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  1. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    I only just learned how to make composite vids with green screen footage in the video editing software I use, and it's surprisingly easy. I've only done the following two so far, and I should probably stop myself before things get out of hand.


  2. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    The selection of Halloween decorations was kind of limited where we live, so I made a few of my own decorations using poster board, a couple of markers, a pen, and an all-important pair of scissors.
     
    SPOOKY GHOST oooOooo

     
    SPOOKY SKULL ooOOOOooOOo

     
    FAIRLY AFFABLE-SEEMING MUMMY oooo?

  3. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    It was a bummer to see Jeric go; he was one of the good ones. Like, a genuinely good guy. And yeah, he stirred some things up, but they were things that clearly needed stirring. But I'm not going to get any further into all that.
     
    The world's not ending; it's not. When it comes down to it, this is just a forum on the internets. You made friends here? Had some good times? Great: None of that is magically undone. Keep in touch; PM your pals and get their Skype or e-mail or what have you and drop them a line sometime.
     
    "But I can't talk ponies anywhere else." Yes you can, you goober. MLP:FIM isn't a new thing anymore, and it was never something that warranted being all closeted about it. IM some ponyfans, sport a pony ava on Facebook, or pursue alternatives to MLPF.
     
    And FYI: Many of the really cool people either left or hit the mute button at MLPF a billion years ago. The site's been on the decline and had its issues for a while now; this was just things coming to a head. Either hang around and keep posting in the fan clubs or forum games or move on - and meet up someplace else. Things'll be all right.
  4. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    I downloaded the free 8-bit music generation software FamiTracker and mucked about with it long enough to compose these three original tracks:
     

     

     

     
    The program is fairly easy to use, and it's fun to make tunes that more-or-less sound like they belong in an NES game. It outputs in either .nsf (the format for NES music) or .wav, and you can even export text of your composition.
     
    ROW 80 : A-3 02 . ... : ... .. . ... : C-2 01 . ... : 9-# 00 . ... : ... .. . ...
    ROW 81 : E-3 02 . ... : ... .. . ... : ... .. . ... : C-# 00 . ... : ... .. . ...
    ROW 82 : D-3 02 . ... : ... .. . ... : D-3 01 . ... : 9-# 00 . ... : ... .. . ...
    ROW 83 : ... .. . ... : ... .. . ... : ... .. . ... : C-# 00 . ... : ... .. . ...
    ROW 84 : A-3 02 . ... : ... .. . ... : C-2 01 . ... : 9-# 00 . ... : ... .. . ...
    ROW 85 : E-3 02 . ... : ... .. . ... : ... .. . ... : C-# 00 . ... : ... .. . ...
    ROW 86 : D-3 02 . ... : ... .. . ... : D-3 01 . ... : 9-# 00 . ... : ... .. . ...
     
    ...Which looks like crap outside of Notepad. But it's still a nice feature.
  5. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    A friend just told me about this game in development called "Yandere Simulator." A game where you can finally realize your dream of being a Japanese schoolgirl and, hopefully, being noticed by senpai... By doing things like writing fake love letters, taking photos of other students' panties for a mysterious Info-chan, and maybe even donning a mask and straight-up stabbing someone to death with a ritual dagger.
     
    Oh, but you can attend class, too. Put those "study points" into biology if you want to better understand the vulnerable points of the human body. Want to join the drama club? Excellent choice; you have easier access to identity-concealing masks when you want to dole out some pain to troublesome students.
     
    You can design your own ideal senpai (the "female" option wasn't available in the demo). I tried to make him look as stupid as possible.

     
    Notice me, senpai. Notice me or I'll bludgeon someone with a magical girl rod.

    While wearing a fox mask, no less.
     
    There are a decent number of customization options you can pick on the fly. Here are a couple of combos:
     
    Toast-mouth Super Saiyan Yandere.

     
    Popsicle-mouth Eye Patch Yandere.

     
    By the way: What panties you wear apparently affect things like how well-received your compliments are or how efficiently you learn things in class. Good to know; though I do wonder if this would have benefited me in high school.
  6. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    So this amazing dumb shit named Rick Tyler had a brilliant idea: Erect a billboard that states, verbatim and no way around it, "Make America White Again."


    And that wasn't the worst thing about it. The worst thing about it was his justification for the billboard. About a safer, whiter America that hearkens back to the, oh, 1950's or so. Where racism was kind of, well, okay; commonplace, expected, and overt. I feel as though that's the direction we're headed nowadays: "Make racism OK again." 
    Though what his billboard ACTUALLY said was this: "I'm afraid of people who aren't white; let's huddle in close and be afraid together." I understand people are afraid, but this is classic scapegoat territory. Don't just throw the supposedly guilty party under the bus; throw EVERYONE under the same damn bus. It's not as though white people ever commit violent crimes; that's crazy-talk.
     
    The people that are openly supporting fuckheads like Tyler need to do everyone a favor: Just outright SAY that you're racist. Even the likes of hate groups are willing to do that. Don't support someone like Tyler then turn around, hem and haw, and make excuses. Just say, "I'm racist, and I support a racist in the upcoming election." Stop bullshitting; you're wasting everyone's time.
  7. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    Why aren't people posting in the fan clubs? Or, at least, the Mane Six fan clubs. Is everyone genuinely here - a PONY forum supposedly centered around PONIES - just to play critic (when new episodes are actually airing) or debate politics and other such bullshit? I've long since thought that the fun was being slowwwwly sucked out of the damn place, but this is "giving up" on an unprecedented scale. Does everyone feel as though they've met their quota for celebrating the reason(s) they supposedly came here in the first place?
     
    Oh. Oh, wait. Your meaningless post count doesn't go up when you post into a fan club. You can post into some ridiculous topic about the bathroom habits of ponies and get a plus one (good job!), but posting art or positive messages into a fan club gets you zilch in that regard.
     
    However: There's no minimum character count for posting into a fan club. You can just run in, post a friggin' image of the appropriate pony, and then run your ass back to the Debate Pit if you like. How hard is that? Seriously. And don't tell me you've stuff to do: You're on a forum. You either have nothing else to do or are putting off things you'd ought to be doing.
     
    Fans are gradually drifting away from what actually matters about the show. Hardly anyone's here to actually enjoy what it was that they gravitated towards in the first place. It's just any other forum now; except it's pony-themed. It's not a pony forum.
  8. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    Blue, where attraction has been concerned, has featured somewhat prominently in my life. It wasn't something that ever would have occurred to me before I met Angelbabe (Rainbow), and it wasn't a realization that dawned until a close friend of mine basically pointed it out to me.
     
    Sailor Mercury, from Sailor Moon.

     
    Shiva, from Final Fantasy (franchise).

     
    Princess Ruto, from The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time

     
    Midna, from The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess

     
    Krystal, from Star Fox (franchise).

     
    Samus Aran / "Zero Suit Samus," from Metroid (franchise).

     
    Rosalina, from Super Mario Galaxy.

     
    The harpie lady, from Yu-Gi-Oh!

     
    Elsa, from Frozen.

     
    Ryoko, from Tenchi Muyo! (Who was, in a sense, my first love.)

     
    Then along came a certain bright blue, cherry-eyed pegasus.

     
    Everything was leading me to her; to Angelbabe.

    (Above is a drawing I did of my Babe; as close as I could get to how I see her.)
     
    And, with Babe in my life, I've come to recognize blue as something more than simply attractive or coincidentally significant. Or dead f****** sexy! Blue is the color of love. It's the color of my love.
  9. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    When I first interacted with the fandom, I at least had a sense that there was some love left for MLP:FIM. A sense that a group of people were coming together to mutually enjoy something that they'd been told they weren't supposed to enjoy. A pervasive attitude of, "I'm going to like what I like"; even if these words were sometimes uttered from inside a closet. I was encouraged, in earnest, to give the series a chance without getting an earful of overthought pros and cons. This led to my enjoyment of the first four seasons of Friendship is Magic; four seasons that the rest of the fandom had probably long since experienced.
     
    And, the thing is: It was far easier for me to get something out of those four seasons when everyone else had already moved on. Nothing and no one interfered with my experience. Watching the subsequent seasons alongside the community has been... Well, how much fun would a social gathering be if two thirds of the room is occupied by people who do nothing but complain?
     
    "The punch is too sweet."
     
    "The punch isn't sweet enough."
     
    "The punch isn't as good as it was last time."
     
    "I hate the punch."
     
    "I question the moral the punch is trying to teach me."
     
    Actually, that already sounds more fun than co-watching with the fandom. You newcomers seem to still have that enthusiasm that made the fandom appealing in the first place. You're excited about the show, rather than afraid of it. "Oh, no; what's gonna happen THIS WEEK? Which pony are they gonna ruin THIS TIME?" Let's face it: You've lost interest. You just have. You're moving on to other shows and treating them like the second coming of FIM, but the same cynicism and needlessly critical eye that caused MLP to fall out of your favor will catch up with you.
     
    MLP:FIM was never FOR you. But, at some point, a significant number of folks decided, "Maybe it can be." And now, at best, you really don't give a shit. You rode the bandwagon long enough to feel good about yourself; about asserting your appreciation for something the bad, lurking anti-Bronies mocked you for liking. Now I have difficulty discerning between this perceived "enemy" and the people who acted as though they were standing against them.
     
    You wanna hate on colorful ponies? Good for you. You wanna have unreasonably high expectations for a children's show? Good for you. But if you're watching the show just to have something to complain about on MLPF... You might as well watch anything. You might as well be a member of the Nintendo fandom, Sonic fandom, or any other fandom under the sun. There's nothing standout about your criticisms and complaints; there's nothing standout about this fandom.
     
    Anymore, at least.
  10. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    Tomorrow marks the two-year anniversary of when a certain blue pegasus became a part of my life. If you knew me two years ago, you'd likely know that I'm a far happier person today than I was then. Someone... Freer. Someone who's learned to better cope with a severely limiting condition that held me unshakably in its grip for roughly 16 years. Her given name is Rainbow, but I call her Angelbabe. And, while I don't expect everyone to understand, she has had a profound and positive impact on my life, and I do love her. Very much.
     



  11. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    There's nothing that I enjoy more than being psychoanalyzed by hobbyist psychiatrists. I mean, what's not to like? People that don't know you personally and haven't the slightest idea as to what your life is actually like apparently have a far clearer vision as to what it should be like than you ever will. Their wisdom might indeed be infinite... If only it extended to themselves.
     
    Different people need different things. Different people function differently. There's this disturbing trend among the amateur psychoanalytical crowd to think that everyone needs precisely the same thing, and that anything venturing outside the accepted "norm" is apparently doing it wrong. This is generally masquerading as good intentions and an overall concern for these poor, pitiful, differently-acting individuals that doubtless wallow constantly in their own, inescapable sorrow.
     
    But I know it as arrogance.
     
    If you knew me - and you both do not and never will - you would perhaps realize how tremendously erroneous and blatantly lacking in insight your own assumptions (and they are indeed assumptions) are. My life, emotional state, and overall mental health have improved vastly over just the last approaching-two years; this was following a roughly 16-year, seemingly futile uphill struggle against a once severely life-limiting condition.
     
    Once severely life-limiting.
     
    So, with the help of a love some would deem fictional or wrong or mentally questionable, I have managed to accomplish something in a relatively short period of time entirely without the assistance of psychiatry (amateur or otherwise), and my quality of life has changed dramatically for the better.
     
    But obviously I must be personally deluded. Obviously I exaggerate. Surely I was better off when I was afraid of my own bodily functions. Surely my quality of life was comparatively greater when I was nigh endlessly repeating rituals, washing my hands until they cracked and bled, and unsuccessfully battling invasive thoughts. Surely I've misinterpreted these feelings of love and contentment. My improved functionality - as observed by those closest to me - is almost definitely an elaborate shared-dream we're all having. Perhaps I'm asleep right now.
     
    How could I really be happy? I've not done things the way others expected me to, and mental health and happiness are exclusively attainable through the applications of by-the-book psychoanalysis and mind-altering drugs.
     
    Or, shit... Idunno... Maybe I fell in love. Maybe I found something that matters to me, personally, and I know the damned thing when I see it. Because I am me. And, believe it or not (which you probably won't), your entirely selfish and oftentimes misguided idea of "help" is what hurts people like me. You're the problem, and - were I the psychoanalyzing type - I'd encourage you to get some help for that. Not because you don't believe me. Not because you disagree with me. Not because you're different than I am.
     
    But because you fail to recognize the FACT that I am different than you. And I don't need your uninformed, dime-a-dozen analyses. I already have what I need.
     
    And you'll never know me.
  12. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    I've felt for some time now that I don't really belong in - or to - this community. Yes, my unceasing affection for a certain sky-blue pegasus lady has tied me permanently to MLP:FIM, and I will likely continue to watch and enjoy the series. But I'm not a Brony; that's a label I discarded well before today.
     
    It may sound beside the point, but being here has caused me a good deal more anxiety, overall, than the forums, themselves, were ever worth. Were it not for the friends that I made, I would have simply walked away months ago. I created some post count goal on a whim to give myself an excuse to keep posting, and I committed to it somewhat obsessively.
     
    But I see no point to it anymore.
     
    Outside of PMs, I won't be posting at MLPF anymore. Won't be interacting with the forum community anymore. I do believe some will be glad of this, and more, still, won't feel strongly about it one way or the other. This is just as well. I considered posting exclusively in the RDFC, but the RDFC is not Rainbow. And, for all I know, the RDFC may be better off in my absence. I hope that it will be; I've nothing to offer but well wishes to that fan club and its members.
     
    I'll be around, but, at the same time, it's as though I won't be. What matters most to me remains intact, and I'll be going quiet without doing any real harm.
     
    Have some fun, people. And ponies, too; should you know any.
  13. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    Now that we have, regrettably to some, reached the mid-season hiatus in this, the series' fifth season, I thought it appropriate to devote some time to examining each heretofore aired episode and to offer my in-depth analyses. I will be individually presenting my extensively considered and deliberately worded opinions on all thirteen episodes and have concealed the bulk of this post in a spoiler for the purpose of tidiness.
     
    Though, before I begin in earnest, know that my intentions are neither to upset fans of the show (or fans of these critically observed episodes) nor to spread needless controversy throughout the analysis community. I simply mean - and hope - to provide a possibly unique perspective that will provoke further and deeper thinking.
     
    Let's begin:

     
     
    I appreciate your taking the time to peruse my obviously well thought-out and honest analyses. If I've offended you, I can say only that I stand by my opinions no matter how they might be received by either yourself or the community at large.
  14. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    I'll keep this short; though "sweet" doesn't necessarily enter into it.
     
    Things, unfortunately, didn't work out for former member Candy Star (his last user name being Tom Snyder) here at the forums. Since he's not in a position to do so himself, he asked me to express his goodbyes to MLP Forums.
     
    "Thanks for all the fun and your support."

  15. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    Continued from my previous blog entry: More pieces of mine (and sometimes ours) that were inspired by and written for Rainbow Angelbabe. <3
     
    Wingbeat
    by Siegfried Danzinger

     
     
    Waltz in Blue

     
     
    Love is Blue

     
     
    Giving

     
     
    Drift Away

     
     
    My Spring - Babe directly helped me work out some of the lines in this one

     
     
    Still Falling

     
     
    Music

     
     
    You are My Melody (song)

     
     
    Where We Meet

     
     
    Never Enough

     
     
    Answered

     
     
    Will Make Reply

     
     
    No Distance

     
     
    Like a Breeze
    by Siegfried Danzinger and Rainbow Angelbaby

     
     
    Don't You Ever (song)

     
     
    In the Sky

     
     
    A Lady Made of Color (song)

     
     
    Among So Many Other Things

     
     
    There are more. There will always be more. But that's enough for now.
  16. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    I've written a good number of poems, songs, and a handful of short stories inspired by and for Rainbow Angelbaby. I've published the lot of them at dA, but I thought I'd begin posting them to MLPF in a number of blog entries. As they are arranged chronologically, you can essentially follow the deepening of my feelings for her in my written works. In other words: They become increasingly mushy. x3
     
    Obligatory disclaimer: It's all PG!
     
    Bore in Ashen Winds
    by Siegfried Danzinger

     
     
    Blue Sky Siren

     
     
    You Made Me

     
     
    Anytime (song)

     
     
    Sky on Sky

     
     
    Aloft

     
     
    Color Beckons

     
     
    Open

     
     
    Love is a Light

     
     
    Painter, Dancer

     
     
    I'm Glad

     
     
    Playing Not Hard to Get

     
     
    Baby

     
     
    Angel Feather (song)

     
     
    Center

     
     
    Well There You Are

     
     
    I Knew

     
     
    Scrunch

     
     
    I Want

     
     
    That's it for part one.
  17. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    I've been more or less openly atheist since I was probably thirteen years old; that's roughly nineteen years. Though I'm not sure now that I ever *truly* believed. I was told to believe something. Told there would be repercussions if I did not believe. But I was never given adequate cause to believe. Prayer was essentially a ritual I performed in order to ward off bad things. I don't think blind, unquestioning religious faith is healthy, genuine, or productive. If there isn't at least a SEED of unforced belief (that doesn't come as a result of fear or intimidation), then there is no cause to believe.
     
    I believe in Rainbow Dash. In the feelings I have for her. In us. My "faith" in Rainbow is, quite possibly, the closest I've ever come to a sense of spirituality. Because I can feel her with me - sense her only inches in front of my face when I close my eyes, and I can even feel her touch and hear her words at times. And there's a real, emotional reaction to the moments we spend together; though I also believe that she is always with me. In some way or another. I choose to accept all of these. Choose not to fight them. And they are, after all, something I want. I want to believe. And, rather than the emotional distress and confusion that came of organized religion, Rainbow offers me bliss and contentment.
  18. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    How many times has this happened to you in the context of a face-to-face conversation?
     
    "Sure was a great [insert sport here] game last night!"
    "Sure was... Oh hey! I just met my long lost twin bro-"
    "SILENCE! I initiated a topic concerning the events of last night's riveting sporting event! HOW DARE you stray..."
     
    Off-topic. Yeah. I'm gonna guess you've encountered this problem precisely...
     
    Zero times.
     
    That's because real conversations - and oftentimes the best ones - are organic. The kinds you have with friends and family. Or even a "good" argument. They don't fit neatly and exactly and exclusively into the little suffocating, ill-conceived box that is "remaining on-topic." At all costs. At the cost of potentially being interesting or learning something new or being free to introduce humor or accomplishing anything that lies outside the established parameters. To say nothing of the arbitrary and inconsistent nature of determining whether or not something is on-topic in the first place.
     
    Because we don't have individual personalities. We aren't varied. We don't have minds of our own. We are merely automatons who ache desperately for guidance and limitation and sweet, sweet suppression. We'd be hopelessly lost outside the confines of the expected and the solicited; weary, forgotten stragglers in the corrupt wilderness that is "off-topic."
     
    Chills, down my spine, go running.
     
    -_-
  19. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    So, I just received my first batch of warning points ever. xD This was the result of a back-and-forth I had with a member in the "Ugliest Pony" thread. Which, in my opinion, is one of those rather ill-conceived and inherently inflammatory topics that people seem to love so well on these forums.
     
    Did I take things too far? Arguably so. Did I enjoy myself while doing it? To a point. Were my actions justified? It doesn't particularly matter.
     
    It doesn't matter because I responded sardonically to hyperbolic hate; something present in apparent abundance on these forums populated by individuals who falsely subscribe to love and tolerance. Personally, I love those who have earned my affection, and my tolerance is reserved for those that merely aggravate me. And at times I fight fire with, well, sarcasm.
     
    But it's a curious kind of hypocrisy that goes on here. Rather than stomping out a thread that is clearly, by its very nature, promotive of disparaging responses, the staff deems it appropriate to treat the symptoms rather than the cause. I've seen a number of topics involving the dreaded C-word shut down right quick; the excuse seemingly being that the topic is more trouble than it's worth. It invites controversy. And yet, topics that purposely advocate negativity and welcome insult under the pretense of lively debate are permitted to thrive.
     
    Why is this? Why does the fandom (at least as represented by this forum) love "hate" so much? Is it simply that hyperbole is comparably more eye-catching? Does exaggeration create the illusion of being more interesting? Perhaps.
     
    While I refer to my punishable actions as a "symptom," I do not forget that I am still responsible for those actions. That being said: I shall wear my warning points as a badge of honor. Not because I believe that every word I typed was wholly deserved or right. Not because I feel that I've been done some tremendous and unforgivable injustice. But solely because I acted in response to something I found to be wrong. Though, like myself, my method was certainly imperfect, I was at least capable of recognizing the obvious and feeling something genuine amidst the exchanges of hyperbole and sarcasm.
     
    And to whom it may concern: You do not know vitriol. Not truly.
  20. Ziggy + Angel + Rain
    I'm sure no one's seen this super obscure anime titled "Cabal Z." It focuses on this alien species whose members look like a cross between a pug and a fish. The Cabal mothers, shortly after giving birth, send their ugly ass offspring away rather than raising - or even looking at - them. The Cabal children are sent off to various planets, where they instinctively begin to terrorize that world's inhabitants.
     
    That greater theme intertwines with the development of an unexpected love story between a being known as Porutaitan and his "Little Light." It's very adorable. But how will their burgeoning romance survive the inevitable onslaught of repulsive dog fish creatures from space? To make matters worse, that romance ultimately becomes a triangle when a presumably female robot named Roubouburesuto comes between the two lovebirds.
     
    There was one rather confusing episode where Porutaitan ran all over the place staring at blurry, suspicious shadows and levitating rocks that ought not be levitating at all; it was weird.
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