I know. If it's any consolation, my detachment is what keeps me coming here. I've become less of a brony with time. I'm more of a wayward defense attorney and advocate for the fandom as things stand now.
For what it's worth, I've been through some rough times this year as well. It sucks that you won't be on as much as you once did, but hopefully we will all still see each other from time to time.