I didn't want to have to do this but I just can't be here anymore. This site has been like a second home to me and I've loved it here. But I really need to leave now. I've made way too many enemies on here to stay. And now my being here is just a constant reminder of all the stress, pain and misery I've been through on this site.
I've joined this site and tried to just be myself. And at first I thought I had finally found a forum that understood me and where everyone was like one big happy family and I wouldn't be judged. But no one here understands me. And every attempt I've made at trying to make peace and come to an understanding with those I've unintentionally hurt or offended has all been for naught.
Everyone thinks that I'm either a jerk or just a drama bitch who just wants people to feel sorry for me and that I just like to guilttrip people because I have nothing better to do with my time.
Nobody believes the real truth about me...Nobody knows or can see that I'm just a sad, lonely, desperate, broken man who just needs and wants friends, love and a family...And nobody knows how much happier and nicer and easier to get along with I'd be if I just had those things...
And besides my Asperger's, Another reason I can come off as a jerk and have a tendency to lash out at people is because of my cold black broken heart...And that's the truth. I am an extremely emotionally disturbed person who just wants to be loved and accepted...
And not only that but I have no freedom of speech here at all. If I say anything bad at all about some character or franchise I'll get jumped on and ganged up on by a bunch of people.
And the mods on here will often perceive what I do as Abusive Behavior.
I seriously don't understand at all why there's so much hypocrisy on here...because despite it being encouraged on here to be respectful and accept others for who they are that apparently doesn't apply to me...I'm not accepted at all for who I am...
But I think the most infuriating thing of all is how I'm constantly accused of guilttripping. Apparently I can't even complain about it or say anything about it when someone's wronged me or it's guilttripping because no one ever wants to admit they're wrong and/or apologize to me and all think that I don't have the right to get upset...I have gotten a few apologies on this site from people who wronged me but they all turned out to be fake...
And even despite my admittedly unorthodox points of view on certain subjects and different eccentric behavior because of my Asperger's, I still get judged and criticized by people. So I think it would be for the best if I just leave.
If anyone wants to talk I'll be on Skype:
prince.max101
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