DuskSong

"Turn the lights down low
If this is how I go
I'll tell them that the villains on my list
They're what turned me into this
So I'll go
I'm better off alone
Run and tell them that the villains on my list
They're the reason I've been pulled so low"

~Emma Blackery

i havent released poetry on here in so long!! i'll do some soon- i put a lot of it on tumblr for the most part.

dont point your unloaded gun at my head ever again

don't point your unloaded gun at my head

'cause i'll pull the trigger

~knuckle puck

life has a tendency to kick me down whenever i get back up

hopefully this cycle is different.

Looking for someone who's taking art commissions, I want my WoW toon drawn. If you know/are someone who would be willing to, hmu and I'll get back to you ASAP!

i give up on trying to be happy. even when i achieve joy, it gets robbed from me every time. i'm so tired of trying.

my touch is as poison as nightshade. every green sapling in my life shrivels up and dies when i get near it.

"Old friends tell me I'm wilding, but fuck it man, I don't need 'em
People talk about this unauthentic shit like they write
But they don't sum my whole day, they don't moon my whole night
They just put money above me act like I owe em somethin'
And don't care when I be starving and hungry
Fuck that, I only care about myself
Shoe lace is still a belt, I will acknowledge that I fell off and I don't need help"

~Russell

i'd love if knuckle puck would bring back some copacetic era merch, that'd be wonderful

my god, modern baseball is amazing.

"I built my guard up to the clouds
Because of you, I’ve been reduced from high-rise windows to stepping stones

There’s gotta be something more for me
More than framework and furniture
Free fall into foreign waters
You tore me down, you tore me down"

~Knuckle Puck

"I’ve been much better but at least I’m healing
You know I haven’t slept since you left but for me that’s progress
For me that's progress"

~Knuckle Puck

its cool that lexapro causes vivid, lifelike dreams, but its a cruel joke when you dream about Paramore making new music and you wake up to realize that it was just a dream.

"Don't act like you're better than me
We're both fools lost in this cold world
You might not fall as much as I do, but if I look close enough I can find the scars on your knees
I can find the bags under your eyes that carry too much for you to handle

I said I'm selfish, I'm a liar and I'm broken
Shit runs through my head every day that I would never tell anyone
You're just like me
The only difference is that I'm honest enough to scream my flaws in the lines of this song"

~Real Friends

i lost a year of my life to a toxic relationship, and the following year lost to depression. i'm gonna win in 2019 though- i promise. there's only up from here.

i really don't want november to roll around. not a good month for me.

i always come up with 2~3 lines for a poem but never are they connected, so i take such long amounts of time to put together one that i'm proud of.

either that, or i get an idea suddenly, and fill an entire notebook page in 10 minutes.

what i've learned though, is that you should never force yourself to create something when you're not feeling it. if you don't want to, and don't believe feel passionate about it, you have failed before you have begun.

with that thought, goodnight everyone!

the switch from zoloft to lexapro has been really smooth, and i feel human again.. like the person i was before my major depressive episode. it's nice.

"I never spent my youth thinking of half the shit I'd go through
Living in the past never helped me
Last night I drove past the house that I grew up in
And tried to find that happiness

Living in the past never helped me
Or anyone move forward
There's no love, no growth for me here
Anymore, anymore"

~Real Friends

to combat my zombie like state and emotional flatness caused by the sedation effect of zoloft, i'm switching over to lexapro tonight. hopefully it works well.

"i’m sick and tired of hating who i’ve become

hang onto your hopes about the future

the past is an unchanging picture in a faded frame

trust me, ahead lies better days

and it's the only thing you can change.

damn, loss hurts.

but it's that hurt that inspires you to get past it so you can be happier.

find the good in the bad.

"I want to come home and have it be like it was before I left
I'm starting to see that I keep living alone in the past
Since loneliness will never leave my mind

I can't shake it off
Always a fight between my past,
My head, and my heart, you can cut me up
And spread me all over Illinois"

~Real Friends

I wish record companies would tell you on every vinyl whether or not you'll get a download card with it. Didn't know if my Real Friends vinyl would have one until it arrived. Really irritating when they're so inconsistent at letting you know if it comes with one or not.