DuskSong

"i will fear the night again

i hope i'm not my only friend

stay alive, stay alive,

for me."

right when i thought i was getting better, my demons are haunting me again and this time, i need to face it and admit i need a hand to help me up before i slip and fall. the voices won't win.

"Why am I not scared in the morning?
I don't hear those voices calling,
I must have kicked them out, I must have kicked them out,
I swear I heard demons yelling,
Those crazy words they were spelling,
They told me I was gone, they told me I was gone."

"I've grown tired of this web, feeling trapped within this end. Not sure what I have lined up, though I no longer feel the dread. I will chase what is beyond, I will find myself where I am taken, for I’ll be there for a reason." ~Laura Brehm.

my guitar string snapped, and i have to wait until tomorrow to get replacements, so i'm just gonna listen to car radio wishing a string wasn't weak enough to snap because of a capo

"I want to see some fist pumping
Risk something
Take back what's yours
Say something that you know
They might attack you for
'Cause I'm sick of being treated
Like I had before
Like it's stupid standing for
What I'm standing for" ~Linkin Park

constant state of tired

"Hey, look at me
I've become so strong
I used to be so weak
Now I'm free
It’s like I detached myself from you
And all the times you tried to break me all over again
I shut down"

I'm listening to a song that encapsulated every feeling I had during September and October and revisiting the memories is almost making me cry in my class right now

"She's the tear in my heart, I'm alive,
She's the tear in my heart, I'm on fire,
She's the tear in my heart, Take me higher,
Than I've ever been."

"A new day dawning comes without warning, so don't look twice- We live in troubled times."

if only i wasnt so doubtful. i must sound crazy to other people with all these "what-ifs" that my mind spews out 24/7

"I'm not good with directions and I hide behind my mouth,
I'm a pro at imperfections and I'm best friends with my doubt,
And now that my mind's out, and now I hear it clear and loud,
I'm thinking, "Wow, I probably shoulda stayed inside my house." "

i wonder if you've fallen in love like i have, or if you still just 'really like' me. if nothing comes of it, just know i am grateful for the time i've gotten to spend with you <3

i just love when friends bring up my insecurities haha not like i wasn't already struggling to accept my flaws before you had to bring them up and make me feel like i'm inferior again

do it for the art, not the money. a lost passion mixed with a lust for money contributes to the downfall and corruption of a community.

"Are you searching for purpose?
Then write something, yeah it might be worthless
Then paint something then, it might be wordless
Pointless curses, nonsense verses
You'll see purpose start to surface
No one else is dealing with your demons
Meaning maybe defeating them
Could be the beginning of your meaning, friend."

i hate being at home a lot.

i don't believe in myself enough- i just wish i could kill the thoughts that hold me back because i am the sole creator of roadblocks in my life and my own fears prevent me from leaping over them, even when they aren't actually there.

if there's a future, we want it.

This show's message applies to my life so much lately: Friendship is Magic. There's so much I wouldn't of done without my friends, and I wouldn't have recovered from my past as quickly as I did had they not been around. I will never take them for granted.

kinda feel like getting custom Paramore posters made of the ST era to hang up on my walls

i've never felt more at home than when i'm close to her. i'd call her a soulmate if i still believed in that, because she's damn close to it.

"I'm going away for a while
But I'll be back
Don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See, I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe...

...'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Travelin' endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact, they follow me
And we just go in circles"