DuskSong

i'm finally ready to tear down my walls for you.. and you will never understand how hard it is for me to do that.

"I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path

I remember the face but I can't recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Seems that she disappeared without a trace
Did she ever marry old what's his face?
I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path"

~Green Day

"For all I know
The best is over and the worst is yet to come
Is it enough?
To keep on hoping when the rest have given up?"

~paramore

happy and chill rn but the bags under my eyes say the opposite.

The sound of the rain is really soothing, cant wait for Spring so this becomes a more regular thing

wow i've had 666 brohoofs for a whole day now lol

i'm doing better tonight.

waking up to what feels like a heart attack is the worst. why can't my head let me sleep peacefully? sigh

"I'm not free, I asked forgiveness three times,
Same amount that I denied, I three-time mvp'ed this crime,
I'm afraid to tell you who I adore, won't tell you who I'm singing towards,
Metaphorically I'm a whore, and that's denial number four."

~twenty one pilots

"It's the very first breath
When your head's been drowning underwater
And it's the lightness in the air
When you're there
Chest to chest with the lover
It's holding on, though the road's long
And seeing light in the darkest things
And when you stare at your reflection
Finally knowing who it is
I know that you'll thank God you did"

~Alessia Cara

"i feel alone, i know im not"

"Remember how we used to like ourselves?
What little light that's left, we need to keep it sacred
I know that you're afraid to let all the dark escape ya
But we could let the light illuminate these hopeless places"

~paramore

well, today has had its ups and downs. still mentally exhausted as hell, but atleast i know that theres one person who sees something good in me, she's the best <3

i like that fans of Halestorm are called Freaks because i don't know if there's another word that can describe me as well

"Hope is gonna fade
The truth is gonna lie
Sometimes there's no reason
To justify the meaning

But I won't run
I'm not ashamed
It's gonna take more than this for me to break"

~Halestorm

...

i really hit rock bottom today, but i'm gonna bounce back stronger than before. my demons wont keep this grasp on me. see you in the morning, everyone.

i'm always happier when the sun is shining, stepping outside today felt so nice.

ive genuinely felt dead today, ive been drained due to mental exhaustion, trying to push my anxiety away. but, i finally felt a spark of life in me just awhile ago and i think im starting to overcome my demons after a week of struggling.

"its just a spark, but it's enough to keep me going" -paramore

"If nobody sees me, do I even exist? And if nobody needs me, do I know what needing is? I'm losing ground, I'm losing ground."

"I'm only at it again

As an addict with a pen

Who's addicted to the wind

As it blows me back and forth

Mindless, spineless, and pretend

Of course I'll be here again

See you tomorrow

But it's the end of today"

~twenty one pilots

...

i would say goodnight, but with this mind, they aren't so great.

see you in the morning, everyone.

"I've watched myself struggle with this fear of falling down
'Cause I've seen a silhouette of me who is this stranger I've become

Who is this man that I've become?"

~Sleeping With Sirens

"I feel for you, but when did you believe you were alone?
You say that spiders crawled inside and made themselves a home
Where light once was

Petrified of who you are and who you have become
You will hide from everyone, denying you need someone
To exterminate your bones"

~twenty one pilots

this week has been rough and it's only Tuesday evening.. i am so tired of school

"I am not as fine as I seem, pardon
Me for yelling, I'm telling you green gardens
Are not what's growing in my psyche, it's a different me,
A difficult beast feasting on burnt-down trees"

~twenty one pilots

i wish my city had a nice music scene, but then again it'd just be people making really bad country and i want to make punk rock music

"Living like a ghost you walk by everyone you know
You say that you're fine but you have lost your sway and glow
So I stopped by to let you know"

~Twenty One Pilots, "Friend, Please"

not fun to remember, but this was me just a few months ago. recovery takes time, but things will get better, I promise.