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It's terrifying to know the general time and moment that i woke up one day, and all of the wiring in my brain broke. the second semester of tenth grade, somewhere around the tail-end of February, i woke up more tired, defeated than ever. I didn't know it then, but my adolescence and development left me a 'care' package as they began to reach their end. the feelings didnt go away, no, they got worse. i wanted to die. it was scary, how i could no longer sleep at night, i would have kicks in my chest every single time my head wandered off to sleep. The genes I inherited from both sides of my family presented themselves in a two-punch knockout to the person I was before mental illness. I'll never get that back, but I can do the most I can with the cards i've been dealt. though a large orange pill must correct the imbalances that my body has wrought, i am still a person behind the outward mask of dark winters and cloudy days that I have only begun to un-wind and deconstruct to find some peace and serenity in a life post-mental-illness through bi-weekly therapy vists. the worst part is having no one to blame, nowhere to point a finger to, because it was a stroke of fate, a random chance that life threw at me when I was least expecting it. All you can do when the curve-ball bruises you is move forward and heal. and that's what i'll do.
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"I’m starting to shake.
They’ll hold your service tomorrow. I’m an ocean away.
Reached into my pocket, found a small paper crane.
It’s been over a year now.
April fades into May and I’ve barely stopped moving,
I’ve been so fucking afraid; too much of a coward to even visit your grave."
~The Wonder Years
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No comparison, the Samsung S10 has MUCH better speakers than the LG G8, so Samsung has become my next choice of phone for the next few years.
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Retiring my OG Pixel and probably getting an LG G8 ThinQ in the evening. Gonna miss it, but it's age is showing and I need more storage.
It was one of the best phones that I've ever owned, the only issues were freezing related and shutting off due to cold temperatures (and my car's AC blasting on it).
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it's really sad walking into Hot Topic and going to the band wall now-a-days. don't recognize nor care for 90% of the bands that have merch there. i miss when there was real emo (yeah the emo trinity is nowhere near real emo. check out American Football lmao) band merch like Modern Baseball tees, i miss the wristband bucket, i miss the vinyls being in-store, sigh.
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though the show is coming to an end, i hope that this forum doesn't cease to exist anytime soon. my interest in MLP has faded far from where it was years ago, but I love this community and the friendliness of everyone here. There aren't many forums with communities like this anymore, and i'd be sad to see it go.
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What's a good coffee/latte to try if I hate espresso, cannot stand bitter flavors, but love stuff like chai lattes?
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having a manager buy food for me just 'cause i don't take a break is a nice gift <3
Might take my first one in a few days though.. gonna have a 10 hour shift or so. yikes.
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"I’ll miss the smell of the rain on my road,
The dirty streets of the town I call home,
My friends that kept me from feeling alone,
And the broken promises you made that forced me to grow.
And I’ll miss the paths I’ve walked a thousand times,
The mistakes that I made, the lessons learned from the nights
That I spent with my friends in this town I resent,
All ‘cause this is the last of time that I’ll spend around here."~Neck Deep
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Saw a 2 dollar bill for the first time in person yesterday. Why would you give that away?? They're so rare! I'd frame one if I had one.
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oml, Neck Deep's older cuts are the BEST music they've made, or maybe it's my love for hardcore pop punk stuff. Rain In July is amazing tho
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my job is getting me used to working with... undesirable personalities. Sadly, some people are just high strung and will bitch about anything and everything because it's all they know. Good thing I know how to communicate, because man, sitting there and listening to the nonstop whining is ridiculous. If you want to ensure that we dont miss anything while closing during a period of severe understaffing, you can stay until nearly 12AM to get it done.
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I'm not typically a creative minded person, but I put what little creative energy I have into my poetry. It's paying off, and I love writing it. I can see my improvement, and I love being able to tell stories of my own life, and others in hopes to inspire others or just to share experiences. Being focused on mental illness and hardships, I truly hope that what I make lets others know they're not alone, and/or inspires them to keep going when things aren't going so well <3
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love working drive-thru all alone because of a repeat no-show employee!!!! god, my feet hurt..