DuskSong

my best work is still yet to come, and that's a promise.

i'm going to start posting some of my poetry on my blog occasionally- and snippets of other projects i'm working on.

THEY'RE BACKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a lot of reflecting this week. a lot of sadness, a lot of happiness, and a lot of hopefulness. a chapter closed, a chapter begun. and honestly, i'll miss this one more than anything.

quick poem:

i want them to stop telling me who to be

wasted all this time, you cannot limit me

try to knock me down but you've set me free

and you think that you can bring me down

but i'll come back swinging to take the crown

went blind being optimistic, don't tell me i'm acting cold

got took down too much trying to go for gold

so i'm done waiting for my moment to come

achieving success, marching to the beat of my own drum

and you can look to yourself when you ask me who i've become

the pressure's getting too much and i'm trying not to succumb to it

with how far i've come, i'd be an idiot just to quit

i never belonged, and that's something i'll always admit

but the show isn't over yet, i'm done playing games like life's some sort of arcade

stay your blade, i dont need anyone anymore, being a stray doesnt make me afraid

as i fade, take one last look- because this is what everyone has fucking made.

"I spent years watching life unfold, and spent seconds seeing everything I worked for fail, and got told I wasn't shit" ~RUSSELL

that line hits me hard so much, after my first listen last night, it hasn't left my head. i've been there too, it really sucks when everything crumbles and you're left to start over.

blaring Brand New Eyes in my room because i don't listen to it enough and its a big mood, esp. Careful

come too far to give up now.

some of us have to grow up sometimes, and so if i have to, i'm gonna leave you behind.

i would love to have a Danger Days aesthetic this summer. might have to try that.

i pour my heart and soul into what i do. even if there's no where left to go, i will continue to move forward.

two days of finals.. then i'm done. thank god.

indulge me for a sec?

All my life, I've had a spark inside of me that's wanted to change the world. I've had so many passions, and big dreams of how I'd rise to the top and be the one who does something significant. Numerous failed projects, or hobbies that I lost interest in ruined my motivation. Never was good at singing, web design flopped, and I'm not going to be another politician in the corrupt atmosphere of American politics. slowly, I've begun finding things that truly hold my interest, things I want to get better at- from playing guitar to writing. I want to open a door that doesn't close- to cut a path through uncharted territory and do something with the art forms that I excel at. I see the success so many others have achieved, and I want that. I want to make an impact, to make myself known. I've wanted that my entire life. As hard as I strive for that goal, I will achieve it at all costs, because I need and want it much more than most others do.

Everything before has been practice. Now, it's time to shine.

~Dusk.

getting really tired of telling people i'm just "tired". i'm feeling a lot more than just that. and it is a struggle.

First HayvenGames, now TotalBiscuit. I hate cancer, so fucking much.

"The future is bulletproof
The aftermath is secondary
It's time to do it now and do it loud
Killjoys... Make some noise!"

~MCR

"Come gather round skeptics, wherever you roam

Cuz it seems ideology's taken it's toll

Now that diverse opinions give way to control

And the words that we are exchanging

Imply we should all simply stick to our roles

But the times they are a changing"

~Chris Ray Gun

"How did I get here
And what have I done?
Feels like I've been sleeping for two years
And I'm just waking up
Like I'm coming out of a black out
Like I didn't see you till right now
I look around and I'm feeling
Like I built a prison and put myself in it"

~Against The Current

"I fear I might break

and I fear I can't take it

Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty

I can feel the pressure

It's getting closer now

We're better off without you"

~Paramore

"Spent seven years wishing that you'd drop the line
But I carry the thought along with you in my mind
But is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?"

~Sleeping With Sirens

"I don't think you know me

There's a side you don't see

Been to hell and made it out

My enemy,

I'll watch you bleed"

~Ledger

After Laughter is a mood rn