Clod

Hey, I'm really proud of where you and the team took the Golden Oaks Library. I was always so worried it would kinda sit in limbo forever. Sorry I kinda had to abandon it early on, but you can't really do much with a loud family + a new (super screechy) child, especially live. I'm just happy to see that it was in good hands and is doing much better now.

I never got a "retired staff" thing on my profile despite technically being staff for a short while for the reading thing that was (is?) happening smh

hey so it turns out horse cartoon is still fun and enjoyable

probably gonna finish later

Alright. What is it? Why do I always miss all this? I keep missing my time in this fandom and this site. It'll never be the same! I don't get it! I know I can never truly go back. I know that if I finish watching the show today I wouldn't enjoy it like I used to. I know that coming here doesn't mean I get any of my friends back. I'm never ever going to have even a similar experience if I try. So why? Why think about it so much? What's the point? It's over. I've been forgotten here. There's no enjoyment to be had. I actually tried coming back here some time ago because I miss it. Shit, I don't even know why I came here to type this. Nostalgia? Is that all? Why's it so strong?

Every time I think about my time here, on this forum or just in the fandom, it's nothing but good. I loved it. Why did I even leave? No idea. I think it was depression, honestly. But then... that leaving was somehow final? I'm better now. So why can't I enjoy it again? Is it because I'm older? If so, why do I keep wanting to be back? It's not like I'm old here anyway. I'm only 19.

I don't know. I don't know what it is. It's not even something I think about a lot. But whenever I do I miss it. I guess this time it was enough to even bring me to log in to this site again. Maybe it'll be enough to get me to actually watch season 9. I'm thinking about it, but is it worth the effort? I don't know. Even my girlfriend who was never into the show as much as I was has finished it. Why can't I?

I just don't know. I'll try again, I guess. I'll try watching it. Maybe come back here again if I feel like it. Who knows? Maybe finishing the series will get me motivated enough to try.

Edit: Y'know, I don't really know why I bothered writing this. Maybe someone will read it? Idk. But I'm probably gonna do the same thing as always: get super nostalgic and then just disappear.

haha epic cool i can't manage my job so i'm quitting haaa

yet another reason clod is a failure

i swear this place fucks me up somehow

i leave early in the year and days later everything magically starts being good

i come back and my life is falling apart again

What's this? A day where the heat won't burn me alive? Impossible.

Looks like autumn really is almost here. Can't wait.