DuskSong

"I'm standing at the crossroads
Looking for the way
My life
Will never be the same

Where do I go from here?
Can anybody ease my sorrow?
I'm afraid because I've got so much to lose
Where do I go from here?
I'm having visions of tomorrow
But I don't know which path I gotta choose"

~Anna Blue

"Tell me why you're putting pressure on me
And every day you cause me harm
That's the reason why I feel so lonely
Even though you hold me in your arms

Wanna put me in a box of glitter
But I'm just trying to get right out
And now you're feeling so so bitter
Because I've let you down"

~Anna Blue

I'm not working to be less than a legend.

i havent eaten an actual meal besides school lunches all week, so I decided to make some seafood tonight, and it feels nice to not be starving

It's already May. Time goes by too quickly.

Halestorm is releasing new music within two months. I AM FUCKING READY.

the world will never take my heart.

i'll be back in a couple days- i'm going out of town. cya guys on Sunday.

~Dusk

"And when you wake up
everything is going to be fine
I guarantee that you wake up in a better place
in a better time
so you're tired of living
and you feel like you might give in
well don't
it's not your time"

~Toh Kay

when i say music has saved my life, that is not an exaggeration.

i'm so mentally exhausted and going through a lot, but i'm more hopeful than ever.

i used to laugh at MCR fans for their response to getting G noted, but now i am the biggest hypocrite because i am one of them now.

"I don't want to be
Where the future and promises
Ain't what it used to be
I never wanted to compromise
Or bargain with my soul
How did a life on the wild side
Ever get so dull?"

~Green Day

"If this is what you call the good life
I want a better way to die
Oh I
Don't want to think about tomorrow
Don't want to think about it, oh
It doesn't matter anyway"

~Green Day

mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of, neither is talking about it.

"What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook, for the last time, take a good hard look!"

~My Chemical Romance

"Leave me here a little bit longer
I think I wanna stay in the car
I don't want anybody seeing me cry now
You say "We gotta look on the bright side"
I say "Well maybe if you wanna go blind"
You say my eyes are getting too dark now
But boy, you ain't ever seen my mind"

~Paramore

"Won't you go to someone else's dreams?
Won't you go to someone else's head?
Haven't you taken enough from me?
Won't you torture someone else's sleep?"

~Twenty One Pilots

i used to want to get up early and stay awake as long as i can. now, i can't bring myself to get out of bed most days. i just want to free myself from my mind.

"My mind is just reeling, thinking about how much my insides are complete contrast to what is being projected on to me. There were so many seemingly horrible happening last year, I just wanted to die. I didn’t even feel like what I was doing was useful anymore. We couldn’t keep ourselves healthy, let alone spread any sort of hopeful message. It felt embarrassing to be trapped inside myself and think I had a purpose. None of these things even begin to scratch the surface of faith and God and where my head was at with that reality, I had nothing else to rely on. No ego, no relationships I trusted, no hope would come easily. And these times I envisioned hope as a little pin prick of light down a long, long dark tunnel, and this time there was no tiny light – no nothing. So, I just thought about future and death. My whole life I’d been about trying to make people feel better, but I can’t even make myself feel better, it’s hard to think were about to head back out into the wild after being in a safe cocoon for nearly two years. It’s kinda hard to see myself in the reflection of people’s eyes realizing that what they see, may not even be close to the image I see myself, and I think I might actually be more afraid to let my own self down than anything else" ~Hayley Williams

"But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay"

~My Chemical Romance

i now love My Chemical Romance.

"Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll on my soul, I'm screaming submission and
I don't know if I am dying or living
'Cause I will save a face for name's sake
Abuse grace, take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became a new destiny to the grave and
They say the ocean's blue, but it's black right now
In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
And lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops and sky begins
A random strikes of light remind me of what is true
But right now the ocean's blacker than black, the sky is too"

~Tyler Joseph, "Drown"

hopefully things pick back up after this week.. i can't feel happy right now.

keeping my head up gets really difficult sometimes.

"So let the light guide your way, yeah
Hold every memory as you go
And every road you take, will always lead you home, home"

~Charlie Puth