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Why I hate stress and how it just helped me? What?


Skye Starlight

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So, I hate all the stresses in my life. Particularly, the ones which really shouldn't be there... Like my family, not allowing me space for myself, pressuring me to get high marks in school, not letting me be me... No, seriously. I can't sing without being yelled at, I can't proudly show my drawings (which I've been getting better and better at) without being shot down. Maybe if they weren't so negative I might be doing better! I'd have a better mindset- Full of determination and enthusiam for my schoolwork, rather than unmotivated and ashamed.

 

I know I could be worse off. One of my friend's mother tried to kill her as a baby. She now has to do most of the chores around her house and doesn't have a mother to support her. I have two loving parents who are on good enough terms to ship me back and forth between them for holidays. My life seems so blessed, but I still wish I had a different family.

 

Why? Because my brother doesn't care about me at all. My mum has been dumping her stress on me.

:angry:

Oh, but it doesn't stop there. I have senior year to deal with. I need to get a prom dress and work on my schoolwork. I didn't even know what I was going to do at the start of the year!

:blink:

I'm so stressed, I've had to find ways to destress before it gets too much! Drawing helps, singing helps... I need to have fun to destress. But, remember, my family won't let me do that... Look, there's my problem! I just need to have fun, but I'm kept back by my family! Well... I shouldn't say that... It's not entirely true. But I do need to find a place away from my family to relax, and I don't have that luxury.

:(

So, how did this all just help me?

As normal, I came home from school... Well, I say that, but today was the first day of practice tests for possibly the most important set of tests any Queensland student has to take, QCS. It not only affects me, but my classes and my entire school. And it's taken so seriously. They tried to pressure us to "do our best" but many, many students can't because the stress drained them. Apparently, once, one of the brightest students in the year level threw up multiple times just from stress. Me? I just treated it like any other exam, and with the fact that it was a practice, I kept my calm and did my best. I don't do well under pressure, but I do try. So I felt quite happy with how I went, figuring out that I need to be relaxed. I'm going to translate that to my schoolwork now...

:yay:

Well, we finished earlier than school normally would, and they sent us all home. So I got home and got to spend a good hour alone. Being one of the few moments of privacy I'll ever get, I sang. Oh, how amazing it was to sing! And then I hopped on my computer and watched YouTube for half an hour... And then my younger brother got home, and he just started irritating me. He demanded to know when he was going to be able to get on. And then my mother got home, and her boyfriend. It's not awkward because I'm not interested in having a relationship at the moment, and she's happier with him around... Normally... Except, lately that's been causing her more stress... Which she's been dumping on me...

 

So what do I do? I decide I'm going to play Spirit Tracks... You know, the thing that was distracting me not long ago? Having finished it once, I jumped into a new game a few weeks ago... And promptly found myself not brave enough to get past a certain point... Until now... I used that stress and frustration and turned it into determination. And I did it. Now, to get the last 3 rabbits and defeat the boss... No, seriously, that's where I'm up to!

B)

Note: I am really, really scared in every-day life... Afraid of so many things, I appear outwardly serious and detached. However, if you manage to strike up a conversation with about something I'm interested in, you'll find a much brighter, carefree center. This center is what many of you would have seen of me. I drop the act online. You guys have seen the real me, and I'm comfortable here. I don't think I'm ever going to leave because I feel so much better here than I do anywhere IRL. Except maybe chilling in a park on a sunny spring day drawing. It's my thing.

:catface:

Ah, how the joys of life can be...

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I've been trying to guess what game you have been playing based on that description of 3 bunnies..... and... I got nothing! LOL. Care to tell me what it is?

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I've been trying to guess what game you have been playing based on that description of 3 bunnies..... and... I got nothing! LOL. Care to tell me what it is?

Spirit Tracks... I actually mentioned it was the game before...

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Oh sorry I missed that. my bad.

No worries.

Also, I'm down to the last rabbit. I just need to find it, catch it, and bring it to the creepy rabbit dude. Then I get sword beams!

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