Have you ever been so inspired, so filled with a light, that, even with your great knowledge of your language, and having the internet to give ANY kind of synonym, you were still unable to muster the words to describe just how you felt? That there was just so much to say, but no words that would be able to capture and convey the true emotions that you experienced?
It can come from anywhere, from anything, or from anyone. However, I am writing this entry in an attempt to draw out this "light" that has been lit inside me. In all honesty, it kind of hurts that I can't make this intent I feel tangible in such a way that others could feel.
I guess, I should start on why and how I feel this way.
It all started when I heard this song from a PMV BronyDanceParty had done.
This song has one of the strongest melodies I've heard in a long time, and the lyrics only add to the somber, yet uplifting tone of the song. After finishing the video, I quickly headed over to youtube (was watching the PMV on MLB as someone had posted the vid there) and went to my history to find out the name of the video and looked it up.
When I found the original masterpiece, and read the lyrics along with the song, every bit of emotion flowed throughout my body (would be lying if I said I didn't cry a bit quite a good amount). It was a feeling I hadn't felt in such a long time. The only other experience that I could relate to this would be when I had listened to My Little Dashie and the Sequel, but even that was, sort of, different.
The lyrics to this song were so straightforward. There was no incredibly cryptic message encoded throughout its verses and choruses. Everything the author had intended to be felt and learned in this song was on the surface, and I was seeing every bit of it.
To say this song changed me would actually be a bit of a debatable subject. After listening it constantly for a couple hours, I felt incredibly inspired and enlightened. But I had no outlet for what I had been feeling. There was nothing that my mind could come up with to let the emotions flow and spread out to others. I WANTED to help others, help spread this message, but...at the same time...it wasn't what I truly wanted.
I think the only thing, at this point, that would come close to showing how I felt then (and still feel now), would be simply to give a soft hug to someone. Not like the ones two bros would give, but sort of like ones that two people who like or enjoy each others company would give, one full of emotion and serenity.
Even as I write this, I am still listening to this song, and it's feeling has not changed in the slightest. I still feel the sadness that is conveyed (not only from the story, but also the fact that I read the FanFic that was inspired from this story and it ALSO had quite a hold on me as well), as well as the inspirational/enlightening warmth that just emulates from my headphones as they release the beautiful notes.
Isn't it wonderful what somethings can do to someone? Make them incapable of properly explaining themselves, and end up just babbling on and, to them, the message still isn't conveyed? *sigh*
I'll just end this with a quote from the song;
"Isn't it great to be different?
Isn't it wonderful to be exactly who you are?
When you learn to start accepting yourself,
You'll become a Shining Star."
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