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Through season one I couldn't stand Rarity, then in season two I couldn't love her any more! Now I like Pinkie best but Rarity is my number two pony.

I haven't really been keeping up with the fandom so much recently but I swear this is practically nothing. Just sounds like people jumping on the bandwagon to me.

As the title suggests, I'm about to tell you how NOT to get over a break up. I will do this by simply explaining what I'm currently doing and why it sucks. Tbh it may just be a rant. My boyfriend and I broke up two months ago after he kissed another girl on Halloween. We were together for just over two years. He explained why he was breaking up with me (other aspects of the relationship) and that was it. I then spent the next couple of week obsessing over why such a seemingly lovely boy would do such a thing to me. I couldn't understand how my lovely lad had suddenly changed. I cried a lot. This sort of stuff sounds pretty normal I guess, at the time it was like being in one of my nightmares. Being as obsessed as I was I did a bit of fb stalking and found the girl on fb. That was fun. <<SARCASM. He ignored me for the first few weeks, saying we needed some space from one another. That was really bad too. He said he wanted to be friends but not quite yet. Now that sounds pretty reasonable, back then it sounded like hell on earth. So we had break from each other, well... he did. I spent a lot of time with his Facebook profile and his Xbox live account. Btw before I even carry on I know how desperate and crazy I already sound, but I don't really care. So after this break we slowly started talking again as friends. Turned out he missed me and I was so happy when he wanted to give it another go. We tried for a week, kept it a secret from our friends. At the end of the week he kicked me in the face with a "I thought I missed you but I miss the person you were at the start of the relationship, not you anymore. I have no feelings for you at all." Which is just lovely. Still at least he is honest. Well that felt like breaking up all over again. We continued to talk this time though, tried to be friends. And it worked, for a little while. Then one day I was round his, we were watching tv and we ended up going to bed together. So now we are friends with benefits. It's not a situation I would like to be in really but it beats not having any of him at all. I like to convince myself that I'm getting over him, that this really is no strings attached, and to some extent it is. If I find someone else while doing the whole friends with benefits thing I won't hesitate with the new person. But I find myself still feeling a bit too attached to the ex. He is seeing this other girl atm, nothing too serious but she doesn't know about us. Nobody does. And while I feel a small pang of jealousy about this new girl, I am actually pathetic enough to be okay with it. I feel like I should be angry with him, like I should have been when he kissed the other girl on Halloween. Turns out my friends were angrier than I was. I can't seem to stay angry at him at all. I don't know how this is all going to turn out but it doesn't feel like we are out of the woods yet. I have a feeling it's going to get a bit messy again at some point but for now I'm enjoying what I do have and attempting to get my self esteem back up again. In fact, that is really one of the great points about the arrangement. I felt ugly and awful after he broke up with me, now I feel slightly better about myself. Probably not a good thing to rely on other people for that sort of thing but I guess that's the kind of person I am. I didn't write this for sympathy or advice. I wrote it to try and make sense of it in my head and hopefully when everything starts to get easier I can look back on this and remember the bad choices I made and why not to make them again. Life is confusing and tricky atm. It feels like every day there is something new going on and dealing with this along with a new job really isn't easy. Sorry if I rambled. But yeah, if you want a smooth break up, don't do any of that. Trust me, it isn't fun.

I LOVED Croc and Tarzan for PS1. Sooo good. Oh! And Spyro! I recently bought a PS1 but haven't got round to try out all my games yet. That's something I shall be doing tomorrow I think.

Personally I feel like people should be able to do whatever they want and express their like/dislike of the show however they feel fit. I have read things like cupcakes and stuff like that and while I wasn't THAT impressed I didn't feel like it shouldn't have been written or anything. I guess my view was "Alright then" Children shouldn't be reading or learning of things like that but I don't think it's the responsibility of the creators to shield them.

I'm an only child and I have always wondered what it would be like to have a brother or a sister. Not like I really wish I had one or anything but I do wonder what my life would be like with one. I see my friends with their brothers and sisters and they all seem to have very different relationships with them to each other. Some always seem to be at odds, some don't really have much to do with each other and some are really close. It's interesting to see as I haven't got anything to compare it to.

"Look at Hank's face" Yep, I'm one! I'm obsessed with scishow. Makes me feel sooo clever! Haha Took me a long time to get into it but now I'm stuck.

I would get lots of bean bags and sleep a lot. I love bean bags. I would also just be happy I had room to stretch. My room is so small and my leggies always want more room.

Sadly my first blog entry probably won't be that interesting as I have THE DREADED FLU! My brain aches already. I don't even have a topic, that's how boring this is. I'm just yabbering on and saying whatever comes into my groggy head. It's fine, I'll just say this was my practice blog and write a good one when I'm well again. Good plan? I think so. The end. (Omg I'm going to eat Monster Much later)

Welcome welcome. Have some bread/bacon/chocolate! It's so guuurd!

I work in a nursery so I get many hugs. Many... snotty.... hugs. Other than that I get hugs from my mum sometimes. Mainly when we have bad stuff going on. And I get friend hugs sometimes but not so much recently as everyone has gone off to uni. Still... CHRISTMAS HUGS ARE COMING!

I have seen some of the first series (my ex convinced me it was a good idea). I got to the episode where this random guy with a bow challenges Ichigo to kill things or something. I'll be honest, it wasn't my favourite show although the dad and Kon crack me up! XD Having never really watched anime like this before I wasn't expecting how weird it was sometimes though. With that big creepy thing that "targets only women" or something like that. I was creeped out. I kinda stopped watching because Ichigo started getting on my nerves with how serious he was all the time.

Mine was when I actually killed the big dragon in Skyrim. Not a huge moment, everyone else has done it. But for me... that was the day that my life was awesome!

It's like a hoop... of spaghetti... In sauce. I get them in tins. They are tasty.

My Favourite Mane 6 Pony: Pinkie Pie How did you find MLP Forums?: Probably typed "mlp forum" into Google. I am imaginative in my own little way. How you became a fan of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic: I saw some youtubey people watching it. Saw it myself. I luuurrved it. I wasn't the biggest "hot shot" here last time lol, I very much doubt I'm remembered haha but I left for a while. Because I got busy. And stuff.. So I have been doing a bit of a stalk for about a week and this seemed like the simplest way to get back into the forum. (Gosh how popular has this forum got? Btw, still missing the chat ) Anyway, HAI! I'm here! I like spaghetti hoops and socks.