Silent_Storm

1. Being Alone - not in a short-term way, but eventually ending up one of those people who lives alone and has no one who checks on them or who gives a damn about what happens to them. 2. Being a disappointment - I worry that I am never going to be good enough to impress my parents... or anyone else. That I will just be mediocre and a disappointment. 3. Having an accident that leaves me paralyzed, but leaves my mind unharmed... so, being trapped in a useless body and having to depend on other people. Not being able to communicate that I wish to die rather than live incapacitated.

Ahhhh, romance... Kisses, hugs, cuddles... flowers for no reason at all...the old-fashioned "down-on-one-knee" proposal... Knowing even if you fight, you'll make up. That you can and are willing to compromise. Knowing someone well enough to know that there are things you aren't going to see eye-to-eye on, but you respect the other person enough to try and come to an agreement. Being able to trust that your special someone will be true to you, being able to have an unwavering faith that even if they occasionally look at someone else that it's out of a general appreciation for beauty and not because they are looking to stray. Honesty, even if it hurts sometimes. Loyalty, even when times are difficult. A deep-seated knowing that you are willing to fight for what you've got.

Thank you for the warm welcome, everyone.

I'm in a long-term relationship with someone I am very much in love with. I'm not sure if we'll ever get married, but I envision us being together for the rest of our lives, even if we're not married. I don't like to think about a future that doesn't include him.

Growing up I was always the kid who didn't get Valentine's on Valentine's Day (it didn't used to be mandatory to give one to everyone), the last picked for any kind of sports, ate lunch alone EVERY day and was subjected daily to physical and emotional violence (pushed down stairs, spit on, called horrible names). My Mother used to accuse me of being different on purpose (years later she told me she had finally realized that I really don't TRY to be different on purpose).just to get attention. Honestly, though, I always just wanted to be left alone & invisible if people couldn't/wouldn't be nice to me. As an adult I deal daily with horrible social anxiety. I have managed to hold a job but found myself still eating lunch alone all the time and not ever really finding friends or groups I fit in with. Most of the time I don't mind but sometimes I feel really lonely. I don't know if I will ever really find a place I fit in/belong. I am grateful for the few friends I DO have and just try to make the best of things.

My Favourite Mane 6 Pony: Fluttershy How did you find MLP Forums?: Overwhelming curiousity + not wanting to be left out/wanting to belong. How you became a fan of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic: My Best Friend. I'm not at all good with introductions and am naturally very introverted but thought I'd take a try at joining forums to meet people with shared/similar interests. I think it'd be nice to find a community I can actually fit in with, even if only a little.