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Misty Rose

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  1. Awwh, thank you :)

     

     

     

    There must be at least one thing that makes you happy or less depressed or something though...There should at least :/ be something that gives you some distraction. Is there?

     

    I would say the videos I watch on my phone, but my family always zaps the fun out of my phone time :( I have no peace or happiness -_- So yeah there's nothing :( Not even hearing the Smile song every morning as my alarm helps me crack a smile -_-

  2. Happiness isn't something that's just going to be handed to you.  If you focus squarely and solely on the negative, you empower and magnify it.  It's all the more difficult to overcome an obstacle when you're aiding in its construction.  Make an effort to be happy.  To appreciate the good things in your life.  If you once were happy (and life, for most of us, is a nonstop roller coaster ride of ups and downs), you can be happy again.  You're only working against yourself right now.  No amount of self-pity will guide you to a better tomorrow.  You can dwell on your personal failures and difficulties, or you can consciously replace them with some small measure of hope and give yourself a fighting chance.

     

    You guys need to understand that there is nothing I can do -_- I've reached a stalemate in my life where everything controls me and I've lost all order and balance :(

  3. If you continue that way, though, you'll be alone forever. There are people who will stick with you, but you have to take a risk and find them.

     

    I'll be alone anyway, because everyone I've ever gotten close to, or cared about or loved has left or has been taken away from me :( It's a cursed trend in my life, and I've learned the hard way that no one sticks around forever. You'll always be left alone eventually -_-

  4. Forget about the people who have left you behind, and think instead about those that are with you now. Maybe not many people here care. But as long as there is people who DO, you can't turn them all away. If you need friends, you'll have to let them in first.

     

    I'm talking to the friends I have, but I don't want to get close. I don't want to hurt or be hurt again :(

  5. In this situation, you have to value what you do have. What I know you have are the people on these forums. You have people like yalalala who care about you and what happens to you. You need to hold on to that and let it do what it can to help you, and not shut it out or throw it away.

     

    Not that many people here care actually. There are plenty of old "friends" who have completely ignored me which has only made me feel worse :(

     

    My life is a mess, I was supposed to graduate next year. I was going to be a senior this year, but now I'm failing ninth grade :(

  6. Suicide is not the answer, and that's the truth. Your life hasn't even really started yet, you're very young. You have so much ahead of you and so much potential for love and joy that is very real even if you can't see it right now in your grief.

     

    US suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255)

     

    I recommend reading this: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

     

    Other resources: http://mlpforums.com/topic/68255-remember-you-are-not-alone/

    I really don't want to kill myself, but I'm afraid I'll reach a point where my body will conrol my mind and I'll do it anyway :( There's just alot more going on than what you guys know -_- And I don't care whether my life is just starting, nothing good can come out of it because I may not even get to leave :(

     

    And I can't call any of those numbers, I don't have the ability -_-

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  7. You could always try staying a bit with your aunt... then, after feeling a bit more confident... moving along =p

     

    Also maybe try going to college... if u can get in you might have a easier time adapting to being 'alone' while not being exactly alone =o... thats what im planning to do

     

    Chance of something happening is small tho... i mean its there... but shouldnt worry that much (pepper spray?)

     

    Just think that there are LOADS of people that went through this and they are all fine and happy... so theres no reasons stuff wont look up for you too =)

     

     

    Lol...all i know to cook;

     

    Omlette, omlette.... and omlette (Also sandwhiches =p)

    I said I don't want to move to Houston because I don't want to depend on my family to go anywhere. You need a car :(

     

    And I'm not going to college. There's no reason why I should -_-

     

    I don't think LOADS of people moved somewhere completely by themselves with no help or support from anyone. I also bet those people aren't orphans like me >_>

  8. And now my mom is freaking out again about money because we don't have enough for everything we need and my dad is just refusing to pay his part and there's just nothing we can do about it, literally nothing...You know, I've been strangely feeling a bit more mature these days, and I think maybe it was for a reason :/ This crap is getting real now, more so than it's really ever been, and I'm going to need this new mindset that's starting to take over my don't-care-about-what-I-do-in-a-day previous mindset. Now's the time when I NEED to turn razor-sharp focus on both of my upcoming "careers," my Etsy business and animation which I'm going to start on tomorrow, I got Anime Studio Debut 9 for "free" with my Intuos Manga tablet so I'll be using that and working on getting myself out there...hopefully this Etsy business will start cashing at some point soon so that when my mom completely runs out of money *which WILL happen before she leaves my dad* I'll be able to help at least a tiny amount, and hopefully the animation thing will get known on the Internet and lead to a bigger career with that in the future cause I know I'll get no inheritance-type money.

    So tomorrow I'm going to start trying to better manage my time, e.g. instead of spending time just sitting and watching a Markiplier video, I'll watch it and work on something for Etsy or an animation at the same time. All this time I've never been truly serious about life...now I need to get serious about this stuff and start being more efficient at "life-ing," not just in managing my time as a 14-year-old who likes to spend time watching videos on Youtube and stuff, but in setting up my future as well.

    Good grief, my life is weird. :/

     

    I was in the same situation you're in now when my mom was around :( I felt horrible when she lost her job and started developing her cancer because I wanted to help her financially but I couldn't :( I was only 13 at that time and I couldn't get a job until I was 16. Then shortly after turning 14 I found a babysitting job and made my mom proud of my willingness to help any way I could until we moved :) It was definitely tough having to face possible eviction due to not paying the rent on time since she had to borrow money from her friends but it definitely helped me mature alot :(

  9. I won't get to have a completely normal life till I'm grown either, since my mom can't leave until I'm 18. In my church going to our temples is very important and a truly wonderful experience, but it's not worth it to my mom because of the consequences she and I will both probably get from my dad :/ And I haven't had a normal life, period. Once I'm 18, I'll have to get out in the world and try to find out what a real family does and how they act and stuff...XP because my life is NOTHING like a normal life, at all. We don't even eat at the same table anymore because of a dander problem that my dad refuses to fix to spite my mom (even though his own health is compromised).

     

    Trust me I know how you feel. I haven't had a normal life at all either :(

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  10. "Let It Go" is definitely not overrated. Overplayed, perhaps, but not overrated. It's a terrific song.

     

    That being said, the song and its lyrics should be cautionary, because the sequence didn't solve Elsa's problems. She sought to close herself off from the world -- she ends the song by shutting a door in the viewer's face -- but that eventually left Anna pleading for her to return. The great irony of "Let It Go" is that Elsa appears triumphant when she's in fact averting what needs to be addressed, such as her fundamental disconnect with Anna and her anxiety regarding her own nature. For me, the song has a resonant connection with Simon and Garfunkel's "I Am Rock", which itself knowingly expressed the false hope of isolation washing away pain.

     

    Although I don't meant to douse cold water (hyuk hyuk) on the concepts of self-empowerment and freedom, I do think it's worthwhile to remember that Elsa's greatest strength came from the love she and Anna shared. "Let It Go" tells only half the story.

     

    Well since I've lost all the people I loved, I have no choice but to go it alone -_-

  11. What i meant was that if they see that you dontlisten to them and that the bad things they do to you do not affect you, they will stop as they will realized it wont work =o

     

    ... I have no idea how stuff works there... but im sure that after ur 18 you can ask the goverment or civil service and the whole thing could fix up^^

     

    ...then boyz =p Just for friends that is =) Thing is that the "I cant do anythoing" way of thinking will never get u out of this situation. If you really try, there is no guarantee but there is a chance of making buds =)

     

    Really... I mean then speak to someone that isnt mean and that be understanding... surely u can find someone =o

     

    They haven't stopped after a year dude, so they never will -_-

     

    It's not that easy >_> My situation is quite complicated -_-

     

    It's an all girls school man :( Trust me I miss having guys around, they were easier to make friends with -_-

     

    Not irl :(

     

     

  12. They don't let me talk, all they do is give me speeches :( And they won't stop because I'm ignoring them, they will only continue. Their purpose is to make me like them so if I ignore them they won't stop :(

     

    El Salvador >_>

     

    That was online and he talked to me first :( Also the only place I can make friends is at school, and the girls in my grade aren't girls I can interact with too much -_-

     

    I can't trust anyone anymore :(

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