I have many talents: Drawing, Singing, Playing Video-Games, Absorbing Knowledge.

And I'm the middle child in my family! Yay! The only reason I can see that I ever got any attention is because I'm the only girl out of 3!

But there is a minor problem... My younger brother gets nearly straight A's while I seem to struggle to pass at all. I live in his shadow. He's not even trying and getting A's, whilst I work my little ass off to pass my subjects! He's going to get a letter from the principal which apparently looks amazing on a resume, not to mention he got student of the term earlier this year. The little show off...

Mum and dad just talked about marks and stuff, and apparently they're amazed at his marks, and less than happy about mine... They only have my younger brother's marks to compare to mine. My teachers think I could do so much better, but I really do need help with a lot of work and stress...

It's hard for me to be motivated, because I know I'm never going to be as brilliant as my younger brother. I know my parents and teachers will always be disappointed in my marks. They complain my marks are all over the place and inconsitent, but there is a pattern! I have showcased my ability to learn knowledge, and my co-ordination is alright, but when it comes to analysing, evaluating and deciding, I struggle. Unless there's been an example given to me, in an Auditory fashion, I'm going to struggle. I've started struggling in more and more areas.

People think I'm not trying, and I guess that's partly true, but it's not for laziness, but being unmotivated. People have ridiculed me for chasing my dreams, with 2 possible outcomes: I become a YouTuber, particularly a Let's Player, or I become part of a game dev team! To everyone, they look at me and think I have wasted potential. They see my drawings, they hear my singing, they look at my exam marks and test my knowledge. They stare at me and think, "Why are you doing this to yourself?"

I laugh, I smile, and I want to bring smiles to other people's faces any way I can, but I'm shy, easily scared and I don't like crowds. Which is why working on YouTube (where I can work from home and not have to deal with performing in front of a crowd IRL) or developing games in a small team (Allowing myself to become invested in creating something I love) is perfect. I have many talents, but I only have a one passion. Video-games.

You'd wonder why I draw Pokemon and Minecraft all the time. In fact, other than cats, marine animals, ponies, Zelda and real life, that's all I draw. And I'll tend to combine these, so I draw IRL minecraft or minecraft cats, or minecraft ponies or IRL ponies... Or MC Zelda, or Zelda ponies... Drawing is my hobby, it's what I do to relax okay? It's really good when I can go down the park or the beach and chill there.

My ideal relaxing day:

Take my pencil case, drawing book, a bottle of water and whatever money I've got, chill down the beach or in the park and just draw. If I had an ipod I'd take that with me and listen to music, and when I got bored I might get myself a bubble blower and I'd watch them float by. If I could, I'd watch the sun set before packing up and walking home to watch YouTube. But I wouldn't be sitting still all day, no! I might take a ball with me and toss that around a bit. I might make a sand castle (or dig a small hole).

Does that not sound like an amazing day? It's the only thing I love to do other than play video-games, and it's much more relaxing! If I was on YouTube, I might vlog on days when I'm not making gaming vids. Take my camera down the beach and show everyone how amazing it is to be me. I'd sing songs, I'd draw, I'd game, I'd live doing what I love.

And that's what I really want.