Shadicus

I've been mentioned twice in the "Who are the most recognizable members on the forums?" topic & 

I was wondering, what makes me recognizable? 

Welp, handling the night shift alone today...

PARTY TIME!! *dances*

Picture it. A Zotl on a unicycle. 

For certain obvious reasons, I've been reminded of something. Life is short, so cherish your friends and loved ones while you can.

Thank you for being a friend. If we should ever part ways, I want to remember the following facts: I appreciate you deeply, and you matter a great deal. My life is forever changed for the better just by knowing you. 

Spanking your kids isn't discipline. It's domestic violence. It's disgusting, harms children as they develop, and has no place in society.

 In which,

Princess Celestia tries to get half of Princess Luna's check because she "participated" in the episode.  

If Christian Grey wasn't a billionaire, the Fifty Shades series woulda been a CSI-inspired crime drama instead. But because of his status, Anastasia Steele's all "His controlling of me and my environment's so romantic." *scoff* Please.

YAY!! I’m going swimming!! I haven’t gone swimming in YEARS!!

Please tell me I’m not the only one who finds the EqG SFM models to look hideous while simultaneously terrifying 

Just saying.....Tony Jay had one of the most awesome badass voices ever!

Hello everypony! 

I missed you all so much 

So, you're probably wondering why I was gone for so long? To make a long story short, I got in a car crash  I won't dwell on it now, but all you need to know is that I'm okay now and fully recovered 

What did I miss! 

Damn, why couldn't I be born a fanatic? There wouldn't be doubt in my mind. Instead, every time I have a debate I feel the worry of being wrong and think it all again.

I just want to support what's best for everyone, who could have thought that it would be so hard. 

It's like depression, there is fear of going the wrong way in my heart. That fear is greater than anything I've ever felt. 

I will overcome this in time, I will choose something. The meantime is going to be a hell.

Fucking conscience.

Well, this week has been a roller coaster of things for me, my crowd... Let's summarize, shall we?  *Grabs a warm cup of tea*

The week started off bad. As many of you know, my grandmother passed away on Tuesday. It's possible she has passed sooner then that, the machines where just keeping her body alive but the rest of her was all ready gone. My family just made it official to shut the machines off on Tuesday, and when they did, she passed instantly. No lingering heart beat or anything. Taking her off the machines and medicine was her wish. She had talked about it with the family a long time ago; she didn't want to be reduced to a vegetative state.

Her passing was hard on my family and I. We were left devastated. In the previous weeks, she seemed fine. She had been making plans of recovering and maybe remodeling her house when it was all over. At one point, I remember I got to visit her in the hospital. It's always scary to me how someone can seen fine one minute, and the next they are just gone. Not the first time I've witnessed stuff like this happening. And I'll always miss my grandmother, of course. There were lots of things I wish we could have done together. I wish she could have been there to see the next phases of my life. I don't even have a girlfriend or wife yet, and of course no kids. They'll never know their great grandmother. That's the thing about death. When someone goes, they also take away all the potential time you could have spent with them, all the potential memories you could have made. That's why you gotta cherish those you care about right now and make the most of your time together; because you never when it'll be all over. So don't let your self be stuck in a moment called "too late".

But the week wasn't all sad!
Obviously, I've had friends showing their support for me, and I'm grateful for that. On Friday, my family and I attended a wake in my grandmother's honor. I spoke up, and I left all my feelings there at that wake. I felt good to have that emotional release, but some of my closest family members were still holding onto their feelings of lost, including my mother. I couldn't give her the emotional release she needed, but on Saturday evening, we got together with my uncle and my closest cousin. They were having a karaoke night, and what a night that was!  I could have done that all night. But more importantly, it was the fun that my mother and my uncle needed to help them come to terms with everything. I guess emotional releases come in more than one form. Something I'll need to remember for the future.

That's not to say that those feelings of grief or sadness are completely gone for any of us. I know there might come a day where I'll have a random thought about memaw, or there might be something I'll want to show/tell her, and then I'll remember she's gone. My mother, my uncles, and probably others are the same way. There will be moments where they are happy as can be, but they'll remember she's not with us, as we'll have a sad moment. But as my family and I prepare to go back to work, I think we're ready. I'm ready to pick back up and keep things going, to go back to being myself and having a routine. I think the rest of my family are ready enough to go back into regular life. And as long as there are good days to look forward to, then we'll over come the bad days by and by.

Sorry I didn't do the weekly game this time, everyone. I thought about it, but to be completely honest, I decided this week should only be about my grandmother. It was better that way, and I did a lot to honor her. Next week for sure, things will go back to normal. Thanks for helping me get through it, my crowd.  Life goes on.

Hey anyone played the new Paper Mario yet? I don’t think I’ll be able to buy it for a little while, but are you enjoying it?

No spoilers please! Just want to know if you’re having fun! X3

Hey anyone played the new Paper Mario yet? I don’t think I’ll be able to buy it for a little while, but are you enjoying it?

No spoilers please! Just want to know if you’re having fun! X3

“Never forget that you are one of a kind. Never forget that if there weren't any need for you in all your uniqueness to be on this earth, you wouldn't be here in the first place. And never forget, no matter how overwhelming life's challenges and problems seem to be, that one person can make a difference in the world. In fact, it is always because of one person that all the changes that matter in the world come about. So be that one person.”

Tomorrow, I'll be tending my grandmother's wake (it's like a funeral service, but more casual).
I'm going to mention everyone who shared their care and support.

Just thought I'd let you all know since I probably won't be online tomorrow; if not all day then the majority of the day.

Once again, thank you to everyone who has been supportive. You're an amazing group of friends that I am proud to call my crowd. 

Tomorrow, I'll be tending my grandmother's wake (it's like a funeral service, but more casual).
I'm going to mention everyone who shared their care and support.

Just thought I'd let you all know since I probably won't be online tomorrow; if not all day then the majority of the day.

Once again, thank you to everyone who has been supportive. You're an amazing group of friends that I am proud to call my crowd. 

I'll be working on a little basics guide for the guitar thing. I'm so sorry for not reading your status update sooner. Was busy with a bet

I'll be working on a little basics guide for the guitar thing. I'm so sorry for not reading your status update sooner. Was busy with a bet

I'll be working on a little basics guide for the guitar thing. I'm so sorry for not reading your status update sooner. Was busy with a bet

@ShadOBabe There are some things you just can't resist... 

I never realized that I forgot to show you all what art I used to do before pony art - here you go 

I hope you like it 

Oh my gosh everypony, I'm so sorry! 

I didn't realize that all of the awards I got were from my friends, thank you so much, you have no idea how happy that makes me feel 

Hey everypony 

I made this