If you have paid attention to most of my blog posts you probably know that I don't like my job the good news though is that I do have a solid plan for getting out of there which I have full faith in. I could simply get another job but as Big Macintosh would put it "nnnnnnooooope" that is not for me. If I got another job I would probably take a pay cut as I would be starting from the bottom would probably have to put up with the same BS again and might not have the same benefits at the other job that I have at my current one. I could also go back to school and I might take a few classes to simply to give myself something else to focus on other than stewing in the hellhole I call work but my grades have gone so far down the toilet because of Math kicking my butt and other responsibilities and not to mention tragedies I have had over the years that I am a little nervous about going back.

One of those responsibilities was to help take care of my sick father who was a dialysis patient which was especially difficult in his last year of life as his condition deteriorated quickly. The bottom line was his body couldn't take it anymore and he passed away last March, while it wasn't nearly as difficult to deal with as previous deaths I have had in the family in large part because I had years to prepare for it and I am glad he is no longer suffering I miss him more than I could ever put into words.

My exit strategy is to become an author which as my research has indicated is not easy, but I have a major ace in the hole. As I have mentioned in some of my blog posts and other posts on this forum I have a mild form of Autism but it wasn't always this mild. When I was first diagnosed at age 2 I lost what little language I had and didn't regaing it back until I was 5 and had severe behavioral problems and extreme sensitivities to certain sounds. To make a long story short years of therapies, interventions and an overall process of gradual mainstreaming into society have my condition to the point where most people cannot even tell I have Autism.

I may not be completely "cured" as my experiences in the checkstand have painfully reminded me of but I have advanced to the point where I am a relatively productive and successful adult yet I still feel like a failure a lot of times. Next Saturday the 19th is going to be my 27th birthday and for far too long I feel like I have let my life pass me by, being an angry bitter depressed adult constantly griping about how much his job and his life sucks is not how I imagined my life would be at this point. But though I have vented on here which has helped a little but if I spend the rest of my life feeling sorry for myself that all the hard work and sacrifice by both myself and my family to get to this point will all be for nothing.

I have originally intended my first book to be an autobiography but decided to save that for later in large part because my autobiography is going to be a trilogy and my research indicates that publishers are more reluctant to agree to publish a series if you are a new author. Why I decided to make it a trilogy is both because I have a lot to say and it would give me time to build up to the more recent years and be able to mention certain things that happened at work without having to worry about getting fired from a job I would no longer need.

My first book will be more like a self help book, it will detail my different opinions on all sorts of different subjects relating to Autism and will have advice gearing toward parents with Autistic children, teenagers and adults with Autism and everyone else. My brother has offered to help me edit it and my Mother suggested that she could maybe write a few things from her perspective and maybe get my aunt to say a few words too. It will serve its purpose of getting my foot in the door to write my autobiography and eventually allow me to break out into other subjects I am interested in writing about such as philosophy, politics or possibly fiction.

If this plan works and I have confidence that it will as I have done public speaking on the subject before and my speeches have been extremely popular, add to this all the connections my mother has from all of her years of activism in the Autism community and a relative in the movie industry (yeah really, no lie I pinkie promise) and my chances are pretty good. I will be able to help myself and others, it sounds pretty win win to me.