I’m back. Well, back to my old display name, that is. Being my ponysona became a bit boring, to be honest.

I actually wanted to take a longer break from the forums. Might still happen, don’t know yet, but I’ll try to stay.

Why did I want to take a break? Well, let’s say that letting the ponies into my life just to realize that all the good things they display - friendship, goals, happiness - are actually things I don’t have in my life and even fail to find is… quite discouraging. But for now I’m okay with that. I think. Some people are probably not made for that. But not necessarily.

The following weeks will be quite the change for me. I’ll quit my study course, I’ll find help in order to find what I now realized I miss. There are more reasons I’ll do that, but I actually don’t want to bother everyone with that. Sometimes I won’t be online for a day or two perhaps. Sometimes I’ll force myself to stay away from here, so I can’t vent and rant where it‘s not appropriated.

So while I’ll change my life outside of the internet, I also want to change it here. You know how many posts I made in the past few weeks? No? Good, I don’t as well. Instead of posting, I often don’t do anything or even spread gloom. And the latter is far worse than doing nothing. Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite for that one post I made in the “Of Mods and Men” thread. So what can I do to actually stand for what I say?

Well, even though I think that New Year’s resolutions are usually pointless - call me a pessimist, but I’ve never seen them working and once a professor at university even confirmed that; The concept of self fulfilling prophecy seems to not apply to them that much - I’ll now make one anyways. Or something like that.

I promise, even though it will be something that’s actually very difficult for me, that I’ll try to be not just a more active member of the forums, but also a better one.

Hmmm… feels kind of awkward…

Nah, whatever!

So… It’s still the first day of the new year. And that means I can still say the usual words for that occasion without being too late.

Cheers! Happy New Year everyone! It shall be a good one for all of you!

~S.T.O~