clear you were uninterested, and said that they were stupid and that I should just marry someone from my guild. Was it a bad idea to tell you that I was happy around others? Probably. But you pointed fingers. You never ONCE looked in the mirror during our relationship and realized the faults within your own character. I'll spill mine, because I'm aware: I judged your music tastes, when I shouldn't of, I let arguments go on too long because of my failures to admit when I'm wrong, and I don't know when to call things quits when it should've been over, such as me staying as long as I did. I didn't want to give up to you. It wasn't until I was crying to my friends about how depressed I had gotten and how trapped I felt by a psychotic partner that wouldn't let me be free. That's when I told you I wanted a break, and that'd I would be back. I did have intentions of returning until you continued to text about how you missed me and made it clear how obsessive you are. I left soon after. You blamed ME for what you did to yourself because I "stressed you out" with the break. I cannot express in words how much that HURTS and how WRONG it is to claim that I caused you to do that. I spent a YEAR bringing you up while my mental stability was drained and I lost myself. Finally, I take a step to protect my own mental health and I'm "Selfish" and only "thinking about myself", as if I should forget that I am my own person like YOU DID. A relationship is separate people who love each other. I was at my lowest point that September, and I couldn't take it anymore. I held out as long as I could because I wanted to try to make things work, and I did what I could to make a future with us work out, but that idea got harder and harder to envision. Maybe that was my mistake, holding on as long as I did. I cared too much at the sake of my own mental health. 3 months later, you had the audacity of texting me. That message made me relive my mistake hundreds of times and made me hate myself for not leaving earlier when I had the chance. You asked how I was doing, and I tried to be nice and have a normal conversation. I found out later that you had broken up with the dude you dated right after I left you, the day you texted me. You seriously believed that I would get back with you after all the shit you PUT ME THROUGH. It was around this time that I developed an interest in another girl, but wasn't sure yet. Fast forward to just a few days ago and now we're planning on going out on a date and I wish you knew that I finally recovered. In the 5-month long process of finding happiness again and learning to love myself again, I found her and she is the gentle breeze of my beautiful Summer's day, as cliche as that sounds. I wasn't looking for a relationship, I don't need companionship, and I understand that in a relationship, there are two separate people and you cannot let them become an extension of yourself or things like what happened to me will happen. You were the opposite. You are scared of being alone, you want a person to be the solution to all of your problems, you don't retain your independence as a person. I fell in love with this girl naturally without trying. She cares, she is an angel, she also fell in love when she wasn't actively looking for a relationship. I've found someone who will treat me right. In the end, you've taught me a lot about love. You taught me what not to do, and what to avoid. Thanks for that.

In the end, with this final writing, I finally got out everything I've wanted to say to the person who brought me to my lowest point. They say that bottled up emotions only get worse, consider that bottle opened.

-Dusk.