DuskSong

"It's my life and I just wanna live it, I just wanna live it
It's my world, push it to the limit, push it to the limit
I'm not turning back, I'm not giving in
It's my life and I just wanna live it
I just wanna live it
I just wanna live it"

~Sleeping With Sirens

Goodnight everyone!

"Broken mirrors on the wall
Hating everything I see
Smash the pieces when they fall
I won't let it bury me
Break the past, let it shatter
Let it fall down at my feet
Broken mirrors on the wall
Reflecting every, everything I see"

~Sleeping With Sirens

(The 2 songs from the Deluxe version of GOSSIP are the BEST on the record, you can't change my mind.)

"Been traveling in packs that I can't carry anymore
Been waiting for somebody else to carry me
There's nothing else there for me at my door
All the people I know aren't who they used to be
And if I tried to change my life one more day
There would be nobody else to save
And I can't change into a person I don't wanna be so
Oh, it's Saturday night, yeah!"

~Panic! At The Disco

"I wake up fine and dandy but then by the time I find it handy,
To rip my heart apart and start planning my crash landing,
I go up, up, up, up, up to the ceiling,
Then I feel my soul start leaving, like an old man's hair receding,
I'm pleading please, oh please on my knees repeatedly asking,
Why it's got to be like this. Is this living free?
I don't want to be the one, be the one who has the sun's blood on my hands,
I'll tell the moon, take this weapon forged in darkness,
Some see a pen, I see a harpoon."

~twenty one pilots

"I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah, after all this time I'm still into you"

~Paramore

Goodnight everyone, I'm going to see if I can get some restful sleep tonight.

~Dusk

"They say there's strength in numbers

if anyone knows how to quickly rid myself of local anesthesia after the dentist, let me know because i hate my face being half numb.

Signing off for the night, but before I go, watch this video of Paramore performing Let The Flames Begin and Part II, because you'll never hear anything more beautiful and passionate.

"I'll spill my heart out in the words of these verses

but you don't know the storm below the surface,

at night, do you hear my mind's laments?

the deafening screams are all I hear, it's torment

drowning out in a sea of my own doubts,

and i'm willing to do anything to shut it all out."

-by me, writing off what's haunting my mind.

"I watched everybody do well after they left me
And they just used me 'till they felt that they were good
Some girls told me that they loved me, but when I was all fucked up
You ain't help me, you ain't call me, shit got rough

Yeah, this shit gets to me
Why do they threaten me?
Is this shit meant for me?"

~Pryde

stay alive, it's worth it.

In a mood to drive through town with my windows down blaring music for the night

i've probably thrown away 80% of the material i've written in the past week- if not more. i always feel a need to surpass myself and it's going to kill my enjoyment of writing. i wish i could turn off the part of my brain that's always saying "you're not good enough" because it's getting too loud.

"Please get on my level, you boys not professional

I spend my own dollars, I make my own schedule

I'm that boy that puts up more than he speaks

I don't Snapchat the lifestyle, I say it on beats"

~Pryde/Russell

either album name hint, or them telling us that they're going to disband. i hope to god it's not the latter.

"A lifetime of laughter, at the expense of the death of a bachelor" ~Panic! At The Disco

"Where you're from
You might be the one who's running things
Well, you can ring anybody's bell to get what you want
You see, it's easy to ignore trouble
When you're living in a bubble
So what are you gonna do when the world don't orbit around you?
So what are you gonna do when nobody wants to fool with you?
Ain't it fun living in the real world
Ain't it good being all alone?"

~Paramore

livin' that self titled life.

I've got a poetry book that I'm writing in chapters, around 8-10 poems per chapter, with an interlude between. working on the first interlude, which i'm going to use to express the themes i've majorly covered so far.

"For too long the false queen has sat in pride and denial

So I raise my voice and fist, screaming 'This is my reprisal!'

Broke free of the webs of lies you've spun that for too long kept me chained,

Now your unearned crown comes down as you play victim to me escaping your pain,

The poor servant's twisted state of mind is dead,

How could I have been so misled?

Ran far away, recollected my mind, safe and sound

My last wish is for your fool's gold palace to burn to the ground."

~A quick piece of mine titled, "A Reprisal for your Prideful Denial"

it's kinda cool to look back and see how far you've come, ya know? just a few years ago i was a naive, clueless kid who would spend his evenings in the park with friends cracking stupid jokes with no real clue about what the hell i wanted to do in life. i've gone through so much in just the past year and a half alone. i found myself, found passions, new friends, and learned a hell of a lot about the world and my role in it. as i begin the next phase of my life, i've found a love who i hope will walk that long journey with me. i'm so happy that i've grown out of my immature ways of the past, i've grown up, and it's a great feeling. as the next empty page of life appears, i hope what i write is even greater than everything before.

"Do I look lonely?

"In these coming years
Many things will change
But the way I feel
Will remain the same

Lay us down
We're in love"

~Panic! At The Disco

"I've never so adored you
I'm twisting allegories now
I want to complicate you
Don't let me do this to myself

I'm chasing roller coasters
I've got to have you closer now

Endless romantic stories
You never could control me

Well I never really thought that you'd come tonight
While the crown hangs heavy on either side
Give me one last kiss while we're far too young to die
Far too young to die"

~Panic! At The Disco

"We've been falling, falling
It's like we fell to the top
I was born to cut a million
Cut my teeth and made a killing
Now I'm dodging, dodging
Everything you think that I'm not
Archetype of television
Was lost in thought but held my vision, ey"

~Panic At The Disco