great, life lesson to learn, but you are special  we all are in our own way, but some more then others, it's easy to feel like your not 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=meFeQBp3ZqM

But I'm not special. I don't deserve special treatment. I'm a human being, like everyone else. I need to man up and face it.

Many need to learn this in particular.

However, one also must be wary not to stray too far, else thy will develop a self-deprecation habit; moderation is key.

It is okay to be dependant, sometimes, mind you; after all, you, as stated in your own words, are human. Perfection is inevitably unachievable, though this type of behaviour is "unacceptable" (note how this is opinionated, of course):

 I've tried to pretend to be sad to get attention I thought I needed.

Another thing I wish to say would be, seeking attention through means of stated is going against the cause. One who is much simpler, more positive and independent, yet not unsocial, will receive a great deal of attention in comparison to the prior. 

Also, this attention will be much better attention, as it will not be a borderline form of "pity." I'm uncertain about you, but I loathe pity.

Anyway (I've rambled), good job. This is a step forward, for you. Continue improving yourself, and a chain reaction of good fortune will present itself.

btw

>inb4 u changed the entry lel

You took my words away.

Good to hear kid, you're learning.

Well, glad you finally realized

"Life is about learning from mistakes" one of the greater truths out there, considering how much of a bastard life is. In the end, having the initiative to make the choices you want happening is one of the greatest traits one can possess. And it seems that you are gaining it. That's very good =)

Also... what happens to our moods... our emotions... usually CAN end up saving us. And it's simple why. Because they give us something to learn about that can be more helpful than depression, for example, was horrible. It's not about trying to block one's own sides. It's about knowing how to handle them and learn from them to make a life better overall, I believe.

Woop woop!