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I'm Not Feeling Any Better


EpicEnergy

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Right now I feel extremely lonely, worthless, and demotivated. It happens a lot whenever I'm not busy. And this is really a problem I need a solution to, the fact that no matter how busy I get and no matter how much time passes, I always feel depressed whenever I stop to take a breath. It's like staying busy is only masking my problems, not helping them. I'm also having other problems right now, I want to go back to college and find a career but I don't know which one to aim for. I thought it would be something about computers, but being honest I've lost my love for them. I no longer want to be a computer programmer because I can't find any motivation, love, enjoyment, and enthusiasm for it. I don't know if my depression is causing me to feel that way or not, but I do know that is how I've been feeling about computer programming. Because of this, I can't find any career to aim for and I can't find a reason to go back to college either. Some people have given me the advice that college isn't for me and I should just stick with the job I have, but the problem is that all the jobs I've worked and the job I'm working are jobs that I don't like and have no passion for. This leads me to the conclusion that there is nothing for me in life and it makes me feel talentless and worthless. I know it's not healthy to think that way, but I can't help it because it seems very true with the way things are going for me. And I don't know what to do with loneliness. No matter how many people I make friends with, it never goes away. I try to think positive, but thinking positive has the same results as staying busy - it only masks my problems instead of helping them. As for medication, they don't help. I've been on them for a long time, yet they are also only masking the problem instead of helping it. It's like everything in this hell of a world I live in does nothing to help, it's like I'm permanently stuck this way. Every day seems unproductive, and whenever I do something productive I feel miserable. I just wish I was nonexistent, that would not only help my problems, it would get rid of them entirely.

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Yo bro like you know dude when you in a pickle jar like you are man. There only one way out bro, you thinking your job is why or your education dude. Nah man it simple man you already know bro. Like bro when depressed you like don't feel interested or passionate dude. That's you know how it is bro. Pickle jar only one way out dude, got to open that path bro you see it you know it what you doing dude.

What I recommend dude is you get yourself on the computer and do a little programming my dude. Yo like do that and get into it you know. 

Then like follow your heart bro I know you know dude. You already said it dude school for you man don't be like doing something you not passionate dude. Bro I feel you dude like bro that's how I felt too yo. Yet you have to do this dude don't let your depression take your dreams dude. 

If I give you one advide my advice be yo do what you want dude. Like this your life bro, you go on your computer dude and program I am sure doing so you'll love it my dude.

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12 minutes ago, Fluttershyfan94 said:

Yo bro like you know dude when you in a pickle jar like you are man. There only one way out bro, you thinking your job is why or your education dude. Nah man it simple man you already know bro. Like bro when depressed you like don't feel interested or passionate dude. That's you know how it is bro. Pickle jar only one way out dude, got to open that path bro you see it you know it what you doing dude.

What I recommend dude is you get yourself on the computer and do a little programming my dude. Yo like do that and get into it you know. 

Then like follow your heart bro I know you know dude. You already said it dude school for you man don't be like doing something you not passionate dude. Bro I feel you dude like bro that's how I felt too yo. Yet you have to do this dude don't let your depression take your dreams dude. 

If I give you one advide my advice be yo do what you want dude. Like this your life bro, you go on your computer dude and program I am sure doing so you'll love it my dude.

That's a lot of 'bro' and 'dude' you just said! ^_^

Anyways, thanks for the advice, I'll try to follow my heart.

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6 minutes ago, ElectricEnergy said:

That's a lot of 'bro' and 'dude' you just said! ^_^

Anyways, thanks for the advice, I'll try to follow my heart.

Bro is a long text dude so like you know dude. Though yeah dude, I was like you bro didn't really follow my heart bro. Like if you don't dude like yeah other people may like that choice bro. Yet like will you dude.

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You're just in a rut, don't worry, I've been through plenty of them. This has been a hard year for everyone, but we're all here for you! :kindness:

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How long have you been this way?

Because my Mom once told me that if you're alone with yourself too long, it's easy to get depressed. Like, literal depression like the one you're talking about.

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2 hours ago, CloudMistDragon said:

You're just in a rut, don't worry, I've been through plenty of them. This has been a hard year for everyone, but we're all here for you! :kindness:

Thanks, and it seems like I've been in a rut for a few years now. I just want to get out of it.

42 minutes ago, Emerald Heart said:

How long have you been this way?

Because my Mom once told me that if you're alone with yourself too long, it's easy to get depressed. Like, literal depression like the one you're talking about.

I've been this way for about two and a half years now.

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In a small way I understand how taking a break feels unproductive and useless. The problem with this is that you eventually feel you have to work more and more and more and you start to burn out. Once you start to burn out you start to feel bad because you really want a break but you feel like it’s a waste of time.

I really believe taking breaks now and then would really ease your mind if you let them. Allow yourself to have a bit of peace and quiet every now and then. It gives your mind a chance to think more rationally if it doesn’t have a million other thoughts swirling around.

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I really want to give advice, but I'm honestly going through similar problems right now. Sure I might seem all cheery on forums, but it's kinda of a front I put on to hide how depressed I really feel.

I probably feel 80% of what you said in the blog too. Talentless, feeling like a waste-of-time, loneliness, demotivated. Maybe I might not feel them as deeply as you do, but I am in a similar boat to you.

I know that this probably doesn;t make you feel better, but I'm just saying, you are not alone. There's many people out there.

Most of all, don;t take your life or hurt yourself over this please. :( Like I feel terrible but I have never considered doing those things, since I'm more scared of being hurt than anything else.

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19 hours ago, ExplosionMare said:

In a small way I understand how taking a break feels unproductive and useless. The problem with this is that you eventually feel you have to work more and more and more and you start to burn out. Once you start to burn out you start to feel bad because you really want a break but you feel like it’s a waste of time.

I really believe taking breaks now and then would really ease your mind if you let them. Allow yourself to have a bit of peace and quiet every now and then. It gives your mind a chance to think more rationally if it doesn’t have a million other thoughts swirling around.

Thanks for the advice, I'll try to apply it to my life.

2 hours ago, Princess of Luck 🍀🔥 said:

I really want to give advice, but I'm honestly going through similar problems right now. Sure I might seem all cheery on forums, but it's kinda of a front I put on to hide how depressed I really feel.

I probably feel 80% of what you said in the blog too. Talentless, feeling like a waste-of-time, loneliness, demotivated. Maybe I might not feel them as deeply as you do, but I am in a similar boat to you.

I know that this probably doesn;t make you feel better, but I'm just saying, you are not alone. There's many people out there.

Most of all, don;t take your life or hurt yourself over this please. :( Like I feel terrible but I have never considered doing those things, since I'm more scared of being hurt than anything else.

It makes me feel a little better knowing that I'm not alone in this. And I hope you feel better, because feeling this way is terrible.

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20 minutes ago, ElectricEnergy said:

Thanks for the advice, I'll try to apply it to my life.

It makes me feel a little better knowing that I'm not alone in this. And I hope you feel better, because feeling this way is terrible.

I am the same as @Princess of Luck 🍀🔥, in that I cannot understand the will to hurt myself. Mostly because I am too scared of doing so. And I have seen some scary things in my life, which might be out of scale to what we talk about on an emotional level.

I remember hurting myself once to get a point across, but I regretted it badly. It hurt, and it didn't change anything for the better of for the worse. I have never felt more ashamed, not for myself, but for the people around me that I tried to reach in such a stupid way.

 

I also understand you situation @ElectricEnergy, as I read your topic in Life Advice, but I couldn't respond. The religious part of your life is very strong, and nothing I will say can change that. I can only say that you are with us for a reason. You are here with me, and the rest of the people at the forum, and we all enjoy your company! We want to keep seeing you here!

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On 5/27/2020 at 6:22 PM, Splashee said:

I also understand you situation @ElectricEnergy, as I read your topic in Life Advice, but I couldn't respond. The religious part of your life is very strong, and nothing I will say can change that. I can only say that you are with us for a reason. You are here with me, and the rest of the people at the forum, and we all enjoy your company! We want to keep seeing you here!

Thank you. :D I enjoy being here on the forums, it's a very nice place! :grin:

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