~StatesTheOblivious~

I´m sure it is not... you just have to overcome your personal issues :c.

Is there maybe a possibility for you to make a praktikum or something fo that kind (something in a direction that would count in your studies, to not have that much pressure and just do something)

Perhaps... I don't want to take a traineeship that another person might need more and I can't take that kind of an offer and say "I'm actually just doing this to overcome my lack in motivation, but I can't ensure you that I'll be productive." I'd be that honest...

That is exactly that kinda attitude you gotta get rid of...

If you have a problem, take it seriously, and don`t be humble about it, like: others have bigger problems.