Blinking rapiidly holding back the tears, the anger the regret, and fear.

Never again will I do this I am sorry to make you cry.

One last time to shed the hate to be rid of all of the loathing and self hate.

Crying red tears, I realease all of my fears

It is gone, all gone, and I will have rejoined you once more by your side where I belong.

I am coming home, I didn't mean to leave you all alone.

But cry no more your baby girly is hear once more.

I won't leave you this time, I will join you forever this time.

To the one who caused this pain, I really hope you are happy and can live with yourself.. I know I couldn't

Yes this talks about death. Yes this means death. Yes I want to die.. Just do yourself a favor and don't respond to this. It's not cry for help. I am not going to go kill myself, I want to I really do but I dealt with those demons long ago. I find writing to be a better alternative. So yes, this is purely an outlet... Now I am going to go and distract myself before some self ritous ass hole decides to comment and I do off my self becuase you know what??? I am going to find all of you ass holes, and before I die I am going to slit your throat and make you choke on your words that hurt so many people. How dare you push someone so low! How dare you.. If I find you, run.