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I'm confused. There, I said it. I know that there's something, yet... I just don't know. My tears began to dry up, it was less time than usual. We have to get going, but I need to get this certained through, I don't know if he knows anything about me. I wanted to get this done... for.. for.. the good of the ponies here. I want to get... you know what screw it, I can't think anymore. I'm just consumed by anything that I'm holding or looking at right now. I felt his chest, his blood and... his warmth. I felt something.. warm, come up from my chest... it was warm and felt uplifting, I... felt... happy? I felt warm inside, there were bubbles dragging themselves up, I felt good! I felt like I was a being part of something. I feel... love... My face, felt red. I felt nothing I've felt before! I... I didn't know what to do, I wanted to get going though, but I knew I wanted to give a sweet goodbye too, you know, for now. It's not like I'm leaving him. I lifted my head up, I wiped my tears on his Coat. Then face, blushing more than ever before, gave him a small kiss on the cheek. Then I was, well embarrased, but... ehm... tried to keep it in, so I just walked, looking behind be quite often on the way to the shack.

I... I don't know what to think... I'm feeling all sorts of emotions... I feel like I'm both horrible and lucky at the same time. I wanted to hurt Caprisha for that... but I don't know anymore... I felt almost ultimately calm. With his hooves covering me, looking at me with almost steel eyes. Yet to me those eyes were soft to me, they felt calming. They almost reminded me of my mother... She also had Steel eyes... I just can't hold my fears and sadness anymore. Instead of leaving it till tonight, I looked into his eyes a little more, tears starting to come down, I felt happy and torn. I just need a hug. I need somepony. I, then crying all out now, threw my hooves around him, holding him tightly, holding him... crying... I felt weird... it didn't feel as if it was friendship, but... more, no not Comraderie, but more... Much, much more. Something that I would attack a friend for. Something I would risk myself over. Something I would die for. I gave my heart out, the tears of mine, hitting his coat like peices of myself being melted onto him. I wanted to be able to make things all better now, I wanted to, but now I just want to stay here... with this... I didn't care what my other side says, I feel more for him. I then sputtered out during my tears, "I-I'm so sorry, Caiesm, I thought you were going to..." I felt the Wound on him back, "Die..." I knew it, I needed somepony, and I wasn't going to let that somepony die. Not over my life...

I... am pleasantly surprised by Caiesm walking away. I knew something was right about him. As he walked, I looked behind me, seeing to see if Libby was alright... and to check on the mad Caprisha, I could see. I saw nothing really terribly wrong, other than Libby scared and Caprisha pissed. I saw Caiesm, it's weird, am I getting like this so quickly? This is... intriguing. I then looked back at Libby to try to comfort her, when horror shot me, I saw Caprisha... She levitated a knife... She threw it... at the direction of Caiesm. I... I knew that she was throwing it at him. And what I hated the most? I couldn't do anything about it. I saw the Blade impact, my fears coming back, my hatred creeping back, I felt saddness, I felt Anger, I felt Rage. I was forced to push my body for retaliation... retaliation for a knife in the back. A knife that was to one that had backed down. I stood up... enraged by the action. Of Course I know her intentions, but my rage bubbled by that... I couldn't feel as if I could care. I ran at her, I tackled her, I pinned her. I wanted pay back but I knew this wasn't right. NO! She hurt him, she should! NO! She was just mad! ARGH!! I hate my Mind sometimes. When I tackled her, I spoke this things with such anger, such rage, such hate, that I didn't even know I could produce from something. I said, "You just threw a knife at his Back, HE WAS BACKING OFF!!" I remember my Rifle, to make sure she won't grab it, I held it in place by Magic.

All that was happening around. From completly blurry to precise and Clear. I was worried, I caught everything happening. The stillness, the tenseness, the threats, the smell, the sweat, the fear. I knew I must try something to stop this. I immediatly thought of my Rifle. I pointed it to the Sky, the sound of it must snap them. Knowing for sure, about how he was, he was going to fight. "STOP IT!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, the most I can do. I knew that I have to try everything. I.. I must. I ran up to where Caiesm was bein held, I pushed his, not enough to hurt, but enough to push him out of the Magical Grasp. I then talked to him, in a pleading manner, "Please... Stop... Don't hurt anypony..." I finally shed a tear, the emotions, coming back to me. Losing loved ones, however new they were, were still loved, I NEVER want to lose anypony more. This Wasteland has had too much Blood, too many stabbed backs, too many weeping widows. Too much death. I MUST Stop this. I said again, in a more whimpering manner to Caiesm, "Please... No more pain.." During the sentence, placing my tender hoof on his hardened one, "Please..."

I noticed her voice, more innocent than anypony I've met before. I was then torn out from my previous... disposition. I softened my face, remembering why I'm here. I am here for the Innocent, for the weak, for the ones that can't withstand the wastes. I felt both inspired and still sadened, by the previous action given. To my Amazment and horror, Caiesm awoke. He must be dazed, I'm sure of it, although he is tough, I'm not to sure. I stood up, with a stare at him that would strike comfort to most. I put my tail around his Hindleg, then released it, meaning to make him look in my direction. "A-Are you Ok? Do you need some rest or somthing?" Then looking back at the Mare, libby, holding her vintage firearm at Caiesm. "Eh.. Can you stop that please? That's probably the reason he attacked ya" I looked away, again looking at him, then remembering about this whole fiasco, turned back to her, "Ehm... I'm sorry, about this whole thing, by the way. I bet he meant it for the better, that gun there's dangerous." Then looking back at him, head more close, looking into his eyes, Whispering, "A-Are you Ok?"

I... I couldn't think... I couldn't know what was happening here... I felt as if there was a grenade that exploded next to me, but hasn't put shrapnel in me. All I could think of was Caiesm, there, lying helpless and near-dead on the floor. *sigh* I need to get my mind straight, I shook my head. I needed to get this out of my head, this... this confusion. This... Dead feeling... of remorse floating around my now vacant mind. I... NO! I need to stop... NO! He must be helped... NO! I must help the Stable pony... ARGH!!! I collapsed, almost as Caiesm did just before. I, still paralysed, crawled up to him, painfully. "Caiesm... A-Are you Ok?" I then, laying next to him, spoke to the Stable Mare, "Why... are you here and what is your name... I see that you're happy... Now..."

Then, after a loud, yet faded shout. I heard a plea for help in that scream, a... scared scream. I would be scared too, but I knew better than to yell it out loud. Although, I knew that fighting and trying to kill isn't the right way to do this. I knew I had to end this. I bolted, how ever slow, compared to Caiesm, who was bolting with Rage. I knew my Attempts won't work, although I kept trying, I have to keep trying, I can't fail. I chased, even to the point to where I saw Caprisha appear on top of the Figure. I knew he wanted to kill it. I kept running, and running. I tried as hard as I could to yell at him to stop, or to try Diplomacy, but I knew that it flew over his head like RadRoaches over Tom. Anyhoof, I knew that things won't end well. While I was galloping, I saw Caiesm Tackle Caprisha, and to my astonished eyes, it was a Stable Pony, those were a rare kind of ponies in the wastes, Last time I saw one was when I freed one that was a slave. She was broken, couldn't see or know what was really happening on in the wasteland. Only consumed by Fear and Curiosity. Snapped back into my focus of the surrounding, time nearly froze. I found a Small Trunk of old Wood, I can't, yet I had to. I grabbed the trunk in this almost Lucid Dream event. I knew what was going to come, I needed to though. I hit him in the side, knocking him down, himself knocked unconscious from the sudden blow. Myself, tired and winded said remorsefully, "I-I... I'm sorry... Caiesm" I then looked up to the Stable pony and said one word, "Why..."

I, in my sad displeasure, felt a tug on my back. I was going to look back and see what was being done with it... but... I was drawn away by Caprisha, her eyes trying to peirce mine. Although I was still worried what happened to it, I wanted to have it back with me. I was abbout to speak to her, I wanted although to get my rifle, yet I felt she needed a talk aswell. I opened my mouth, about to speak. My words were instead cut off by a .308 being shot off. I knew it was a .308 because it was the same sound the rung as I fired my rifle. I immediatly turned around, in a worrisome and recovering posture walked up to him. I ripped the rifle from his telekinetic grips, putting it in mine. I was about to talk, when I traced his eyes in a general direction, and I saw a figure, a Silouette was appearing. I knew it, T-That must be the reason he was going away, i-it must have been! It must have! I-I don't really have another choice that would make me happy, I hope...

I... I was feeling crushed inside... All the time we've spent... All the memories we've shared... and I felt... Horrible. All I did was stop and slam my plot into the dirt, staring at Caiesm in disbelief. All I did was stare... sad and less hopeful than before. I noticed that there was a pony next to me, Caprisha. She wanted to talk to me, I just don't know anymore. I didn't know anything. All I knew was trading and some things about Guns. I gave sad, disheartened reply to Caprisha, "Yes? What do you want?" My face and head, now filled now with mourn and morose, looked in Caiesm's direction. My heart feeling mislead, Feeling... Hard...

I stood in confusion as Caiesm went off in rage and Caprisha ranting questions. I was stuck staring at Caiesm, in part sadness and gladness. I knew that something about him changed, I knew that he could be good. Wait, I am I really getting this into me? Eh... Anyways, I was broken from my trance, by a Question Ranting Caprisha. Oh no, did I not listen to her? Although I knew what she might have been asking about, as am I. "Ehm... You're still outside of the Shack, Prisha, You're just looking the wrong way" Not moving at all, just... still staring at him. I told myself to stop, although I didn't, I just kept watching him walking... and walking. I wanted to go with him, instead of him wanting to follow me and the caravan. I... I felt complied to... Although I knew that he was hot-headed at the moment, but still... I wanted to. I then turned my head slightly to Caprisha, not leaving my eyes from Caiesm's backside. "Eh... D-Do you mind asking me those questions later? I-I've gotta do somethin'" I then sped from a small trot, to a trot, to a full on Gallop, to catch up to him, although slowing down as I got closer. "H...Hi Caiesm, what happened over there?"

I was in complete awe in what was happening in front of me. Especially after Caprisha disapeared with all their stuff in the Dust and dirt. I knew that: 1. Caiesm's Sword is important to him and 2. Their Stuff are on the floor. I immediatly jumped from my sitting and waiting position on the bed. I grabbed Caiesm's Sword and ran out in panic, I knew something might be wrong, I knew something may happen. I galloped out, making sure I had the Sword in my telekinetic Grasps. I had to- Ah, there they are outside of the shack... On top of eachother... Naked... Ehm... It must be for something else. I trotted over, thankful that they weren't somwhere else in the wastes, although I was hoping before that one would be in the shack with me, but what ever. When I finally slowed my Gallop down to a small walk when I was infront of them. "Eh... Guys, are you ok, did anything bad happen." I then realized my clasp on his sword I fastened it to his Waist. "Here's your sword, I picked it up from inside"

@@Charcoal Embers @@Aerodynas That was the best sleep I've ever had. I felt warm in his hold. When I pulled his hoof over, he didn't hold back, he didn't let go. I made sure that it was going to last. I wanted it to, I've never felt like this in a long time. I wanted to ha- GAHH!! Oh Shit, Caprisha's here! I immediatly was jerked awake, in fear and in embarrassment of her. I then backed up to the wall, the wall shaking. I then, having blush on me the entire time, I stuttered out "I-It's not what you think, I-I was just lonely." I then saw Caiesm, who pounced up before me and tackled her with his Sword. "Stop! She didn't do that much bad" I then got down, still remnants of Blush on face, tapped his shoulder and motioned back to the bed, and whispered in his ear "It's ok, I'm here for you"

I felt myself blush like a wildfire was on my face as he slowly got into bed. My emotions, although childish, were skyhigh. I looked back... and... I was a little disapointed. I guess he didn't want to touch me? Well... I'll just have to change that. I then used my horn and telekinetically moved him to me and put him hoof over my side. I knew why he didn't want to. I knew he had a hard past, but I also knew that he had to move on. I knew it wasn't going to be all in one swift move, although I knew it had to be taken in steps. I wanted him to feel as if he could trust me. ========================================================================================== The Colt: Leaf The Colt heard some noise, the sound of a big pony getting up. He then had gotten up, his enhanced vision kicking in. He saw the mare, alone. He knew how it felt, so in an act of kindness, he silently trotted to her. He laid down an laid his tired head on her Hoof as she was also falling asleep END OF DAY

I was wishing for him to come in, I have wanted him to sleep in bed with me. Of course not sexually, but in a more... intimate. Not just for the feel of sex, I hate it for that, it reminds me of my slave days... I want it to- Nevermind I never should have thought of it. Anyways, when he entered the shack in the dim, dank light. I could sense fear, although I knew it was only from nervousness, I think. When she unsheathed his sword, and myself faking to be asleep. When he said my name, I popped out of my fake slumber and said as a whisper, "I want you to sleep with me, silly." I thought about what I just said, and tried to repair it the most I could, "Ehm... I mean to... Eh... I mean to sleep next to me on this bed... you... uh... Yeah..." I was actually nervous, and to somepony that I was getting attached to, which was odd in it's way that he was too. I then made room, and then started to curl up in a fetal position, a position I did to make more room, of course I was going to stretch when he got in. I think...

When I finally got Tom to stop chasing that Goddess forsaken Radroach, well anyone would stop when somone tugs on your tail. Anyways, I finally got him back, I put a stake down, and hammered it with a Rock. When my eyes set back to the rest of the group where they were before. I was confused, why was she next to him, when she had openly had disgust for him. I dunno, although, there was an open bed... and I'm starting to get a liking to somepony. I walked over to him and nudged him with my nuzzle. I then motioned to the shack, I then walked back into the Shack and went into the bed. I then started to try to fall asleep, although wanting him to join in aswell. What's with me and the change of heart, I thought deeply.

My eyes were wide and darting between the two ponies faces. I wanted to stay loyal, and stay by his side, but I also wanted to make Caprisha not feel left out and do the massage. I really didn't want to get this wrong, but I'll do it anyways. "Ehm... Caprisha can ya please save that for a different time, I'm sorry, but it seems he dosen't wanna do it anymore." I looked at Caiesm again, caringly. I hoped that was the right way. I looked to the sky, pitch black. Like under a blanket. I knew we had to hit the hay. "Eh... Caiesm, Caprisha... We might need to go to bed. It's getting dark." I checked back on Tom, who again was getting into trouble. I started to walk to him, when I remembered the others, I looked back and said, "Ya guys should go to bed, I'll catch up with you guys later" I then continued to walk to Tom, who was trying to chase a RadRoach. I muttered to myself, "Not again..."

When I saw him dart up, I was scared and glad, surprisingly. He looked as if he's seen a ghost, but I guess he saw Caprisha's hooves, I guess I can't blame him. Then I had an Idea, an Idea that may feel quite good. "Hey Caprisha? C-Can you do me next. I'm feeling a bit stressed." I looked at Caiesm, a remembrance of what happened before. I knew it would mess with his mind, I really don't want him to feel bad, although, neither did I want Caprisha to feel bad as well. I wanted to make them both happy while the other would be haply as well. I decided, I'm finally going to do it, I'm going to pick sides. Why did I say those words. "Eh... Nevermind, I'm good, just make him feel good ok?" Somehow, I felt my heart drop and felt guilty for choosing him. I knew she wanted something from me, I knew she had feelings, but she's never wanted to share them and be caring...

Wow, how did he get these goods, they were tied on the back of him. Meh, anyways I pushed his heads away and took away the food bag. Luckily he was just trying to unsuccessfully tried to eat a can of sealed hay. While I was getting the rope tied up to the saddle, I overheard the conversation that Caprisha was having with Caiesm. I didn't mind him liking the Massage, I probably would to. But the thing that messed with my mind, is that he thinks that I'm just a lesbian, I ain't, I'm Bi. After I was done tying the rope down, I walked over to the two, albeit a trot. When I got there I felt the heat of both the dying fire and the heat of embarrassment. It also struck my face as well. I then, with caution, sat next to Caiesm. Although, not as close. I whispered into his ear, "I like stallions too, you know, I really do." I knew I needed to get that out to straighten out things. I then literally straightened up and looked towards Caprisha saying, "Is there something you need, Caprisha?"

I felt weird, a feeling that I haven't felt in nearly... Ever, from what I've felt. I heard him change the topic and... I knew exactly what he was meaning, "heh, nah, I just sometimes get mad and it makes me better at fighting, although don't think I like it." I then had an OMG moment. He. Was. Holding my hoof! Eeek! I immediately blushed. I then put my other hoof on his and started to cuddle. Or at least from what I remember how to cuddle. I dug my head into his dark, furry shoulder, rubbing it in. Oooh yeah this felt good. "It's ok, Caiesm, I won't bite." I then started to rest more, to feel warmer, not only physically, but emotionally as well. Then my trance was broken when I saw Caprisha walked out, oh shit. I knew she was sad, I felt so guilty. I felt that I've put a knife into her heart and watched her bleed out. I popped my head out from Caiesm, looking at her with a guilty face. She then pointed her face to Tom, who was, indeed, eating some of our food. I ran to stop it.

I had felt him come closer and the moment coming to a climax. I felt as if the moment can be split in two. I knew I had to reply with something deep from my heart. I remember him talking about Flower, the mare he, from what I felt from his words, cared alot. "I've experienced a Similar thing, you know." I gave a deep breath, tried to stop my tearing. I again laid my head upon his head and brought out my hunting rifle and put it infront of him. "I was once on a caravan route before and there was a mare that I had been dating and had cared for a few months." I made a glance at Caiesm, making sure that he knows this was in the past aswell. " She was a caravan guard, she was tasked to protect us while we were delivering to a small gated community, not far from apploosa. I was with her the entire trip, well most of it, sadly. 'Bout half way, outside the town of Apploosa, She was shot, in the head, right next to me. Blood splattered over me soaking my coat." I was starting to have a sneer in my face, " I looked to my left where she had Once stood, and I saw raiders laughin... And hollerin... And happy that they killed her. Like she was a game animal. I then..." I slowly referenced the hunting rifle at Caiesm's hooves, "I theb used her Hunting Rifle... To kill them all. I killed 10 raiders with a single hunting rifle, I was fueled by rage and greif." I began to rub my head into Caiesm's shoulder. The thought of him right there made me feel safer. "I then buried her, near the road. I had to bury her!" I then tried to calm myself. "and when we did get to that community, it was really just a slave camp. I killed the slaver at the gates and I killed the slavers inside the gates. I still feel conscious of those deaths and the ones of the raiders too, but they were harm to ponies and I couldn't let that happen. When we walked through the gates of the compound, I saw that they had many slaves. Ranging from fillies to fully grown mares. All of them like that colt you were with outside. That! Is why I tried to help him. And seeing from him being so peaceful, you do to" I loomed Caiesm in the face again, this time with more sincereness and love, "I know there is good in you, I know that you can care, I know you can love..." I had felt him come closer and the moment coming to a climax. I felt as if the moment can be split in two. I knew I had to reply with something deep from my heart. I remember him talking about Flower, the mare he, from what I felt from his words, cared alot. "I've experienced a Similar thing, you know." I gave a deep breath, tried to stop my tearing. I again laid my head upon his head and brought out my hunting rifle and put it infront of him. "I was once on a caravan route before and there was a mare that I had been dating and had cared for a few months." I made a glance at Caiesm, making sure that he knows this was in the past aswell. " She was a caravan guard, she was tasked to protect us while we were delivering to a small gated community, not far from apploosa. I was with her the entire trip, well most of it, sadly. 'Bout half way, outside the town of Apploosa, She was shot, in the head, right next to me. Blood splattered over me soaking my coat." I was starting to have a sneer in my face, " I looked to my left where she had Once stood, and I saw raiders laughin... And hollerin... And happy that they killed her. Like she was a game animal. I then..." I slowly referenced the hunting rifle at Caiesm's hooves, "I theb used her Hunting Rifle... To kill them all. I killed 10 raiders with a single hunting rifle, I was fueled by rage and greif." I began to rub my head into Caiesm's shoulder. The thought of him right there made me feel safer. "I then buried her, near the road. I had to bury her!" I then tried to calm myself. "and when we did get to that community, it was really just a slave camp. I killed the slaver at the gates and I killed the slavers inside the gates. I still feel conscious of those deaths and the ones of the raiders too, but they were harm to ponies and I couldn't let that happen. When we walked through the gates of the compound, I saw that they had many slaves. Ranging from fillies to fully grown mares. All of them like that colt you were with outside. That! Is why I tried to help him. And seeing from him being so peaceful, you do to" I loomed Caiesm in the face again, this time with more sincereness and love, "I know there is good in you, I know that you can care, I know you can love..."

I Felt my heart began to ache more than before, listening to this Stallion's story. To have one that is so different, yet so the same. To hear how he's murdered, and seen murder, But I being on the receiving end. I knew what he felt. When I saw his sadness Stricken face, mine melted at the sight. "I know, and know, that even though you were a type of pony that killed my parents and ruined mine, I forgive you. I just don't want anymore hatred in this goddess forsaken,world." I looked into his Eyes with compassion, "know that whatever you say is,safe with me. I guess now its time share my story is it?" I straightened up and sit next to him a little better. "When I was a filly, I had two parents, I've forgotten their names but I did not forget the time on a trail on that fateful day... That was the Day my father was killed by raiders and Slavers attacking our caravan." My eyes were wide, as Caiesm Was doing Before. "My father and the rest of stallions in the caravan were killed, they turned all the Mares and children to slaves." I then turned my flank to show that my flanks have been seared and branded, proof of being a slaver. "They took my mother and raped her repeatedly. Until she couldn't anymore, so they killed her. Infront of me" I shed a single tear, then laid my head on Caiesm. "The blood at my hooves, my only family left killed like something that's to be thrown away." I gave a deep breath, then another tear. "And then I was next, I was next to br raped and made a sex slave. I was made to have sex with many, but over the years, I grew resentment. While I was just a filly." I began to have more and more tears, my throat beginning to choke up. "I then went into a session, as we named them, I did my things, and after getting beaten. I found a guitar on the wall of the little wooden shack I was in. I encased it with telekinesis and started to strum," I made a hallow laughter, "It was beautiful, music, hope, love. Though, I've gotten a cutie mark, and the camp rules were if a slave gets its cutie mark, they get a Brand." I rubbed my flank, remembering being watched and the feeling of flame and searing flesh. "I then knew I had to get out, so when I went into my next session, I snuck in an ecstasy pill into it and slipped it in his mouth. I then basically told him to unfasten my Boom Collar. The..." I winced, "then I pulled the Slavers shotgun from under his bed and shot him in the head, exploding it. Blood and guts spilling on me. I didn't care I ran"

I couldn't belive I, just did that. To act so foolish, so awful to that Stallion, Caiesm. I kept sobbing and crying my heart out. I knew it wasn't going to help, but it helped me over it. That or getting drunk, and I already knew that wasn't an option. As I, was out there, softly muttering apologies in sadness. And about when I felt strong enough to stand up and go inside to face everpony, I saw Caiesm. He, he told me to shut up, to throw away why I was doing such. I knew I needed.to talk to him, to tell him what I think. As I was about to bring my mouth open to speak, my throat croaked at first making an ugly sound. Second attempt was Better, I finally spoke. "You do know... That care is the one thing this wasteland needs. But instead of wanting making love and care spread, the ponies these wastes throw it away, and say it has no use." I started to cry more, spilling my heart and showing it was harder than I thought. "Care and love is what saved me from total damnation. I walked and walked as a remorseless drunk... I was able to see what care was! I saw good ponies, come from the side of the road... They saved me, by showing me love and care... And that is one of the thing I forgot here tonight." I started to sob once again, more than, when the moment begun. "I wanted to show care, if not love. I know you are hard outside, but you shouldn't be so 'round us. I wanna care. I need you to. To break away And show me you..." I slowly walked up to him, as he was sitting next to the shack, leaning upon it. I sat down beside him, making sure to give space. "You know I would forgive you if you did anything wrong to me. The only thing is... Is that I can't forgive myself..." THIS IS JUNK,FROM OVER POSTING DONT READ I couldn't belive I, just did that. To act so foolish, so awful to that Stallion, Caiesm. I kept sobbing and crying my heart out. I knew it wasn't going to help, but it helped me get over it. That or getting drunk, and I already knew that wasn't an option. As I, was out there, softly muttering apologies in sadness. And about when I felt strong enough to stand up and go inside to face everpony, I saw Caiesm. He, he told me to shut up, to throw away why I was doing such. I knew I needed.to talk to him, to tell him what I think. As I was about to bring my mouth open to speak, my throat croaked at first making an ugly sound. Second attempt was Better, I finally spoke. "You do know... That care is the one thing this wasteland needs. But instead of wanting making love and care spread, the ponies these wastes throw it away, and say it has no use." I started to cry more, spilling my heart and showing it was harder than I thought. "Care and love is what saved me from total damnation. I walked and walked as a remorseless drunk... I was able to see what care was! I saw good ponies, come from the side of the road... They saved me, by showing me love and care... And that is one of the thing I forgot here tonight." I started to sob once again, more than, when the moment begun. "I wanted to show care, if not love. I know you are hard outside, but you shouldn't be so 'round us. I wanna care. I need you to. To break away And show me you..." I slowly walked up to him, as he was sitting next to the shack, leaning upon it. I sat down beside him, making sure to give space. "You know I would forgive you if you did anything wrong to me. The only thing is... Is that I can't forgive myself..." I couldn't belive I, just did that. To act so foolish, so awful to that Stallion, Caiesm. I kept sobbing and crying my heart out. I knew it wasn't going to help, but it helped me get over it. That or getting drunk, and I already knew that wasn't an option. As I, was out there, softly muttering apologies in sadness. And about when I felt strong enough to stand up and go inside to face everpony, I saw Caiesm. He, he told me to shut up, to throw away why I was doing such. I knew I needed.to talk to him, to tell him what I think. As I was about to bring my mouth open to speak, my throat croaked at first making an ugly sound. Second attempt was Better, I finally spoke. "You do know... That care is the one thing this wasteland needs. But instead of wanting making love and care spread, the ponies these wastes throw it away, and say it has no use." I started to cry more, spilling my heart and showing it was harder than I thought. "Care and love is what saved me from total damnation. I walked and walked as a remorseless drunk... I was able to see what care was! I saw good ponies, come from the side of the road... They saved me, by showing me love and care... And that is one of the thing I forgot here tonight." I started to sob once again, more than, when the moment begun. "I wanted to show care, if not love. I know you are hard outside, but you shouldn't be so 'round us. I wanna care. I need you to. To break away And show me you..." I slowly walked up to him, as he was sitting next to the shack, leaning upon it. I sat down beside him, making sure to give space. "You know I would forgive you if you did anything wrong to me. The only thing is... Is that I can't forgive myself..." I couldn't belive I, just did that. To act so foolish, so awful to that Stallion, Caiesm. I kept sobbing and crying my heart out. I knew it wasn't going to help, but it helped me get over it. That or getting drunk, and I already knew that wasn't an option. As I, was out there, softly muttering apologies in sadness. And about when I felt strong enough to stand up and go inside to face everpony, I saw Caiesm. He, he told me to shut up, to throw away why I was doing such. I knew I needed.to talk to him, to tell him what I think. As I was about to bring my mouth open to speak, my throat croaked at first making an ugly sound. Second attempt was Better, I finally spoke. "You do know... That care is the one thing this wasteland needs. But instead of wanting making love and care spread, the ponies these wastes throw it away, and say it has no use." I started to cry more, spilling my heart and showing it was harder than I thought. "Care and love is what saved me from total damnation. I walked and walked as a remorseless drunk... I was able to see what care was! I saw good ponies, come from the side of the road... They saved me, by showing me love and care... And that is one of the thing I forgot here tonight." I started to sob once again, more than, when the moment begun. "I wanted to show care, if not love. I know you are hard outside, but you shouldn't be so 'round us. I wanna care. I need you to. To break away And show me you..." I slowly walked up to him, as he was sitting next to the shack, leaning upon it. I sat down beside him, making sure to give space. "You know I would forgive you if you did anything wrong to me. The only thing is... Is that I can't forgive myself..." I couldn't belive I, just did that. To act so foolish, so awful to that Stallion, Caiesm. I kept sobbing and crying my heart out. I knew it wasn't going to help, but it helped me get over it. That or getting drunk, and I already knew that wasn't an option. As I, was out there, softly muttering apologies in sadness. And about when I felt strong enough to stand up and go inside to face everpony, I saw Caiesm. He, he told me to shut up, to throw away why I was doing such. I knew I needed.to talk to him, to tell him what I think. As I was about to bring my mouth open to speak, my throat croaked at first making an ugly sound. Second attempt was Better, I finally spoke. "You do know... That care is the one thing this wasteland needs. But instead of wanting making love and care spread, the ponies these wastes throw it away, and say it has no use." I started to cry more, spilling my heart and showing it was harder than I thought. "Care and love is what saved me from total damnation. I walked and walked as a remorseless drunk... I was able to see what care was! I saw good ponies, come from the side of the road... They saved me, by showing me love and care... And that is one of the thing I forgot here tonight." I started to sob once again, more than, when the moment begun. "I wanted to show care, if not love. I know you are hard outside, but you shouldn't be so 'round us.

"Hey, Caprisha, feeling good? Well I should really be asking Caiesm!" I then walked over to the almost paralyzed Caiesm and said, "So, do you wanna drink now?" I then, not even realizing it, slipped the half the bottle in his mouth. The contents pouring out. When I did realize it, things snapped when I pieced together that we were actually doing more harm to him, than fun. I can't know what or how it did, but it broke my almost rampant trance. Broken back on what just happened, I tore the bottle from his throat. He was hurting. I then began to tear, as to realize the horrible and mindless things I've done in this narcotic state. I then muttered a single line while crying, "I'm sorry..." I then trotted out the door and sat near the campfire and laid down, crying, not even noticing the sound asleep colt on the floor. I, while still trying to understand and take in all that we've been doing to him, laid my head on my uneasy hooves. I said with a whimper, "I-I-I sorry..."

I started to blush even more on that comment, why I wasn't stopping myself? I don't know anymore. "So you're sayin' that we're not friends? Why don't we change that, you know. The old fashioned way." I started to drink more when in mid-Drink, I saw the same thing that she has, Caiesm. I laughed, "Come on! Come and get a drink, I won't bite..." I giggled," Well, at least I won't" Giving a wink to Caprisha. I then grabbed his tail, to stop him, if he tried to run and dragged him into the shack. "Come on, don't think we don't know that there's a gem in there." I then uncorked his bottle and Said with a grand yell, "BOTTLES UP!!" ========================================================================================== The Colt: Leaf ZZZZzzzzzz Ponies...

I heard her say those words, but I don't know if it was the alcohol in my system or that she was drunk, but her words sounded silky in my ears. Also feeling myself blush, not wanting to hide it now. "So, I wondered what a dazzlin' of a mare was doing in here" I gave a good natured laugh. She's startin' to show a side on her, a funny one. I also started to melt inside, the bars that keep me in this place. "Hey, so..." I started to eye up, leaning onto the bed, still drinking somehow, "Whatcha you wanna do? Wit' me I mean. I've seen you've been sad when I slipped up at the Post" I looked at her, winking, and said in a fun voice, "Whatcha want from me?" ========================================================================================================== The Colt: Leaf He was happy, but all of a sudden tired again. It may be the Night tightening it's grip on the wasteland. He started to yawn again, leaned in on Caiesm, and said, "Thank you, Caiesm, thank you for everything. You should act like this to your marefriend..." He then doozed off into sleep mid-sentence. He then had a deep sleep. The deepest sleep he's ever had.