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I tried to put this in a video, but it didn't work.

 

I have been thinking about this for a month now and just had my decision reaffirmed by a reality check with someone who cares for me.

 

I have been having a rough time lately, as you've probably seen form my status updates, with my depression. I am having to reevaluate who I am, who I want to be, and who I am becoming. This is not as easy to do as it sounds. I am used to not having to do things myself and suddenly, now that I've graduated, I have to do many new things on my own. The problem? I never feel that I have time to properly address these problems on any day.

I've thought about it for a month now and come to the conclusion that I have taken all of my time and devoted it to this website, among others.

My daily routine consists of:

wake up

get on computer

go to work (if applicable)

go to bed

 

Notice how there is no "eat lunch" or "take morning shower" in there. I didn't leave them out because they are unsaid routines. I left them out because they are literally not a part of my daily routine anymore. Yes. It is absolutely disgusting. I know.

I am, by no means, blaming Feld0, the Forums, or the internet in general for this. I am the only one who had any say in whether this became this way or not. I can only blame myself, and only I can fix it.

I need to figure out what is really a priority now in my life. And it isn't an MLP forum that I joined to sate my boredom in a computer class during my Junior year of high school.

 

I am not leaving the forums for good, not right now anyways, but I am going to cut my time on here down from 6-12 hours a day, to around 1-2 hours in the evening. This means, for some of you, that I won't be seen or heard from anymore. I'm sorry, but I have to be selfish here.

 

I love this website, but it can't be my life anymore.

 

comment all your grief/hate on here. My decision is made. If I trusted you enough to add you on Skype, then you may contact me there. Please don't use Steam to contact me.

 

 

Red

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I understand, sometimes things get busy and you've gotta do what you gotta do.

 

Hopefully i'll stil see you occasionally, but regardless I wish you good luck in life and the such and with your depression, your a great dude red.

 

Again I understand, and hope to see you around even if you won't be on as often. but if not, it was a pleasure.

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Red we may not know each other very well but I wish you the best of luck in life and hope that everything works out for you.

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I understand and hope you the best of luck in life.

 

Red we may not know each other very well but I wish you the best of luck in life and hope that everything works out for you.

Also this.

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Hope everything works out smoothly for you and I hope whenever you're on we can get to know each other a little bit more. Good luck.

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At least you don't totally leave.

 

I understand the situation. This website sucks a lot of my time, and I feel like I will need to get out of here when I start working around September. I also haven't studied and worked on my project as much as I usually did when new episodes were still around. Ponies and this website were a good mental support that time, and still we're having no pony at the moment... yeah.

 

Hope to see you again, mate, and hope to hear some good news about your life journey.

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I get what you mean, I've been spending pretty much all my time on here. It's probably not a good thing, but I don't really have anything else to do all summer :/

 

Well, at least you will still be around :)

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I bear you no hate. Depression is a hard thing to deal with, and I hope everything works out for yout.

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'ts good to see that you're taking control of things and trying to put everything in place.  Hope it all works out for you in the end ;)~

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I barely know you but I hope you have a good time with clearing your head.  Depression can be a difficult thing for most people to manage and I wish you well on getting more control over it.  Taking those first steps on re-evaluating yourself can sometimes be a bit disorientating but there's a bunch of good people on here that want to help you, should you need it.  Best of luck!

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No hate or grief from me, infact I totally respect you, you clearly think you have a problem and you are actually taking steps to fix it. Good for you. Goodluck, hope it all works out for you.

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Ouch man, either way, we all got our problems.

 

I understand what you mean, I went through a phase like this before, but I managed to overcome it, and I hope the best for you too dude.

 

All in all, luck may not be something everyone agrees, but I do wish life takes it towards your good sides bud.

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