Clod

Yes it's easy to know what I want to do, which is exactly what you said. But getting there isn't as simple as wanting it. It requires energy which I don't have. It requires knowing people. It requires motivation.

And no career seems enjoyable to me. Especially nothing I'd have to go to college for because that is not an option at all.

Ah...I think I see your issue. You don't have much confidence; your self-image is lacking, needless to say. Forget about everything else, that's the only thing that's important. Fix you first, or you might as well accept that you'll always spin your wheels.

Yep, very correct. But how do I fix what's been broken for so long and I've forgotten how it should be?