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Celestial Spheres by Obscura.

My biggest fear is demons. I don't even think they're real, at least not in the Christian understanding of what they are. But even just the idea of them terrifies me. What scares me the most is the whole idea of demonic possession. Logically, do I really think something like that could ever happen to me? No, not really. But the fear is still there. I've tried watching horror movies to make myself less scared of these sorts of things. I'm not sure whether or not that worked at all. I've seen several horror movies, and this stuff still scares me. But, I am nowhere near as easily frightened as I was 3 years ago - but I'm not sure if that's from watching horror movies, or just from becoming more emotionally mature in general. I almost feel like my fear of demons might be a phobia, or at least bordering on one. You see, I saw a movie when I was 15 that I don't even want to name that terrified me more than anything else I have ever seen. It was a new movie about demonic possession, and it took place in the Vatican (or at least it looked like it did). I know it wasn't real, but it was just so realistic. Now, I can't look at pictures of the Vatican, or think of the Vatican, without the terror I felt when I saw that movie a year ago start to rise up in me again. I even get scared when I see a priest in a black outfit, since some of the priests in the movie wore black outfits. I was watching the news some months ago and a segment about the Vatican came on, and I felt like I was going to have a panic attack. Even just typing this right now, I feel like I'm going to have some kind of panic attack. I know I won't, because I've had a real panic attack before, and I don't feel anywhere near as stressed or freaked out as I did then. But I still feel like I'm on the road to having one by thinking about this stuff. If anyone can give me advice about how to overcome this irrational fear, I'd appreciate it.

I don't remember my dreams as often as I would like to. It seems though that usually when I do remember them, they're nightmares. I've decided today that I'm going to start learning how to lucid dream, and the first step is learning how to remember your dreams. You can do that by keeping a dream journal. I've had success with using a dream journal to remember my dreams way more in the past, so I'm going to start doing that again. I'll describe some dreams I've had in the past several months. Some of them are graphic, which I still don't really understand, because I'm not angry, violent, or depressed in real life. Some of them are too graphic or inappropriate for me to share here, and some of the ones that I do share I will probably need to censor somewhat. Still, if you think you would be offended by descriptions of violent/disturbing/graphic content, and sexual content, you shouldn't read this post. I will put a disclaimer by any dream that is especially inappropriate. "Mature content" dreams aren't graphic, but involve disturbing and/or violent content to a higher degree. "Graphic content" dreams are graphically violent or sexual in nature, but to keep this post within the rules of the forum I won't be describing anything too explicitly. If anyone can offer possible interpretations of any of these dreams, I'd greatly appreciate it. Ghosts and Death / Forest Adventure Into Nothingness / Murderer / Tortured Captive [graphic content] A Demonic Entity vs. My Inner Light / Demonic Woman Hidden In Darkness World War II In My House [mature content] Attacked By Hitler [mature content] Robot Sex [graphic content] Attacked By A Demonic Entity / Refuge In A Store [graphic content] Disgusting Evil [mature content] Meeting Internet Friends In Real Life If anyone could provide insight as to even just what one of these dreams might mean, I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks. Just to reiterate, despite the fact that most of these dreams that I've listed are disturbing and/or violent to different degrees, I am not violent, depressed, or angry in real life. So, I'm not sure what causes these dreams, but my guess is stress. Also, I do remember other dreams that were not as violent, but I've already written all of these, and I don't feel like typing a whole lot more right now.

That's awesome. I really love that paragraph you wrote, it is absolutely beautiful. Is your full fan fiction online? If so, I would love to read all of it. Could you please give me the link to it? Thanks.

I often get really into a song's lyrics, so I can't choose a particular favorite. I'll just post a few songs. Aevum by Obscura (technical death metal) Ocean Gateways by Obscura (technical death metal) Euclidean Elements by Obscura (technical death metal) Elusive Reaches by Ensiferum (melodic/heroic death metal) Mourning Tree by Leaves' Eyes (symphonic metal) Storytime by Nightwish (symphonic metal) Song of Myself by Nightwish (symphonic metal) The Poet and the Pendulum by Nightwish (symphonic metal) Pristine by Delain (gothic/symphonic metal) Choir of Spirits by Obscura (technical death metal)

I have, several times. A friend of mine went through a phase a year or two ago where he wanted to play Monopoly like, constantly. So, he'd invite me and a few other of our friends over on a somewhat regular basis to play Monopoly together. I also used to play it at my grandma's apartment sometimes.

I'm not quite sure, but here are some ideas I can come up with at the moment. What I would possibly name my children if I have them someday (I hope I do) is not limited to the following lists. Boy: John, James, Jacob, Richard, Matthew, Mark, or Luke. Girl: Crystal, Autumn, or Grace.

They're usually only fun for me if I'm playing them with friends. For me, scaring myself when I'm alone isn't a whole lot of fun, but it can be pretty fun when I'm with a friend or two. I wouldn't want to do that a lot, though.

Vortex Omnivium by Obscura, from their album Omnivium.

1. I've been doing taekwondo for 9-10 years, and am currently a 3rd degree black belt. 2. I'm 16. 3. I'm going into 11th grade. 4. I'm right handed. 5. I love the rain, storms, and just water in general. 6. I love fantasy novels. 7. I like certain kinds of melodic death metal and symphonic metal. 8. I can be shy, but I'm less shy around people I know better. 9. I want to study mathematics in college, and possibly English, philosophy, and computer science as well. 10. My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic is my favorite TV show by far - in fact, it's my favorite thing out of any kind of media.

I don't identify myself using any one thing, such as religion or a fandom. We are all complex, multifaceted beings. I am not religious, but I do have spiritual beliefs that do not adhere to any particular religion. The positive messages in My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic are a part of that, but I certainly do not treat the show, or the fandom, like a religion.

"Far beyond the dark stream we'll meet again. Across the wilderness and we will be home. Gather your strength, don't be afraid. Far beyond the dark stream, we'll meet again." —The Longest Journey (Heathen Throne Part II) by Ensiferum, from their album From Afar "The longest journey of them all, Has to be made all alone A flame in the skyline reaching the stars Guiding the seeker through the night!" —The Longest Journey (Heathen Throne Part II) by Ensiferum, from their album From Afar "Once upon a night we'll wake to the carnival of life the beauty of this ride ahead such an incredible high It's hard to light a candle, easy to curse the dark instead This moment the dawn of humanity The last ride of the day" —Last Ride of The Day by Nightwish, from their album Imaginaerum "Beyond all mortality we are, swinging in the breath of nature In early air of the dawn of life A sight to silence the heavens" —Song of Myself by Nightwish, from their album Imaginaerum "Imaginarium, a dream emporium! Caress the tales And they will dream you real A storyteller's game, Lips that intoxicate The core of all life Is a limitless chest of tales..." —Storytime by Nightwish, from their album Imaginaerum "The flowers of wonder and the hidden treasures, In the meadow of life, my acre of Heaven. A five-year-old winter heart in a place called home Sailing the waves of past." —Meadows of Heaven by Nightwish, from their album Dark Passion Play "Open the dawn Behold the purest form The essence unfolds The chain of strength you held As a distant dream I hover I call all the stars As a distant dream I hover Call all stars to fall for cover" —Pristine by Delain, from their album Lucidity "[Part 5: Mother And Father] Be still, my son You`re home Oh when did you become so cold? The blade will keep on descending All you need is to feel my love Search for beauty, find your shore Try to save them all, bleed no more You have such oceans within In the end, I will always love you The beginning." —The Poet and the Pendulum by Nightwish, from their album Dark Passion Play "I can't deny what I've seen So towards the great unknown I must keep going on" —Passion, Proof, Power by Ensiferum, from their album Unsung Heroes "Unbreakable Stands through time Dwells the proof of life Eternal Earth of mine" —Passion, Proof, Power by Ensiferum, from their album Unsung Heroes "Cleanse our souls No good thoughts shall burn Engulf the passion of life Eternal Fire of mine" —Passion, Proof, Power by Ensiferum, from their album Unsung Heroes "I only have just one more wish That this torch will be passed onto someone sentient like you When your time comes, don't lose your heart Have faith and patience and trust in the flame before passing it onto someone new" —Passion, Proof, Power by Ensiferum, from their album Unsung Heroes

You got me there.

A barber (who is a man) shaves all and only those men who do not shave themselves. Does he shave himself?

I never change my username, ever, and I doubt I ever will. As for how often I change my avatar, that varies. Sometimes I get in this huge enthusiastic mood about changing my avatar, and other times I don't think about it at all. But, generally, I probably change my avatar at least once every 1-3 months.

The Longest Journey by Ensiferum, from their album From Afar. https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=qVeqhrk8EKo

My favorite classes in school are mathematics classes. My least favorite classes were foreign language classes. I still enjoyed them, just not as much as other classes. P.E. could be a pain sometimes, but other times it was really fun. Plus, my 9th grade P.E. experience was beyond fantastic. I love the teacher I had for that class so much. He was wise, intelligent, and kind. He didn't just teach us physical activities, he incorporated mental development into his class by helping to prepare us for the adult world. He is a wonderful guy, and a great influence in my life. I am honored to have been a student under him. I need to take one more P.E. credit in order to graduate, which I'll be doing in 12th grade. I took a break from P.E. in 10th grade, and I'll be doing that in 11th grade now as well.

I'm glad you enjoyed Chemistry. At my school there are only two calculus classes: AP Calculus AB, and AP Calculus BC. They require us to take AB before BC, so I plan to take BC in 12th grade. I love mathematics, though. In fact, I plan to major in it. So, for me, these classes are things to look forward to.

I've been learning taekwondo as part of the American Taekwondo Association for about 9-10 years. I reached the rank of 3rd degree black belt in April 2011, which is the highest rank a minor is allowed to reach. I hope to test for my 4th degree black belt in about 2-3 years from now. While I am turning 18 next year, it will take longer than that for me to complete the rest of my midterm testings, as well as fulfilling all of the requirements, and just feeling that I am truly ready for 4th degree black belt. I love taekwondo, and I plan to continue learning it throughout the rest of my life. I will also teach it one day, too. I may also consider learning other martial arts someday in addition to taekwondo, such as krav maga, judo, and jiu jitsu.

So far, my favorite high school science class is Advanced Physics, and my favorite high school math class is Pre-Calculus. I'm going into 11th grade next month, and I'll be taking Regular Chemistry, AP Calculus AB, and AP Statistics for my math and science classes. I'm not sure whether or not I'll enjoy chemistry class more than physics class, but I know I'll enjoy AP Calculus AB more than any other math class I have taken so far.

I can totally empathize with feeling like people are judging me at every angle. I get more confident as I get older though. A recent example would be how nervous I can feel when volunteering at a certain place. I often feel a stress/tension in my muscles when I do things, because I'm so scared of doing something stupid that would make people laugh at me or judge me. On the other hand, I'm starting to learn how to not worry so much about this stuff anymore through these experiences. Volunteering in a public setting was way, way out of my comfort zone, but I've come to really love it, and the more I do it, the less frightening it becomes, which in turn gradually increases my self-confidence overall over time.

I had an imaginary friend named Wabouwb about 8 years ago when I was in 3rd grade. The b in Wabouwb is silent. I don't remember whether or not I actually "interacted" with him a whole lot, but I do remember telling other people about him. I remember sitting at a table with some other kids and telling them about my imaginary friend named Wabouwb that lived in my kitchen ceiling. My dad tells me a funny story involving Wabouwb that I don't have a clear memory of. He said that me and other kids in 3rd grade were talking about Wabouwb so much that the teacher said that if she heard one more "Wabouwb," then there wouldn't be any recess.

lol, I don't know what half of those exercises are. I mainly exercise by doing taekwondo, and by taking some walks. I would like to incorporate some more exercise into my life though. Now I can just check this thread for ideas