DuskSong

Serious

I do not fear death. I fear what may happen after it, though. I'm not a believer in an afterlife, but you never know. If any major religion turns out to be right, I'm going to hell and I'm afraid of that possibility. I will only miss getting to enjoy my short period of being alive on this Earth.

I admit it, I am terrified of asking my crush out due to a fear of her not liking me back or making a friendship awkward.

"...Three words. That's all you have to do to make your dreams come true. So why not try? Are you afraid of losing a friend if it goes wrong?" "I am." "Don't worry about that, it's obvious that she likes you. Just say it. Everything worth doing is going to have a risk associated with it." After hearing that, my mind filled with all the thoughts of what could be if I confessed my love and what the future may look like. Late at night, she's cuddling up close to me on the couch and I'm listening to her talk about everything on her mind, and I can't help but smile when I hear her voice. We don't hang out often, but not all relationships need that. We're both independent souls that were looking for someone else to be our support and a shoulder to lay our head on when things got rough. This worked well for us, both having busy schedules with not much time to see each other. The days we do see each other are blessings. Nothing beats an anticipated hug from your special someone or a kiss during a romantic night together. Our lack of shared interests besides extra-curriculars never bothered me. That's not why I fell in love. For some reason, my heart decided that she's the one I want to open up to, become intimate with, the one I'd tell everything to, and become her protection and shoulder to lean on. Conversations are effortless, and she laughs at every joke I make, even if I don't find it too funny myself. The smiles and laughter have melted my icy heart since the day I met her. She knows my true colors, and I know hers. We aren't the normal type of couple around our school, but then again, our relationship has stood the test of time. She loves reading, and so do I given the right book. I'd take her to our local bookstore and spend time in there with her looking at new releases, music, and having conversations over coffee at their cafe. Cliche, right? It may be, but I love it. We're both relatively lacking in the sociability department, but I've gotten her introduced to my closest friends and they hit it off well. She still sits very close to me when we go to games, and I'll wrap my arm around her and give her a smile. We'll have deep conversations together, laugh together, enjoy each night together. Each date is special and just as amazing as the first. And when I take her home, before she steps out of the car, we kiss, and I feel like I did the first night I asked her out all over again. She steps out of the car, and I have a sense of thankfulness wash over me. I am so glad I decided to confess my feelings. Of course, this is all what could happen.

Southern teen male voice

At a younger age, I had always thought that I would be the one who didn't deal with losing old friends or growing apart from people that I assumed would be there forever. High school was completely demolished my previous expectations and assumptions about how life would play out as we all gained freedom and found what we each enjoyed doing, and thus followed those paths in our education. 9th wasn't much different, considering we were in STEM based core classes, but a river of new faces and choices slowly eroded away at what was considered an unbreakable bond that we all formed during the past 3 years of our lives. I was a fool to hold onto that notion for so long. That belief made me ignorant enough to stick around friends who were bad for me. Immature, with a bad attitude towards change or things outside their accepted bubble of what is "normal" and what isn't. They never liked me too much, but I didn't like them much, either. I was too serious, not funny enough, not good enough for them. I attempted to befriend some people that would actively make their distaste for me known. Being naive and stubborn, I refused to accept that some people won't like me. The thing is, not everyone will like you, and that's something that is good to come to terms with early in life. Along with a relationship that drained my happiness, I was attempting to become someone I wasn't to appeal to a group that I resent now. They haven't grown up, you can't have a conversation with half of them and they'll yell "cringe" at any serious topic discussed. I made some tough decisions in 2017. I'm not a social person but I had to get to know old friends I hadn't spoken to in ages because they were the ones I got to see the most in the beginning of the school year. Some people will tell you that everything happens for a reason, and I do believe it, to some extent. My first big decision was to leave my partner who drove me to rock bottom, and it took much coercion to get me to do that. I then stopped associating with anyone related to my past friend group, I don't need or want them, and it's clear they didn't want me. The months from September to December were spent on self improvement. I entered a stage of looking out for myself only. Not to come off as selfish, but I needed that time more than ever to figure out my life and decide where I was going and what I wanted. I found supportive friends, found enjoyable hobbies and grew from the suffering as a result of the near year-long relationship I left. I let go of judgements, everyone deserves a chance. As I began to follow my own path and discover new passions and befriend new people, I realized my own path was being paved right in front of my eyes, and I knew right at that moment that I was going to have to leave some things behind in order to grow. As I keep walking down this winding road, there's forks forming with every step and uneven paths. They look scary, but it's boring to continue down the same, normal path. I think I'm ready to take some risky turns.

Straight?

Your OC is really cool!

I'll stop the whole world, I'll stop the whole world From turning into a monster and eating us alive Don't you ever wonder how we survive? Well now that you're gone, the world is ours I'm only human, I've got a skeleton in me But I'm not the villain Despite what you're always preaching Call me a traitor, I'm just collecting your victims And they're getting stronger I hear them calling

@Trotteur Sauvage Pretty cool! Reacts to all of my statuses, too. Has very unique and interesting forum game responses, as well